3 days before 2008

After 2 days of intense working (and trying to hit the minimum sales target), it's finally Saturday : ) Woke up at 10:20am and had wanton mee, which Aunt bought for me (Good life eh?) Went online and saw King Kong on MSN (There he went again, to ask me to spend more time with him. My god. I felt so pressurized!) - He was feeling under the weather and had gone to see the doctor. I have been feeling irritated by him recently. Seems like we would never be happy with so much expectations from him (Though he feels that they are simple for me to fulfill, I thought otherwise - Different definitions eh?) I didn't feel like talking to him anymore; there was nothing much to do so anyway. I hate it when he tried to question my intentions for various actions. It made me feel terribly invaded and well, I do not owe him any explanation for anything : /

Anyway, last Thursday, we met up and watched "Warlords" (yes, it's the 2nd time for me). I still enjoyed the show very much (because of Andy Lau) but it was not so for him. Halfway through, he started to fiddle with his mobile phone and excused himself for a while. Though initially pissed off, I decided that I did not have the right to be angry with him. However, I became increasingly irritated when he insisted that I was angry with him. Told him off when I needed peace. Well, he was also unhappy because I bought a G2000 business short not only for him but also for Fat Boy (Come on, what do you expect? If I have known that this would cause so much trouble for myself, I would have saved it up for my own clothings). Ultimately, we parted ways in an unhappy fashion (Told you that happiness was just a short-lived mirage)

Went to the gym with Fat Boy straight after work yesterday evening. Guess I needed a workout badly - The moment I was on the treadmill (or dreadmill), I felt exhilarated because I could feel the excess fats oozing away from my chubby cheeks, arms and tummy : P It was a good 20 minutes because I had jogged for 2.8km and lost 175kj of calories : ) However, I hope the workout did not go to waste when I chomped down steak and fries for dinner : ( (Anyway, who cares when one is starved? : P ) After that, we went to Loyang Tua Pek Kong Temple to pray for our well-being (sales had been dry.....Argh) before we went home happily (At least there was no stress or pressure to do things against my wishes : ) )

Would be going to Godpa's house next Monday to celebrate the coming of 2008 : ) as well as his daughter's birthday (Remind me to buy a Barbie doll as a present!) Felt so excited about it. Unfortunately, I can only turn up later : ( Wonder how much fun I would have missed! Argh!

Happy Boxing Day!

It's a nice feeling to stay up late when one is not working the next day (Oooohhh..I simply love it!) Listening to "Bad Day" by Alvin & The Chipmunks and thinking of King Kong, who loves this song and must be sleeping like a log right now : ) Would like to thank all who have given me not only X'mas gifts, but also their love : ) I would like to thank:

• Boss who gave me a heartwarming handwritten X'mas card (I was so touched that I could cry!)
• Adeline who gave me a black belt and a heart-shaped necklace with colorful gems (How did she know I love bling bling?)
• Sharon who gave me a red heart-shaped photo frame (Heartshapes again! Awww..how sweet!)
• Sunshine Boy who gave me a Winnie The Pooh plushie (Oh, I have exchanged it for Piggy because I prefer pink : P )
• Godpa & Godma who gave me a cushion! (Good for my crooked spine)
• Baby Cousin who gave me a ring with a multi-colored crystal (How well she knows me!)
• Sworn Sista who gave me...(Erm, she forgot to bring it along when I met up with her last Saturday : ( )
• Bud who gave me an Alicia Key CD (Woo..I thought I only like "Fallin'"?)
• Fat Boy who gave me an Elizabeth Arden Green Tea perfume (I simply love its refreshing smell!)
• King Kong who gave me a Chomel pink bracelet (I don't care even if it will cause me rashes!)

Went for a short lunch with King Kong at TCC in Citylink on X'mas eve. Was glad to meet up with him and after a hearty lunch of sandwiches and shakes, we strolled to Bugis, where we took the bus home. Unfortunately, the time spent together was just 2 hours - I was too lethargic and needed sleep before going for the buffet dinner. He was complaining about the short duration and promised to bring me to Indochine and Melt Cafe next X'mas eve and X'mas respectively : ) (I sure hope it will materialize!)

Reached home at 3pm, bathed and snoozed for a few hours before heading to the former New Park Hotel for my X'mas buffet. Was happy to see my Baby Cousin (as well as sad that that was the last X'mas dinner I had with her : ( ) She seemed to be troubled by her relationship with Dickie Boi and I guess it was only a matter of time before they broke up - There were simply too much issues : ( (Wonder if that would happen to me in the near future?) After tucking into huge prawns, mussels, stir-fried veggie and chunks of watermelon, I headed to Conrad International with them for drinks. As I felt "heaty", I ordered an Heineken, which instantly made me feel much better : ) As I was feeling sleepy, I went home to have my beauty sleep...

Yes, that was how I spent my X'mas Eve.

I think I look like a fat chipmunk.

Merry Cheer~!

After much liaison with the crew representatives and Boss regarding the menu and other minute details for several days, we finally executed my baby project, which was the Company's X'mas Dinner, last Friday! : ) Though the restaurant, Pier 11, which was situated in Marina Coastal Drive, hence difficult to access, we were not deterred by it : ) Had much fun taking snapshots of one another (Not sure how long we could last in the Company, hence, the pictures could actually reminded us how much fun we had just being together) and all animosity vaporized (except my dislike for Jacintha >: ( ). An important thing to take note was that Boss had changed for the better - He was no longer the rigid, nasty and stingy old Jew : ) He was actually game to drink and make merry with us (Yay! There's hope for BGC~!~)

P/S: Uh oh...I had wanted to write more, but I guess I have to rush for my X'mas buffet now..I know I have promised to write for you, King Kong. I will continue when I reach home alright? In the meantime, you can browse through my web album! *Muakz*

X'mas with BGC Dec 2007

Dinner & Coffee

Finally met up with Ping & Pat after 6 long months! I cannot believe that they were so busy to such extent >: ( I was quite excited to meet up with them because I wanted to know what they did during this period; rushed out of the office at 6:15pm to meet Ping at Orchard MRT station control. Was quite shocked when I met her - She looked kinda haggard and she lost the radiance she once had (But hey, she had just got married to her boyfriend of 7 years!)

We strolled to Sushi Tei at Paragon because I had wanted to have something light (I am on a diet, remember?) Pat joined us much later and we all tucked into our sushi : ) (I had mango roll. Yummy!) As we did not meet up for such a long time, it took quite a while for us to warm up with one another and in no time, we started to share stuff that happened in our lives.

Though Ping had just got married to her boyfriend and should be as happy as a lark, it was not the case - She was unhappy because they had some conflicts over the banquet. She felt pressurized by her parents to hold it soon, but her husband was not for the idea : ( In addition, she was also stressed by her degree program. Life sucks eh?

