I Am Thinking Of...

These few days have been overwhelmed by the importance of money. Realized that I hate poverty and I refused to get anywhere near it! If I have extra cash at this present moment....I would splurge it on:

Louis Vuitton Neverfull PM in Damier, to stash all my rubbish in!

A sweet pink Nissan March to zoom around Singapore and JB!

A beautiful diamond bling bling from Tiffany & Co. Awww.....

A whole carton of SK II Miracle Water to soak my haggard face.

A short resort escape to soothe the tired soul...

A Hopeless Lovelorn

I am so damn sick that it's already Monday today. Another few more hours and I have to go back to the hellhole of an office..Man~ : ( It has been quite sometime since I had such a relaxing Sunday - Came home at 9am and slept for an hour before Daddy woke me up from my slumber (Tsk tsk, this Daddy is horrible : P ) Had a few mouthfuls of Bro's peanut porridge and vermicelli bought from the market despite wolfing down a piece of plain (but oily) roti prata an hour back : P (Will I get fatter and fatter...?) Did much catching up with Daddy, Aunt Maddy and Bro (Hey, it does seem like ages since I sat down and spoke to them!); fortunately, they did not ask me about Fat Boy..

Talking about Fat Boy, it has been 3 weeks since I spoke to him. Though I feel relieved, I miss him tonnes! (Don't ask me why) Though I dare not initiate to communicate with him, I have been going onto MSN to see if he's around, looking onto roads hoping to catch a glimpse of SDM 9040 zooming by and so on...(Gosh, I feel like a hopeless lovelorn..) Then again, is he feeling what I am feeling right now and is he simply oblivious to me? I have no idea. I wish to know the answer, yet I know I will not have the courage to face it, be it yes or no. Damn.

Anyway, his 35th birthday is coming. This date has been circling in my head for ages. What should I do about it? Get him out for a birthday meal? Courier him his present? What about his birthday SMS? Should I or should I not send him? (My head is starting to crack...Help)

Recently have been dreaming about him. Dreaming of us getting back together. Dreaming of us in the past, when we were still so happy. No quarrels, no heartbreak, no tears. Just pure happiness. Adeline has been dropping gentle reminders of Judgment Day (which is 1 August) - the day that determines who my heart wants to be with...(Stressed eh?) I really hope I will know it by then and whatever decision I've made, either party will respect it. This is what I hope for.

I am a brown Koala

You are Brown Koala, who is quiet and modest. You are graceful and have atmosphere of being rather old fashioned. You don't like conflicts and are a peaceful person. People will not hate you. But you don't get loved passionately by the others either. You tend to have the same kind of relationships with each one of them, and no one becoming special. You don't get too close to anyone.You have great sensitivity, and those who get to know you may find you rather too nervous. You are cautious to people around you, and worry too much about your family and yourself. You are realistic person, and you prefer rationalism to emotional things.Nevertheless, you possess great sensitivity and have sense of beauty. You are very romantic type of person. You also possess natural aptitude to spirituality. Your selfish comment may make you isolated from people around you. If you can control your weakness, you may be able to show your talent that matches the need of the society.If you try to be a perfectionist, you will break the inner balance and may shut yourself in your own dreamy world.

A Letter With Love

Hey babe,

It has been more than a week since we parted at the airport... *cries*

Why have you not come online ever since? Have been meaning to chat with you =(

So how have you been? The weather is sweltering hot here and writing this email to you makes me think back of the good old days when we would send 'our pigeons' to each other. *laughs*

How is work and things at home esp grandma? I am super home sick and miss everyone at home!! (it was terrible the first day dickson left~~ *sobs*)

Btw are things better between u and the kau?

Hope you have already made the difficult choice between the 2 impt guys in your life! =P

Life here has been so-so so far... din make any potential gd friends as yet because I cut into the class halfway where everyone knew each other already!!

My ominous predictions of being all alone without anyone to talk to are coming true!! Oh no~~

Sighh~~ The only time I do utter a few words are during class hours and when I come home I can only indulge in monologues.

