Hey babe,
An email from Baby Cousin to me 11 days after she left for Japan to pursue her studies. To think that I've only realized it yesterday : ( (I hardly check my hotmail account) She must be thinking that I have forgotten about her! : ( Rather obvious that she is not doing well over there...Guess I must work harder and stop buying the unnecessary stuff so as to save up to visit her in Japan!
Hey girl
Sad to know that you are doing badly over in Japan. Perhaps, try to have more initiative and say more "hullo"s to your new friends? Believed you can do it though the initial stage is definitely more difficult. Had that issue when I first went to SIM to study and due to different characteristics, I couldn't click with the people. Doing projects with them is nut-case as working styles is obviously different. Ultimately, I moved onto the next group and guess I was just pure unlucky - I couldn't click well with the 2nd group as well. They are more into girlie stuff and clubbing, something which is not me. Got to know Christine (Wonder if you still remember her) while sitting alone and I initiated a "hello" to her and the friendship took off from there. Got to know more people together and we formed the dream team. Till now, we, with the exception of Christine, the mad woman who flew to Japan, still meet up every now and then to catch up. I never regret going through the tedious path for these good friends of mine : ) I believe the same goes for you too. It's never easy to find something valuable. Grit your teeth and march on. Since you have made your decision to be independent for one year, never regret. I will always be standing right behind you : )
As for the kau, well, after a week you left, we met up for dinner at Marina Square. It was really awkward looking at each other straight in the eye. All we could talk about was superficial stuff like jobs as well as other people, but never ourselves. Guess there was too much hidden stuff that we stashed in our hearts...just as well, perhaps, we are just too tired to go through the vicious cycle of confrontation and heartbreak? Anyway, we have not contacted for 3 weeks and I must say that though I feel relieved and happy that I do not need to go through the same kind of pressure when meeting up with him, I do feel kinda lost. Afterall, we have been together for 5 years. It could have been decades..Gosh, I feel choked while talking about this issue. Let's move on, shall we?
I am so sorry that I reply so late - I hardly check my hotmail account. Do drop me mails in my yahoo account and I will reply almost instantly. Frankly, you are not the one who is sad. I feel sad that you are so far away...Guess it's only when one loses something, the feeling is more intense? I miss pouring my bitter grievances out to you..I will try my best to see if I can go to Japan to meet up with you alright? In the meantime, hang on!
Drop me mails whenever you want : )
Missing you badly,
Jo