As for Pat, I felt happy for her because her boyfriend had just proposed to her and she had accepted it (Duh~!) But she was terribly unhappy with work and had begun to look for greener pastures..*Sigh*

As for me, I am still the same...wonder when is my turn to progress to the next level...

The 3 of us..

Before Monday...

Was kinda reluctant to wake up at 9am just now (Hey! It's a luxury! If not because the bladder was full and the mouth was dry...) Quickly bounced out of bed, went to do the necessary and went back to bed until 11am...Ate my mee rebus which Aunt Maddy had bought for me and went to execute the pending task that had been dragged on (by excuses of "I am so sleepy", "Next Sunday would be better because such tasks require longer time to have a better effect" and so on) for weeks - Dyeing her hair : P Finally fulfilled the sacred task within 20 minutes and I guess it's always better than dragging it any further (else there is no more breakfast for me!)

I attended the SPI X'mas BBQ at Labrador Park yesterday. It was nice meeting up with the other members : ) but it was even nicer to dig in the variety of sumptuous grilled chicken fillets, lambchops, steaks and sausages! In addition, there were also chocolate cake (to celebrate the birthdays of members who are born in this month) and log cake (tasted the same as chocolate cake though) : D~ After having great fun and a full tummy, both King Kong and I walked from Labrador Park to my house (just a 45 minute walk, see how convenient my house is?). It was nice strolling in the cool night breeze while doing some catching-up. It had been a long time since we had such a good chat (It had always been arguments for the past few outings) and I guess I enjoyed it tremendously : )

Before the BBQ, we went to Vivocity to catch "Alvin & The Chipmunks" - A nice, hilarious and heartwarming show which is just perfect for X'mas : ) During the show, King Kong kept saying that he liked Theodore. Little did he know that I like the fattest, cutest and most innocent chipmunk the best as well : ) When we came out of the movie theater, I received a phone call from Gramps. The house was in a state of black-out and there was nobody at home except for BoyBoy : ( I had to rush home to set things right before heading for the BBQ. Initially, it was pouring cats and dogs; fortunately, the skies cleared up just before 6pm : ) (Yay!)

I thought my face was the oiliest of all.

Using eye power to set up the fire should suffice eh?

Let me use arm power right now : (

King Kong & me.

Frosty Cold!

It has been pouring nonstop these few weeks. Hence, the weather is frosty cold and it doesn't help that I am stuck in a freezing corner. Of course, it is fantastic to be under the warm blanket all day long in such low temperatures; but definitely not outside home sweet home where there is no blanket : ( Furthermore, in order to keep warm and happy, one tends to consume more carbohydrates (which means more starchy stuff and more sugar) and hot soup (which also means more MSG and more oil) : (

I am no exception. I have been eating hot soupy noodles during lunch. Sounds healthy, but imagine the carbohydrates from the noodles and MSG from the yummy soup : ( (wondering if I am going bald soon : ( ) A few days back, when I was looking myself at the mirror, I realized that I have grown fatter (That's the worst thing that can ever happen to me!) Is it the weekly beer gulping sessions? Is it the good food I have been gobbling for the past few days? Is it that I have not been burning enough fats from jogging? Or that I have forgotten my "half portion" rule?

Indeed, it has posed a daily nagging reminder that I have grown fatter; but due to the sickening cold weather which is the cause of a voracious appetite, how is it possible that I restrict myself from slurping the tasty hot soup or finish the other half portion of rice? (Rice! My wonderful rice!) What a bloody headache..to be caught in the dilemma of shallow vanity and the simplest basic need? Then again, is it necessary that I feel this way? Is it because it's dark and cold, that's why I am feeling so blue? (It must be!)

In addition, some parts of my face are starting to peel and I am getting the runs : ( (Deja vu! It happened when I was in Melbourne - I had the runs for the entire 15 days; Guess what? I lost the pounds - temporarily) Guess my tummy is kinda sensitive to chilly weathers (Time to put on a cardigan!), but I will never slap on moisturizer like how other females, especially Adeline, do! I am extremely paranoid of clogged pores! Argh!

Well, feeling the chills right now...guess it's time to jump into bed and hide underneath the good old blankie : ) At this point of time, who is to complain having natural air conditioner is bad?

I just have to leave the complaints till tomorrow! >: (

Formal, Baby!

My Saturday morning was burnt once more for the Company : ( Due to the branding exercise, we had to attend an image consulting workshop at Meritus Mandarin Hotel. As usual, I was feeling very grouchy (hey! my Saturdays are very precious! >: ( ) especially when I had to wear formal attire for the workshop. Initially, I had wanted to put on my blazer because I was afraid that I might be the odd one who wore informal (We were told to wear our best formal attire), however, after much consideration, I decided to break the rules and go without - I decided that a Zara short-sleeved shirt, a skirt and a pair of silver patent pointed shoes would suffice.

True enough, not everybody wore in their best formal attire (Boy, I was relieved) : ) Breezed through the whole process of mixing and matching clothes and accessories to give the most formal effect, the interpretations and implications of behaviors and handling clients. My initial displeasure morphed into great enthusiasm due to the interesting topics as well as the professionalism of the image consultant : ) I guess she was successful in drawing our short-span attention and though it was a 4-hour workshop, she managed to make us feel that it was not long, dry and draggy : ) *Clap Clap*

After the workshop ended, we strolled to Crystal Jade at Takashimaya to have lunch. I was so hungry that I could faint - The refreshments of meat dumplings and chocolate eclairs failed to fill up our tummies : ( Ordered seafood bee hoon and as mentioned, I was so hungry that I gobbled up the whole plate within minutes (I was surprised that Adeline, Sharon and Gabrielle ordered porridge - man, weren't they starved?) As for dessert, it was my first time ordering a milky dessert (Did I tell you that I am lactose-intolerant?); I gave into temptation since both Sharon and Adeline were singing praises of it and the best part: It was good for the complexion! My thought at the very first instance went: Yuck!

After lunch, I headed home and immediately went to take a 3-hour nap...(This was the best part of the day. Really.)

Image Consulting Workshop

Under The Weather

Was feeling under the weather for the whole afternoon - My throat hurt and my nose was kinda stuck; I was feeling lethargic. However, after the darn weekly sales meeting, I met up with King Kong before we marched to the Shin Bar to meet up with Adeline, Sharon and Deryx for the long-awaited ice cold : P~

The atmosphere was rather awkward. Though we spoke about Jacintha, it was rather brief and shallow; everybody seemed to be on defense mode (What happened?) and I could feel that we were no longer at ease with one another. Anyway, since I am not involved in the whole issue, I guess it is wiser for me to steer clear - I will not benefit from anything should Jacintha is asked to leave (In that case, why should I allow myself to be used as a tool by somebody else to remove her from the company?) Hence, I guess I can only put on a plastic smile when I am asked for my opinion regarding the latter...