*cries* My mouth is mainly used for eating these days and I am under the impression that I am dumb... =(

Well hopefully things will improve and thanks for sending me off at the airport yar!

You take care and till I hear from you!!

Missing all @ home dearly~~

Wynne

An email from Baby Cousin to me 11 days after she left for Japan to pursue her studies. To think that I've only realized it yesterday : ( (I hardly check my hotmail account) She must be thinking that I have forgotten about her! : ( Rather obvious that she is not doing well over there...Guess I must work harder and stop buying the unnecessary stuff so as to save up to visit her in Japan!

Hey girl

Sad to know that you are doing badly over in Japan. Perhaps, try to have more initiative and say more "hullo"s to your new friends? Believed you can do it though the initial stage is definitely more difficult. Had that issue when I first went to SIM to study and due to different characteristics, I couldn't click with the people. Doing projects with them is nut-case as working styles is obviously different. Ultimately, I moved onto the next group and guess I was just pure unlucky - I couldn't click well with the 2nd group as well. They are more into girlie stuff and clubbing, something which is not me. Got to know Christine (Wonder if you still remember her) while sitting alone and I initiated a "hello" to her and the friendship took off from there. Got to know more people together and we formed the dream team. Till now, we, with the exception of Christine, the mad woman who flew to Japan, still meet up every now and then to catch up. I never regret going through the tedious path for these good friends of mine : ) I believe the same goes for you too. It's never easy to find something valuable. Grit your teeth and march on. Since you have made your decision to be independent for one year, never regret. I will always be standing right behind you : )

As for the kau, well, after a week you left, we met up for dinner at Marina Square. It was really awkward looking at each other straight in the eye. All we could talk about was superficial stuff like jobs as well as other people, but never ourselves. Guess there was too much hidden stuff that we stashed in our hearts...just as well, perhaps, we are just too tired to go through the vicious cycle of confrontation and heartbreak? Anyway, we have not contacted for 3 weeks and I must say that though I feel relieved and happy that I do not need to go through the same kind of pressure when meeting up with him, I do feel kinda lost. Afterall, we have been together for 5 years. It could have been decades..Gosh, I feel choked while talking about this issue. Let's move on, shall we?

I am so sorry that I reply so late - I hardly check my hotmail account. Do drop me mails in my yahoo account and I will reply almost instantly. Frankly, you are not the one who is sad. I feel sad that you are so far away...Guess it's only when one loses something, the feeling is more intense? I miss pouring my bitter grievances out to you..I will try my best to see if I can go to Japan to meet up with you alright? In the meantime, hang on!

Drop me mails whenever you want : )

Missing you badly,
Jo

18 July 2008

If both Fat Boy and I were still together, we would be celebrating our 6th year anniversary. Yes, 6 years. One of the longest romance marathons in my life. Somehow..I have mixed feelings on this day. Sad that everything fell apart before we made it...yet relieved that both of us are released from the painful grasp of the vicious cycle of going nowhere..somehow, someone has to be the bad guy and break the chain (in this case, it's me) Anyway, Happy 6th anniversary :~(

Last Wednesday evening, I met up with King Kong at Raffles Place MRT station and together we took the train to Eunos. We walked to Joo Chiat to have the famous Fei Fei wanton mee (Yummy! I like its traditional taste very much, albeit the few pieces of char siew and wanton) Feeling full, we strolled to Four Seasons Durian Cafe in hope to squeeze more tummy space for durians! (The thought of durians is making me salivate now : D~) We sat by the roadside and enjoy the wonderful D24 durians (You should see his greedy look while eating them) before taking a bus home. Oh, before taking a bus home, we continued to walk to Parkway Parade as I thought it might burn some of the calories : P; I remember squatting by the toilet bowl
: ( (Must be the immediate effect from the durians) and walking out of the ladies' with cramped feet : ( Boo...