Due to the image consulting workshop which is organized this coming Saturday, I can't go to the SPI charity drive - which we will be handing out goodie packs (which consist of sachets of Milo, cereal and biscuits) to the unfortunate elderly : ( As I really want to do something for them, both Fat Boy and I went to Seng Siong in Little India to buy the necessities in bulk. Though it was slightly troublesome to carry the heavy stuff to and fro, I felt happy. To us, we have such easy access to these necessities to the extent that we have taken for granted, but to them, these are luxury goods..Hence, since I can afford them, I do not mind giving some happiness and comfort to them : )

Guess what? It's only Tuesday tomorrow and I am dying right now - How nice I can sleep in till late noon : ) Dammit. Life's a bitch.

Wondering...

Though he is forbidden by his deity to meet up with me, we met up yesterday. Went to Han's at Marina Square for a short dinner before making our way to Bugis - I had wanted to ease my craving for bubble tea : ) It did feel weird meeting up with him after such a long time (yes, I know it's only slightly over 2 weeks); there was a mixture of anticipation, anguish as well as joy (though I refused to admit so) He had dropped a few pounds and looked visibly tired, which was very different from the active and smiley King Kong months back.

Frankly speaking, I didn't know how to react in his presence. Should I act chirpy or just remain nonchalant? (I didn't know and I felt like an idiot) I had loads to tell him - I wanted to tell him that I kinda missed him though I felt sick of his money issues. However, he beat me to it when he told me that he had received a call from his cousin saying that his deity had got wind of our outing and that he was worried because he had broken his promise to the latter not to meet me till Chinese New Year. When asked about the consequences, he mentioned he might lose everything (Never play with higher powers eh?) and things would be much better if I had agreed to support him all the way (but I was not prepared to).

Every single time when he brings up the issue, I will feel tremendously sick. I strongly do not believe in girls supporting guys. No way. Though I must say I miss him alot, the aching feeling immediately morphs into pure anger and frustration the moment he tries to persuade me. I just want to run away from him...and confirm once again that this is not what I want for long term...Tried numerous times to forget about the whole issue and move on, but many a time, I cannot forget his big hands, his lovesick face and towering physique..

Should I leave? Am I able to do it? Can I forget him? I don't know.

Millions of Needles

After so much liaison between the tattoo artist, Adeline and me regarding the phoenix designs, price negotiations as well religious research, we finally did what we wanted to do yesterday : ) I was early (thought that early birds catch the most worms) and realized that the tattoo artist was not in yet : ( Ultimately, he was 15 minutes late : (

After the confirmation of the design and payment, Adeline was the 1st one who went for the painful process. While the tattoo artist was performing his art on her back, I sat in the same room
: ) I wanted to make sure I was there to give my full moral support to her~! I was quite surprised to see her remain oblivious the moment the needle pricked into her flesh. She was still smiling away, but it didn't last long. After half an hour, her smile curled and I could see her frown. I guess she must be in great pain at that point of time. Berline (Adeline's younger sister) and Sharon, after their haircut, joined me in giving moral support to Adeline, who, presumably, was momentarily dead because she was motionless : P (I hope she didn't faint due to excess pain)

The whole ordeal was over after 2 hours and we could see her heave a big sigh of relief : ) We were happy that she had breezed through the tremendously painful process and getting what she had wanted. The best part was that the phoenix design on her back was beautiful and it fully complemented to her existing star tattoo. It's worth both the money and the pain : )

After a 30 minute break, we went back and it was my turn. I must admit I was kinda stressed. My hands were cold and clammy and I couldn't stop going to the ladies' - Guess stress made my bladder lose control. After redefining the design, I laid on my side and he began his painful art on me. The moment the needle pricked into me, I trembled (natural reaction, I guess?) After a while, I was able to withstand the pain..but that was only for an hour. Outlining was considerably fine, but not the killer, which was the colouring part. Colouring is all about pricking the same spot repeatedly until the colour eats into the flesh. My design required 12 different types of colours..(Can you imagine the agony? I don't want to think anymore!)

The moment I knew the tattoo artist had used half an hour to colour only a small portion of the design, I wanted to kill myself straightaway because I could feel my skin rotting away from the repeated pricks and the pain was indescribable :~ ( Guess he could feel my agony and he was constantly assuring me that everything would be fine and that he gave me short breaks (as well as smoking breaks for himself) to rest my tensed muscle and to let the rotting skin breathe : ( I was beginning to feel phobic about the whole affair...especially the excruciating pain : (

Ultimately, the last few moments which he was about to complete the whole design, I was whining in pain and was egging him to speed up - I guess I couldn't tolerate the pain anymore; I had gone beyond my threshold of pain to the point of hallucination. I thought I saw tiny red bubbles when I stared at the wall : P The finished art was fantastic; the colour was vibrant as if it was for real. Though it received many compliments, I was certain that I did not want to undergo such excruciating pain anymore..

At the same time, I was very touched by the simple gestures of Adeline and Sharon. They have waited 5 hours for me and though they mentioned that it was nothing to them, I felt blessed to have such good friends around me : ) But one thing for sure, if it were either one of them, I would have done the same thing for them as well.

Right now, though I am still feeling the pain, aches and bruises, looking at the design makes me forget the negative feeling..Well, how can I not feel this way when it's going to be with me for life? ; )

Sleep

Accompanied Gramps to see her regular doctor this morning. Though very reluctant to wake up at 9 am, I had to - The bump on her head refused to go away after a couple of days (She fell head on while dozing off) Realized that it was indeed difficult for her to walk even for a few meters; she was dragging her feet slowly..slowly..Fortunately, there was Fat Boy : ) otherwise, I doubt it would be quite difficult to cope. The moment we walked into the room, the doctor started to scold her for being her own doctor - She has not been eating medicine that he prescribed for her. Instead she chose what she wanted to eat : ( Because of this, her cholesterol level increased, hence, the dizziness (as well as an attribution to the fall) Though she mentioned that she was sick of consuming medicine cocktail every single day, I believe it must be the expenses as well. I know how expensive medical care it is at this present moment because 160 bucks was transferred from my pocket to the doctor's after a few minutes of consultation, blood and urine test as well as a few tabs of medicine. This is of no choice because it is a way of prolonging the life of a loved one...

Had brunch at Tiong Bahru market. Initially had wanted to go home straight after that, but it was one of the rare times that she was out, hence, decided to let her whiff in more of the fresh air outside : ) She had her favorite fishball soup noodles whereas I had the shark nugget lor mee (it was just so-so though the stall received accolades) and iced soya bean milk (the standard dropped as well. Boo.) After that, we went home whereas Fat Boy rushed to work.

Felt full and sleepy after the heavy brunch and after a couple of hours on the net, I took my deserved nap after a refreshing shower : ) (Sleep is my ultimate love~!~!) Even after 4 hours, I refused to wake up, but due to hunger and thirst, I had no choice : ( Had wanted to eat Maggi mee with lotsa ketchup, veggies and ham, but was lazy to cook. Dragged myself to the nearest coffeeshop and bought back mixed veggie rice - Curry chicken thigh, cabbage and black soya tau pok! (Guess it's pretty standard : ) )

So much me-time today and I simply love it~!Guess it would be good if the weekdays are like that as well (Yes, I know I am dreaming) Hey! I feel like I am back in my university days - Skipping classes is my forte. Unfortunately, I cannot skip work : P

Rash Phobic

Went lunch with one of the clients from a prestigious private bank this afternoon. Actually, I don't really like such power lunches because it means eating into my precious 1 hour : ( I have to put on a mask and engage in shallow conversations : ( Actually, entertaining others is my forte; I never fail to draw others' attention and make them laugh if I want to. Many, including Adeline, say that I am destined to be in the sales line..but hey, being a sales person, who is constantly on the go, is damn tiring..Just like today.

Went back to the office, feeling shagged. Though munching a gigantic sweet and crunchy Fuji apple made me happy, it was short-lived. I spent the whole afternoon browsing through the numerous useless resumes and going into my favorite SPI forum : ) (I just want to go home and sleep) It didn't help that there were some issues with a candidate and the client due to some stupid miscommunication (I guess another deal lost : ( )

Despite tired, I went dinner with Adeline, Jacintha, Sunshine Boy, Sharon and her husband at Molly Malone's (Actually had just wanted a simple dinner) Had 2 and 1/2 pieces of beer-battered fish and fries, as well as Guinness stout : P (Guinness stout tastes like chicken essence). After a nice chat regarding our previous jobs as waitresses, we went home. Though still feeling tired and groggy, I was satisfied with the hearty Irish dinner : )

When I reached home, my calves started to itch - I began to feel paranoid. Recently, after suffering a heavy bout of rashes all over my body, I am extremely scared of rashes. Sometimes, at night, I would start to scratch my thigh and calves because I felt itchy. Not sure if it is for real or it is just a figment of imagination due to the paranoia...I have steered clear of the sun and seafood, but I still feel the itch..Is it due to beer?

I don't want to know.

Recollection

Just came back from work. Have not had dinner and feeling abit grouchy : ( Not sure what I am going to eat later on, but I am very sure I was super full from the club sandwich, pumpkin soup and banana smoothie at TCC. It was Boss's lunch treat and I reckoned it was not wise not to order anything expensive since he was using it as an opportunity to sound us out and determine our staying power with the company : ) Initially, it was rather awkward to have him around, but he managed to break the ice and in no time, we were discussing what the company could improve to proceed to the next level : )

Though it's already the 2nd day of the week, I must say that I did not have a good rest during the weekends. Last Sunday, I went for the Interfaith Outing, which was organized by SPI. Visited various Chinese and Hindu temples, mosques as well as churches. I must say I enjoyed the trip - If not for the outing, I doubt I would have known about their existence (what's more visit them?) However, I was quite disgusted by a particular couple. Not that they performed lotsa Public Display of Affection (PDA), just that the way they behaved towards each other was funny...

After the outing ended at 6pm, I joined the SPI members for dinner at a Korean restaurant. The food was fantastic - Had slices and sliced of barbecued beef without having to cook them myself
: P I enjoyed munching the endless flow of kimchi and cured radish as well : ) I will go there again!

My Godpa & Godsister

Group Pix

Endless flow of appetizers

In addition, I met up with Rightie & Adeline at Bakerzinn's in Paragon last Saturday. Gobbled our ultra late lunch and walked around. Despite an expensive lunch, we had great fun reminiscing the past as well as digging at Boss (Guess that would be an evergreen topic : P ) Unfortunately, Rightie had to leave at 4pm for her church : ( Both Adeline and I walked to Far East Plaza to look for Douglas, the tattoo artist to discuss about our phoenix designs. Guess it's really important to communicate with the tattoo artist to minimize any unwanted pain and tears : P After that, we roamed around Orchard Road until I met up with Fat Boy to watch "Saw 4" - What a sucky movie. Boo.

Adeline&Ellen&Me 17Nov2007

Searching

I have been catching up on Rightie's blog after knowing that she was unhappy with her work and family. Wanting to make her happy, I decided to search and buy her Yoyo, a cartoon character in Hallmark cards : ) Many months back, she bought me Hoops after knowing I was terribly depressed. I am never a plushie person, but when I received the gift, I felt great love and it was good knowing that somebody still cared : ) By the way, Hoops is now sitting cosily at the little parapet in my office. Looking and touching it reminds me of Rightie. Now that it's her turn to be depressed, I have to do something for her : )

After having a quick dinner of MoS burger (I had my Ebi rice burger!), I went to the departmental store at the 2nd storey to begin my hunt for Yoyo! I panicked when I did not see any electric pink and green plushie anywhere. Walked round and round but to no avail. Out of despair, I seek the salesperson's help and imagine my happiness when she told me that she had kept them in the storeroom to make way for the plushies meant for the coming Christmas : D Picked a medium sized Yoyo and left for Zara, the flagship in Liat Towers. Had wanted to buy the T-shirt which Fat Boy wanted but the stock ran out : ( (That idiot had wanted to buy it weeks back, but due to its funny design, he wanted to consider before buying) Left for home due to my aching back and tired feet, but stuck to my jogging schedule (I am still terribly phobic of getting fat!) Came back and saw King Kong online. Frankly speaking, I was not sure I was still happy of seeing his nick...

It had been a while since we last had a good chat. Had not seen him for quite sometime too. Though I must say I miss him quite a bit - Imagine talking over the phone till almost 2am every night and meeting up 2 - 3 times per week months back. However, due to different opinions and beliefs regarding finance, I guess we have no choice. I must say that I was quite disappointed regarding yesterday afternoon - Finally gave him a call after much internal struggle and though happy to hear his voice, I was also shocked to know that he was on medical leave. When I asked him to see the doctor, he said that he had no money (Money again! Why must you always complain to me regarding money issues? What do you want from me?!) Hung up the phone and felt so bitter and disappointed (Is there nothing we can talk about except your shortage of cash?) The last straw came when I received a text message from him asking for a loan. I felt terribly sick and had concluded that this would never be what I was looking for. Never.

The time now is 10:25am. Another few more hours and I am going to meet Adeline and Rightie soon! Yay! I am so happy : D Great to see the girls again. Too bad, Amy will not be around. (What to do? Amy has newfound friends - Amy, I hate you. Hmpf!) : (

This is Rightie's Yoyo.