As for yesterday evening, I followed King Kong to Pasir Ris as he needed to fulfil his temple duties by burning the big box of joss paper (Yesterday was the 15th of the lunar month...) By the time he finished, it was already 8pm and both of us were famished : ~ ( As if it was not late enough, we had to take a train to Simei before we walked about 10 minutes to the Chinese restaurant that he wanted to introduce me : / I must say that I was not happy during the journey >: ( Gave him a cold shoulder (I was too angry for words) and instead of screaming at me for bad behaviour, he coaxed me, in hope of calming the tense situation : ) I was so relieved when I touched the first morsel of food and I went from an angry to a happy girl almost instantly : )

Will be meeting Aunt Maddy and Bro for dinner tonight. It has been quite sometime since I have a good dinner with them..Though the venue and timing have not been confirmed yet, I believe it's the company and not the food and ambience that counts : )

*Sigh* To think that I spent all my Fridays with Fat Boy in the past.......

About Last Weekend...

Attended the quarterly sales workshop at Meriteus Mandarin in Orchard Road last Saturday morning and I must say it was absolutely boring : ( It was all about SWOT and CSA and there was really nothing much to look forward to. The market trend presentation was also in a mess and frankly speaking, I absolutely had no idea what it was : / Guess the only thing to cheer about was a gift from Boss for my 3 years with the company (It was a lady's pen from Tiffany & Co) and international buffet lunch at Triple 3 : ) I had 11 oysters by the way and I believed my cholestrol level must be sky-high right now : P

Met up with King Kong who was waiting for me at the lobby and together, we took Bus 123 to my place where I went to have a quick shower and a change of comfy clothes of T-shirt, bermudas and flip-flops : ) We proceeded to Little India as he wanted to bring me to Hindu temples to look at the various Ganesha status (Unfortunately, due to the timing, the trip was not fruitful) We continued walking from Race Course Road to Bartley Road where we had turtle soup for dinner. It tasted quite good, just that the turtle flesh was in bite-sizes. I would prefer it to be in bigger chunks. Hence, my vote goes to the turtle soup stall in MacPherson Road! : )

After the super heaty dinner, we took a bus to Bishan Junction 8 to catch "The Battle of Red Cliff" and along the way, both of us fell asleep : P (It is a waste of time to look at the moving scenary when you are sleepy eh?) The show was fantastic with its war scenes and I must say that I was bowled over by Kaneshiro Takeshi, who starred as Zhuge Liang (He's really the world's most beautiful man~!)

As for Sunday, we stayed at home and watched HK drama serials and snoozing away. We also made a brief appearance at his baby niece's babyshower buffet. I must say that I was quite bored as I did not know many of the people there; acted as a smiling mannequin during our 45-minute stay (Fortunately, it was just 45 minutes : ) ) Took a bus to Loyang Tua Pek Kong Temple as I wanted to offer incense and we proceeded to Bugis to have dim sum dinner after that. We completed the day with ice cold soya beancurd from Rochor : P~

Pretentious Food & Simple Fare

Last Tuesday evening, I met up with both Rightie and Adeline for dinner at Crystal Jade in Takashimaya. It was nice to see both of them again ; ) As usual, we chatted happily between morsels of seafood bee hoon, marinated chicken feet, coffee ribs, seafood fried rice, wanton noodles and garlic prawns (What a feast!) Though we were so damn full, we insisted on having desserts to round up the meal : P Both of them had iced red bean dessert whereas I had black sesame glutinous rice balls covered in peanut shavings : ) I felt fat...(Boo)

As for Wednesday evening, I went to City Hall MRT station to meet up with King Kong before walking over to John Little for Godma - She had wanted to go shopping before our dinner at Waraku. However, due to certain reasons, we ended up sipping ocha and nibbling fried softshell crab, tempura sushi and fried tofu while waiting for Godpa. He arrived at 7pm and we began tucking into the wonderful Japanese dishes : ) We proceeded to Xin Wang HK Cafe for desserts (glutinous rice balls in sesame paste and Chinese tea for me : ) ) as we felt that there was not much variety for desserts in Waraku. We spoke about the SPI forum, Godpa's adventures in France and his love for Spanish ham : ) Time flies and we parted as Godma was showing signs of lethargy (She was dropping obvious hints that she wanted to go home and rest when Godpa kept rattling about the French culture!) Both King Kong and I had a stroll along Esplanade before we took the bus home : )