Booze Talk

After a quick dinner of double plain cheeseburger, fries and green tea at MacDonald's, I went to Shin Bar with Sharon and Sunshine Boy to get my S$2.90 fix. Guess at the ongoing rate, I am going to have a beer belly soon : ( We spoke about work (as usual!), marriage, clubbing and sex (ooooohhhh, one of my favorite topics : P ) After 2 mugs (which was actually insufficient), we left because it's only Friday tomorrow : (

During lunch, The Vegetarian shared with us that she was going to get married next year - Her boyfriend, who is almost a decade her senior, proposed to her yesterday and she agreed! Feel happy for her though I still think that she might be a tad too young for marriage (she's only 19). Then again, since she is so into her boyfriend, why not? Anyway, the latter had made all the necessary arrangements, all she needs to do is to sign the marriage certificate
: )

Another friend getting married. Gee, I feel so old (and single) : ( Well, initially I was very adamant not to marry just because the surrounding friends around me were getting hitched one by one and due to my age (I didn't know that 25 years old is a marriageable age!) However, after facing the pressure of being bombarded "When are you getting married? You are not getting any younger!" by Gramps, relatives and acquaintances; and the marital bliss of the newly-weds, I am not sure if I don't want to get married anytime soon : ( (Dammit! Am I going to yield to pressure soon? >: ( ) Then again, it really doesn't make sense to jump into the bandwagon when the heart's still unstable; ultimately, one will leave the marriage with regrets of marrying too soon. Of course, I do occasionally toy with the idea of marriage because I can wear the bridal gown, be the most beautiful bride around (that's how confident I am : P ) and of course, rush to catch the plane to my honeymoon destination after the banquet and be with somebody I love forever and ever and ever...(Wonder will that happen? Awwwwww....) *Dreamy*

Sales progress has been in the slumps since Day 1 of the month. Despite numerous interviews, I cannot seem to close a single damn permanent placement. It's either candidates rejecting offers or that clients are still not awaken from their fucking ideas - They are still looking for perfect fits, too slow in the recruitment process and in most cases, they cannot match the remuneration expectations of the candidates (this is what I hate most! Boo.) Well, I am prepared to be hit by the 80-20 gantry this month. Guess I just have to do what I should do eh?

Girl Power

It has only been 2 days and I missed her so and she's finally back today! : ) Yay~! For the past few days which she was in Bangkok, I was rotting in boredom. It didn't help that there was nothing much to do (What could I do with the limited number of resumes and the endless flow of job orders?). She came back looking very tired (Guess it must be due to the lack of sleep as well as the medication for her rashes). Nevertheless, that didn't stop us from catching up and yakking away while working : ) By the way, she bought me a cute little orange tee and 2 packets of dried pork skin crackers : ) (So sweet so sweet!)

Had the sickening meeting today instead because the air con was not working yesterday. Felt demoralized when Boss was asking how poor my sales were. Explained to him regarding the tight labor market (Gosh! Imagine how many times I repeated that to clients as well - Tight labor market) and hoped he understood the situation. Anyway, I have already mentally prepared myself that I would hit the cruel 80-20 rule as well as come back on alternate Saturday mornings (Oh, my precious sleep!)

Went for dinner at Marina Square with Adeline and Sunshine Boy. Had curry chicken vermicelli because I did not know what to have and it was a mistake : ( Guess it was too heavy for my liking and I felt bloated after that. We spoke about our secondary school days and how we prepared for our examinations. As Sunshine Boy wanted to satisfy his craving for thick toast, we proceeded to the HK cafe at the basement and continued with our gossips : P

Left at around 9pm because we have to wake up early for work tomorrow (Boo!) While both Adeline and Sunshine Boy headed to the bus-stop in front of the Esplanade, I strolled to the bus-stop opposite Peninsula Plaza to take my favorite bus, 51 : ) However, along the journey, I felt nauseous and feverish. Guess it must be due to the curry chicken vermicelli. How sick : (

The curry chicken vermicelli that made me sick ...

My favorite ice green tea with honey!

Thick toast doused in kaya & condensed milk - I cannot stomach > _ <#

Shattered

I always looked forward to the weekends because I can wake up late. Sleep becomes a luxury especially when one is working in a demanding and stressful environment, like BGC (Boo). Nothing can make me not sleep, be it hunger, stress, or even sleeping too much in the day. Unfortunately..I couldn't sleep well yesterday.

Was waiting for him* to come online yesterday. Wanted to share with him the mundane details of yesterday and of course how sick I was, rotting in the office every passing single day : ( Wanted to tell him that I had been feeling very lousy and luckless and that I was trying hard to find a "breakthrough" - to get out of the dark hole (like Sadako climbing out of the well?) and of course my newly bought red Maryjanes so that I could wear it to the coming SPI outing. Finally saw him online and before I could do anything..

He: Things do not go smoothly for you recently?
Me: How did you know? (Puzzled)
He: My Boss (Deity) was saying that if we continued to meet, I would bring my bad luck to you and I didn't want that to happen to you.
Me: (Demoralized) Then what you suggest?
He: He (Deity) was saying that my luck would improve after Chinese New Year. Let's not meet till then. I really do not want to screw up your life.
Me: (Super duper demoralized) OK, if that is what you want.
He: If you need to talk, I will always be there for you. We can always use the phone. By the way, if things do not work out, let's remain as good buddies.
Me: (Ultra demoralized) (You fucker) ***Went offline***

No doubt, he's the almost perfect guy that I am looking for. He has everything that I asked for and I must say that I have never revealed to him that, due to pride. He's tall and big. He cooks well. He sings well. Most importantly, I know how he feels about me. Somehow, I did visualize our future...But guess everything has vanished into thin air (Forget it!)

I am not going to accept such crap. I am going to forget him. I am going to treat this as a lesson learnt. No guy can play me out like this. He must know that we are never going to remain as good buddies. Never ever. As for myself, after this incident, I vow to be a better woman. No more playing the field for me. I am going to settle down and live the life that I want it to be.

It will happen.


Legend: *him = King Kong

End of the Weekends~!

I am so happy that my SCV bill was waived - I saved over 40 bucks for nothing! What happened was like that - Upon renewal of MaxOnline subscription, I was given 12 months worth of free SCV : ) Due to my absent-mindedness, I forgot about the expiry date and of course, Starhub conveniently billed me : ( Felt shortchanged as I am not home most of the time to watch SCV (and hey, isn't it right that they should at the very least reminded us of the expiry date?) Went down to the outlet at OUB Centre with Fat Boy this morning and voila! (He's the man!) He managed to talk his way through and I got the waiver! Yay~!

Met up with Adeline and we went to the Waterloo Temple to pray and ultimately, from the lot, she did not get a straight "yes" or "no" from the deity on whether she could have a phoenix drawing tattooed on her back : ( She was rather confused (Poor girl). As for me, I was rather confused from the lots as well..*Sigh* After that, we proceeded to the nearest hawker centre to grab ice cold drinks to cool down the heat!

Proceeded to the hairdresser's at Far East Plaza (since my flyaways were getting more and more irritating and Adeline was getting annoyed with her colour-fading bleached hair, why not?) Had my slanted fringe chopped off and right now, I must say that I looked like a freakin' China doll : P Went to recce the tattoo parlours once again and came to a renowned one which charges more reasonable prices than the previous one. Looks like we should be patronizing this one the moment Adeline came back from her Bangkok trip! (how envious!)

Yesterday, King Kong and I met up with Adeline and the guys to slack at Cafe Del Mar in Sentosa. Played volleyball, swam in the swimming pool (how sporty and sunny!) and sipped Mojitos : ) Due to the overdue exposure to sunlight, my face was charred red and my skin was burnt : ( How sick. Not only that, my rashes flared as well, causing me to itch all over (what the hell!) Saw Vicious Lady as well (how coincidental eh?) and as usual, her fakeness made me puke - She asked how long we had been there and whether we were keen to play volleyball with her. As I did not want to make myself unhappy, I left the place with King Kong and we had our dinner at Sakae Sushi. I was super duper hungry and wolfed down a few plates of spicy salmon sushi! (Yummy!) I felt extremely fried and tired and imagine how fast I sped to slumberland the moment my head touched the pillow : P

Last Friday, I went for my routine dental checkup and I was shocked when the dentist told me that I had 2 cavities in my teeth. I was puzzled; didn't I brush my teeth religiously twice a day? She explained that I did not brush my teeth hard enough and that I should avoid sweet and chewy stuff (my mochi and ang ku kueh! NoooOooooOoooooOOOOO!!!!!). Filling up cavities was an expensive affair - 150 bucks (fortunately, 1/2 of the amount is reimbursed by Boss : ) ). Left for dinner at Cafe De Orient in Sunset Way and was kinda disappointed with the food quality : ( Boo....

Dinner at Cafe De Orient 02112007

Crashed

Woke up with the question in my head - "Will she sign the Offer Letter today?" Feeling sick and paranoid, I dragged my feet to the office (Had this nagging feeling that she would not sign because she had been dragging her feet to go down to the client's place) It was a beautiful rainy weather; how fantastic if I could snuggle in my warm and toasty blanket and snooze!~ : (

Reached the office - Gosh! The atmosphere was so dead still and it didn't help that Boss was pulling a sickening long face; guess he wasn't too happy about the recent high MC rate (but who cares?). Sent him a mail informing that Adeline would only be coming in later part of the day and he rebutted with a "She has been taking too many half-days. Please do not take this company for granted" (what the hell, who is taking who for granted, fucker?) Feeling pissed, I replied with a "I know where you are coming from, but there is nothing much when one is not feeling well.."

Went for an early break - Had a heartwarming bowl of noodles with lotsa veggies, ikan billis and chilli padi! It's always nice to have something hot on a cold day : ) However, the uneasiness remained in my heart; had this bad feeling that the candidate would back out from signing the contract. Quickly went back to the office and sent her a text message reminding her to go down to the client's place - There was no reply.

After a few minutes, she called, saying that she would not be signing the Offer Letter because she had just accepted another offer which was better. Stunned, I asked her if there was any way we could salvage the situation and her reply was "no". Realizing that it was a dead end and feeling sick regarding her professionalism and ethics, I relented and told her that I would inform the client of the bad news (I was imagining how badly the client would react since he had rushed to get the signatures from the Hiring Manager and the Vice President; guess he had lotsa explanation to do). True enough, it happened. He was screaming at me (but I knew it was not targeted at me; he just needed a grievance vehicle and it happened to be me : ( ) What could I do? I felt demoralized as well. S$8K of sales had just slipped through my fingers...

For the whole day, I could not help, but feel drained - After doing so much for the candidate, I got nothing in return..made me feel so damn sick. I didn't want to talk or do anything. All I did was to harp on the loss of my S$8K sales...(Fuck!)

Feeling emotional, I met up with Sworn Sista. Together, we walked to Marina Square to have dinner at Sakae Sushi before walking to Orchard Road. Window-shopped, had a drink while continuing with our endless gossips before taking a bus home. It was great meeting up with her again. Felt much better after talking to her : ) Guess she has the power to make me smile eh? : )

As for the loss of S$8K sales, guess I can't do anything much...I have to move on - I have bigger fish to fry.

Sunday

Awakened by the a mixture of loud booming voices of Gramps, Aunt, Daddy as well a visitor this afternoon. Feeling grumpy, I walked out of the room and conveniently forgot to greet the latter *Evil grin*. Spoke to Daddy and Bro and had lunch of curry chicken, cabbage and toufu (Healthy eh? After so much rich food!)

Met up with Fat Boy (though he had slimmed down tons) for a game of badminton. Initially, I thought that it would be too easy for me - I mean, how taxing can it be? I was wrong, after 10 minutes of jumping and running, I was dead beat (Yes, I realized I am not that fit afterall : ( ) However, it was good to know that I had burned some calories : ) After the hectic game, we went to play pool. Guess I would prefer pool though it's mentally challenging : P But I was happy to know that my skills had improved by leaps and bounds : ) Yay~!

After an hour of mind-boggling and skill-demanding pool, we headed to Sushi Tei in Vivocity to meet up with Aunt for dinner. As I had decided to cut down on carbohydrates, I ate only some maki and seafood salad : ) (Yes! I wanted to get rid of the tiny tummy and the hint of double chin!) Went for post-dinner stroll around the mall - Had wanted to shop for clothes, but decided not to, as I had bought 2 dresses from JB yesterday : ) (By the way, I discovered the tiny tummy when I tried another dress which was on display! Grrr) Time to save for rainy days eh!

Fat Boy sent us home and came by to repair my shoes - Many of them had their undersoles worn out and he used double-sided tape to stick them back. Imagine how much money I would chuck down the chute should I throw all of them away. Despite the stench and the disturbance caused by Tan Boyboy, he managed to do a good job : ) I must say he's quite a good cobbler and I shall depend on his fine workmanship for all my shoes from now on! : )

Itchy Skin

It has been confirmed: I am allergic to the sun. Even after days of visiting the doctor last Monday and even taking medicine religiously everyday, I am still feeling itchy : (

Yesterday was Ellen Lee's last day with the company. It came as a shock to me because I thought she had been hitting consistent sales targets; there was no reason for her to resign. However, when asked, she claimed that it was for better prospects - All along she had wanted to concentrate on high-level recruitment in the banking industry and it seemed that Boss could not fulfill her goals despite repeated discussions : ( Another reason could be due to the Vicious Lady; ever since she joined the company, Boss has been showering her attention and aid and in addition, there was rumor that the former might promote her to a managerial position. (Who can withstand such crap?)