As for yesterday, I was pissed with King Kong for not being able to accompany for dinner because he needed to work at night >: ( (Yes, I was throwing tantrums again) I refused to go lunch with him (I refused to see him) Worried that I might go hungry, he sneaked out during tea-break to buy spicy salmon gunkan from Sakae Sushi for me. As I had no dinner plans, I stayed back in the office to finish up the Powerpoint slides meant for tomorrow's workshop before taking a train home. By the time I reached Queenstown MRT station, it was already 7:30pm (My mixed veggie stall had closed for the day) I decided to have simple fare for dinner, hence I went to NTUC and bought kale, a tin of tomato sardines, a bunch of bananas and 2 packets of milk. My last meal of the day consisted of porridge, boiled kale in oyster sauce and Gramp's leftover fish in chilli and beanpaste : )

Well, he's not free again this evening : ( Anyway, I am going to have my oily massage and cold wraps later on : ) Time to lose the excess pounds and firm up the skin! : ) Not sure what I am going to do after that; anyway, it sucks to know that I have to wake up at 6:45am for the stupid workshop! Arghhhhhhh!!!

Simple fare of porridge and kale in oyster sauce : )

Having a mini snooze while waiting for the porridge to simmer..

Last Weekend...

Last Friday was Kherray's last day with the company (How come everybody seems to be leaving?!) We went to Hotpot Culture at Marina Square for steamboat (Dammit! It killed my diet plans) and by the time I finished, my tummy was aching badly :~ ( (It must be the prawns, beef slices, veggie, fruits, chocolate fondue and banana cake) Ran to the ladies' to purge the evil toxins : P Proceeded to Gloria Jeans to sip a hot mug of green tea (Hmmmm...) before flagging a cab home. The fare came to 15 bucks (Damn)

As for Saturday morning, I woke up bright and cheery because I was going to Johor Bahru with King Kong! Waited for him at my void deck and hopped into his rented car before making our way to the Causeway. We were happily chatting and making plans (We were supposed to meet up with Sunshine Boy, Sharon & Isaac, Jacintha as well as Adeline at Jusco Tebrau) when an isolated rim from some bastard's car flew towards us. During that very split second, King Kong steered away but could not escape the bloody rim and we ended up with a punctured tyre
: ( Anxious, we shifted the car to the road shoulder; and using his wit, he went to the boot, took out a spare tyre and began fixing it with the spanner and all the bolts and knuckles (Argh!) As if it was not misfortunate enough, we had to endure an hour of traffic jam. By the time we reached Johor Bahru, we were dying of hunger : (~ Despite the constant rumbling of our poor tummies, we went to the car workshop to repair the spiked tyre and to ensure that everything was in order (I do not want to die in a mishap) before we conducted our search for A&W (We happily thought that it was just a corner away and our tummies would contain food within minutes. But we were so wrong...) We kept losing our way and I was so angry that I told him I do not want to have A&W >: ( (A hungry man is an angry man) Ultimately, we settled for KFC (Imagine that very instance my teeth sank into the tender and juicy chicken thigh..)

After tunch, we walked around the shopping mall hoping to burn away the calories and to empty tummy space for the seafood dinner later on. Initially, I thought I could buy some Mango clothings (Sale! Sale! Sale!) but did not as I could not find something that I really liked : / As we were afraid that we might lose our way again, we drove around, trying to find where Senibong Seafood Village was - We found the place within half an hour and we had a sumptous seafood dinner of kale topped with garlic, chilli crab as well as steamed grouper : P We ended the trip with a movie - Hancock and we totally regretted watching it (It sucks. Big time)

As for Sunday, it was nothing much - We went to Ayer Rajah Food Centre to have lunch. We had mee goreng, Indian rojak as well chicken nasi bryani washed down with sugar cane juice : ) As I was uncomfortable in stale clothes, I went home to bathe and change into fresh and clean clothes : ) We continued our day by strolling around Rocher Centre (I was amazed by the shops that sell figurines of Chinese deities as well as kumanthongs), sleeping on buses, having dinner at Ghim Moh Food Centre, grocery-shopping at Jelita Shopping Centre and strolling home : )

Everyday Bliss

Just gave Rightie and Adeline a ring as I miss them : ~ (

The week is rather slow..yet, I cannot really recall what I have been doing all these while. Everything comes as blurry (Perhaps, I am living in a dream) Yesterday evening, King Kong fetched me from work and we went to offer incense to Kwan Gong as it was the first day of the lunar month : ) After that, I went home to change into my comfy attire of T-shirt, shorts and flip-flops and we went to Alexandra Village to have dinner.