Threw a farewell dinner-cum-drinks outing for her at Molly Malone's before having a few rounds of pool...Though it seemed like the normal weekly outings that we had, I felt a tinge of sadness this time round. Guess I am going to miss Ellen Lee...her juicy sexual experiences, fetish for blue-eyed boys and lame jokes...: (

Ellen Lee's Last Day

Swollen Feet

It was a beautiful rainy morning. Unfortunately, I had to drag my excruciatingly aching body and swollen feet to work. Had wanted to get an MC, but decided not to as I had taken urgent leave (to have fun in JB) last Friday. Guess there were much work waiting for me to clear and true enough, my desk was like a warzone, which was something I loathed : ( After rate negotiation and replies to angry mails from clients, I took a breather by accompanying Adeline to the toilet for some bonding : P

As Adeline had to accompany her top-notch client for lunch, both Sharon and I joined the B&F3 team, consisting of Sunshine Boy, Jacintha and Vegetarian, for lunch at Pastamania in Tanjong Pagar. Had a great lunch of seafood marinara and coke : ) However, after lunch, I realized that my feet was getting more swollen and more itchy : ( It didn't help that my muscles were aching as well. Can you imagine the combination of aches and itch? (All I could say was "wow") While walking back to the office, I was complaining how ugly and swollen my feet looked and they suggested it would be better if I visit the doctor soon (lest they start to rot).

Continued to drag my aching body and swollen and itchy feet through the bustling lunch crowd till I stepped into the office. Shagged, I informed Boss that I was going to the doctor's (by hook or crook!) and he immediately agreed (my trotters must had been rotting badly : ( )

Went to Raffles Medical Centre which is located opposite Chevron House. After filling up a first-timer form, I was given a queue number. Bored, I flipped health magazines and chat on the phone. After waiting for an hour, my turn had not come and I was getting restless due to the swell and itch of my feet; finally, as as I thought I was the next one (to receive the holy treatment), my turn was skipped. Furious, I walked up to the counter and demanded an explanation. Stunned by my aggression, the receptionist started to look for my form and after a good 10 minutes, she came back with it and said that she couldn't process it because I did not include my identity card number. I was more furious and shot her by asking her the rationale of giving me the queue number when the form could not be processed. She was lost for words and tried to placate me by assuring me that I would be the next patient.

Waited for a while before my queue number was called out. The doctor, who attended to me, was a stern-looking middle-aged man. In a monotonous and robotic manner, he asked me what was wrong with me. I pointed to my swollen trotters and told him I was suffering from intense itch. He touched them with his bare fingers and mouthed "Allergy". As I was more keen in the remedy, I suggested that I would appreciate a jab, which was fast and good (which I got it and felt ultra drowsy in the office afterwards)

Unfortunately for me, I had the weekly sales meeting today. After the boring 15 minute session, Adeline, Sharon, Jacintha and I went to have dinner at Golden Shoe before the 3 of us went to Shin Bar to have an ice cold, which I seriously needed...

Aching

Gosh! My back and limbs are aching terribly such that I want to die : ( Yesterday, I attended the company's fun day in Sentosa. Initially I thought that I could skip it because it was raining heavily when I woke up. Feeling excited with the hope of Boss postponing the event, I called him up (yes, I wanted to hear the sickening disappointment in his voice >: ( ) and dammit, he claimed that it was still on as he had a contingency plan. What the hell! Angry, I called Adeline and Sharon up to inform them of the bad news. Bah! Both of them were utterly disappointed too.

Met up with Adeline, Sharon, Sunshine Boy, Jacintha and Vegetarian and had a hearty breakfast of Sausage McMuffin with Egg and orange juice before proceeding to Siloso Beach in Sentosa. After celebrating Chris' birthday, we went to play teambuilding games like volleyball, captain ball and some water games. Though I am never one who enjoys team games, I must say I had great fun at that point of time : ) After the whole session, we went to Cafe Del Mare to slack - Went to have a cool dip in my polka-dotted bikini (Life's beautiful, isn't it?) and sipped strawberry margarita (Boss picked up the tab for our first round of drinks. Yay~! Free drink!) After half an hour of baking myself in the sun, I went to join Vicious Lady and the rest in volleyball, in my bikini. Confident or shameless, I did not care - I just felt ultra liberal : )

Left for home at around 3pm because I had to rush to Toa Payoh MRT to meet up with King Kong before we went for the SPI Halloween. By the time I stepped out of the house (once again), I was dead beat. How I wished to have some time to have forty winks : ( By the time I met up with him, I was super dehydrated and tired. Fortunately, he had bought me a bottle of mineral water beforehand. Wow, indeed my guardian angel eh? : P

The Halloween talk was boring and I felt restless and hot due to the sunburns (Fortunately, it was short and sweet : P) Had 2 servings of bee hoon because I was extremely hungry! (I didn't know that bee hoon could taste so nice! I fell in love with bee hoon overnight!) Headed for the baby dumping ground in Lim Chu Kang - There was an eerie-looking altar with an idol of the Goddess of Mercy and a child which is directly below. There were offerings of sweets and toys as well. I remember the place was extremely dark and full of mozzies (I had a hard time shooing them away; it didn't help, I had numerous bites on my limbs anyway). As my knees had given way, I had no mood in exploring further. I just wanted to go back to the bus and enjoy King Kong's company and air con : ( Proceeded to the Parsi (yes! again, for the 2nd time of the year) and Choa Chu Kang cemeteries where they conducted the same bowl-knocking experiment (yes! not again!). This time round, no results were yielded (what's new?) and we headed back to Toa Payoh Safra.

Rushed to the bus interchange to catch the last bus to King Kong's cave where he fed me with steaming hot kimchi soup and tucked me to bed : )

SPI Halloween 20Oct2007

After Monday & Tuesday...

As usual, I went jogging with BoyBoy just now. Actually had not wanted to pound the pavement due to the nice cooling weather (best to slack at home!) and my weak kneecaps, but the thought of yesterday's high carbohydrate intake freaked me out so much to the extent of no choice : (

Felt so lethargic and demoralized the whole day yesterday afternoon - Good resumes are far and few, hence, nothing to forward to my clients who are always pressing me for candidates for their positions. Had nothing much to do except posting comments in my regular forum and net-surfing. Attended the weekly sales meeting and felt even more sick when I heard that the fun-day was confirmed; it would be on this coming Saturday morning and as if it was not bad enough,breakfast and lunch would not be provided and the activities would remain as a "surprise" (or shock?) Boo...what's the point of having a fun-day when everything is on shoe-string budget? : (

After the meeting, I left immediately for dinner at Waraku De Pasta in Marina Square with Adeline and Sunshine Boy. Ordered seafood spaghetti and fried salmon stuffed with cheese; and was highly disappointed. Other than fresh mussels, shrimps and squids, the flavor of the former dish was just not there : ( Perhaps, I am accustomed to the authentic version, as compared to the modified Japanese version : ) If not for the S$16.80 price tag, I would not have stuffed everything into my mouth - I would rather starve (yes, that was just a joke) : P

The mini salad that came along left a refreshing aftertaste...

Looks nice, but the taste? Bah!

After dinner, we had yet another carbohydrate-laden dessert at Anderson's Ice Cream : ( Shared an ice cream platter with Adeline and felt terribly guilty for consuming so much carbohydrates (carbohydrates make one go fat.....fast!)

Guess I am growing fatter by the day : ( Just like how King Kong fed me with curry chicken the previous Sunday >: ( Though it was his first time whipping up the dish, I must say that it was quite good! The chunks of chicken thigh absorbed the flavor well and the gravy was not diluted. In fact, I was secretly surprised that he could do it so well. Guess he has the talent for cooking and I have the talent for eating! : P

Curry chicken! Yummy~!

Greens to go along with...

*Sigh*

Time zooms - Tomorrow is Monday again. The beginning of the week. Time to wear armor to prevent backstabbing from the Vicious Lady : ( and it doesn't help that weekly sales meetings are held on Mondays. Wonder what time will I be released tomorrow. What the hell : ( To think that I was so happy on last Friday...

Went to Shin Bar with Adeline, Deryx, Sharon, Ellen and the two new Briton colleagues by the name of Christopher and Jacy. Initially looked forward to it because the agenda was to preempt Ellen Lee about the Vicious Lady. Who knows the reaction from her was "Oh, I kinda expected it"..True or false? I don't know, just that I knew that I was so bored that night, despite hearing Deryx's erotic encounters with "streetwalkers" : P Decided to leave at around 9 pm for pool with him. As my dress was too short to play pool, he sent me home to change into comfortable T-shirt and bermudas : ) After a challenging game of pool (either I was too lucky or he was too unlucky), we went to Geylang to have soya beancurd (it has been a long time since I tasted its heavenly and silky texture!) and had a long stroll before we went home : )

Woke up at 11am on Saturday. It has been a long time since I had the luxury of waking up late on Saturday mornings : D Had vegetarian vermicelli and bathed BoyBoy before meeting up with King Kong at my void deck. Together, we took the bus to Orchard Road to catch up with Adeline who wanted to get the best quotation for her upcoming tattoo : P After walking a quarter of Orchard Road, we finally went to a tattoo shop in Far East Plaza. Guess we would be engaging their services since both of us were convinced by the tattoo artist's skills and professionalism : )

Dinner was at Waraku in Marina Square. Initially promised King Kong to try Prime Society for his belated birthday dinner, but due to circumstances, we went to the former instead. Had fun snapping photos and of course, tucking into the yummy paper steamboat, sushi and beef hotplate : )

Right now, I am in a dilemma - To jog or not to jog. I am so lazy to jog and my neck's aching like hell. But if I do not jog, I might not have the chance to jog for the next 2 days because I am going for Jacintha's belated birthday dinner after the sales meeting tomorrow evening and meeting up with Wynne on Tuesday for dinner (it has been a long long time since I last met my baby cousin. How I miss her so!)

Dinner with King Kong

Workshop (For The nth Time)

Dousing in icy cold water after a good sweaty jog is therapeutic, especially when it was so hectic, stressful and tiring these few days. I have been feeling drowsy recently - Guess I will never be able to repay my sleep debt : (

Attended the 4th Quarter company workshop last Saturday morning and I felt that it was a complete waste of time. It didn't help when I had only 4 hours of sleep - I was basically a walking zombie deprived of beauty sleep. As I had issues drawing my eyes (must be due to lack of sleep), I was delayed (it took me bloody 20 minutes to draw the eyes when I could finish it half the time on normal days!) and took the cab (waste of money again). Before I stepped into the hotel, I was thinking of slurping hot fried noodles and wolfing down steaming hot har kow. However, what greeted me was a disappointing spread of muffins, madeleines, fruit and cookies (Bah!) which caused me to lose all appetite. In the end, I kept downing tea and munched some fruit (good way to detox? : P)

Managed to survive the boring and dry presentations and I felt so damn stupid for attending such a meaningless event. Even the buffet lunch couldn't make up for the feeling that I had. Due to sleep deprivation, I felt feverish and lethargic (I just wanted to go home and sleep!!) After the calorie intake of 2 baby lobsters, 5 cold prawns, 2 bowls of tom yum and prawn soup, a plate of greens with vinaigrette, a bowl of rock melon, a piece of pancake with butter and maple syrup( and stuff which I put into my mouth yet couldn't recall what they were), I quickly headed for home sweet home...

Guess what? Next Saturday is fun day, which means teambuilding for each and everyone of us. It would be fun if there were no office politics, but right now...*Sigh* What's the point of having teambuilding in Sentosa when the team is not even united in the first place? Whatever eh? What I feel most is wasting half of my precious Saturday! >: ( I am so angry!

BGC Workshop Q3 6Oct2007

Basics

While walking home from the bus-stop, I teared. The harder I tried to control the emotional outbreak, the worse the situation became. Somehow, the ache got so bad that it had reached to its peak - Yes, "excruciating" is the word. I thought I could get over the past, I realized I couldn't...at all. I know I am stupid to put myself through this whole ridiculous process, which I could have prevented. Happy memories flashed into my head; regret why I was so wilful...I could have been happy and satisfied, I could have been angry and discontented; but at the very least, I am not living in misery every single day...Kind of helpless and lost; I do not know what to do.

Dinner was at Bosses in Vivocity - Finally met up with Sharon's boyfriend (or husband, as they have already registered their marriage : P) - A pair of lovey-dovey couple which made me envious (Used to be like that as well, but I threw everything away) ..After dinner, we went to hunt for Adeline's S$150 gift. What happened was like that, Sharon divulged to Adeline that Boss would be giving the latter a surprise gift worth S$150 as an appreciation to her one-year service in the company and it made sense that it must be something that she liked : ) (I am there for more than 2 years, where's my gift? : ( ) She settled for a Swarovski pendant which costs S$283 - She would top up the shortage. After that, both Adeline and I left the lovebirds alone and went shopping. She bought a sundress and a colorful top. I bought nothing : (

Office&Dinner@Bosses04102007

Yesterday was another dull day at work. The only thing that made me happy was a $12 sundress which I bought from a pushcart. Oh, not to forget the small case which I closed together with Jacintha. Though the sales amount from this case was not fantastic, it made me happy. Perhaps it was the first case which I closed together with Jacintha, or it could be "back to basics" : ) Sometimes, it's very important for us to go back to basics once in a while; hard to explain why it is so, but without it, it will make us feel lost and empty...

The time is 1:17am now. Unfortunately, tomorrow is not a Saturday (but hey, even it's a Saturday, I still have the sickening workshop! Bah!)

First time

The amount? Look at the Perm column under JC (Jacintha Cheong)