Had my usual comfort food - Rice with fish and kale washed down with sugar-cane juice : ) whereas he had rice with fish and bittergourd (Eeks!) We also ordered bak kut teh because he wanted to ensure that I was happy and full : ) (I felt so damn bloated after that...)

After the hearty dinner, we strolled around in Anchorpoint. We browsed through some tabloids and cooking books before making our way to Ikea as he wanted to see if there were new additionals to the menu at the food kiosk : P Unfortunately, the furniture giant was under renovation for an image revamp and as much as I hated the dust and whatsnot, we left and headed to NTUC at Dawson's Place (I wanted to buy Del Monte bananas : ) )

Grocery-shopping is therapeutic. The moment I stepped foot, I felt energetic and realized that I should not buy just bananas : P Took up a basket and walked around. The irony is that I did not buy any banana at all. Instead, I bought kiwis, donut nectarines, wheat biscuits and bottles of sugary drinks : P We walked home, with him carrying all the stuff whereas I was skipping around empty-handed : P

Nothing interesting here, but guess this is an everyday bliss. Simple, but nice : )

Byebye, Baby Cousin

Guess Baby Cousin must have reached Tokyo by now. It was indeed an emotional farewell at the airport yesterday : ~ ( Before she walked into the departure gate, we hugged and cried (Hey, I am no crybaby, but I am not going to see her for a year!) By the way, can you imagine that she had 3 big luggages stuffed with clothes enough to last her 365 days with her? In fact, she paid 450 bucks for excess baggage..(That girl's damn rich...)

Applied for half day leave so that I can be there just to wave goodbye (Her flight was at 8pm) It was great stepping out of the office at 1pm : ) Met up with King Kong at Cityhall MRT station and he brought me to Peninsula Plaza for chicken bryani (It sucks) Proceeded to Raffles City to have my daily dose of Chinese tea and a few bites of kaya and butter toast : P As his one hour lunchtime was up, we parted and I headed for my oily massage and cold wrap : P~ (Time to tone up those fats, baby!) before heading to the airport.

Last Friday, I specially applied a full day's leave to spend time with her : ) Though experienced a freaking 45-minute bus ride to Mandarin Gardens, I was very much excited about steambathing with her : ) It was a good (but suffocatingly hot) session as I could feel toxins, fats, blackheads and whiteheads oozing from every single pore. We grasped the opportunity to do DIY hair treatment (We wrapped our hair of glory after applying dollops of hair mask on it) during the process and wow, our manes were smoother and tamer (best of all, we did not fork out any cash) : ) Feeling vain, I proposed going for a good pedicure so that our nails and feet would feel pampered. She agreed and we had our one-hour pedicure session at the tiny shop near her house - We skipped out of the shop with smoother feet and vibrant-coloured toenails : D

Headed to Montreaux, a bistro at Siglap, for dinner. As we were starved and feeling carnivorous, I had medium-rare ribeye steak and she, steak burger : ) I must say that though the food was not fantastic, I quite enjoyed the dinner as we were reminicising the past and talking about how goofy our family were. As it was still early, we took a bus to Bugis Junction where we shopped (I bought a white top from South Haven) and sipped bubble tea : ) As we wanted to squeeze even more time to spend together, she brought me to a KTV lounge which she was raving about its reasonable prices earlier on. However, our eyes popped out when we saw its price list. It was simply not worth it and as there was nothing much to do, we parted ways and went home.

Hmmm...seriously, 1 year is a long time : / I will miss her : /

My lovely red nails. Yummy!

My baby cousin is mad about bread.