Woke up with the question in my head - "Will she sign the Offer Letter today?" Feeling sick and paranoid, I dragged my feet to the office (Had this nagging feeling that she would not sign because she had been dragging her feet to go down to the client's place) It was a beautiful rainy weather; how fantastic if I could snuggle in my warm and toasty blanket and snooze!~ : (
Reached the office - Gosh! The atmosphere was so dead still and it didn't help that Boss was pulling a sickening long face; guess he wasn't too happy about the recent high MC rate (but who cares?). Sent him a mail informing that Adeline would only be coming in later part of the day and he rebutted with a "She has been taking too many half-days. Please do not take this company for granted" (what the hell, who is taking who for granted, fucker?) Feeling pissed, I replied with a "I know where you are coming from, but there is nothing much when one is not feeling well.."
Went for an early break - Had a heartwarming bowl of noodles with lotsa veggies, ikan billis and chilli padi! It's always nice to have something hot on a cold day : ) However, the uneasiness remained in my heart; had this bad feeling that the candidate would back out from signing the contract. Quickly went back to the office and sent her a text message reminding her to go down to the client's place - There was no reply.
After a few minutes, she called, saying that she would not be signing the Offer Letter because she had just accepted another offer which was better. Stunned, I asked her if there was any way we could salvage the situation and her reply was "no". Realizing that it was a dead end and feeling sick regarding her professionalism and ethics, I relented and told her that I would inform the client of the bad news (I was imagining how badly the client would react since he had rushed to get the signatures from the Hiring Manager and the Vice President; guess he had lotsa explanation to do). True enough, it happened. He was screaming at me (but I knew it was not targeted at me; he just needed a grievance vehicle and it happened to be me : ( ) What could I do? I felt demoralized as well. S$8K of sales had just slipped through my fingers...
For the whole day, I could not help, but feel drained - After doing so much for the candidate, I got nothing in return..made me feel so damn sick. I didn't want to talk or do anything. All I did was to harp on the loss of my S$8K sales...(Fuck!)
Feeling emotional, I met up with Sworn Sista. Together, we walked to Marina Square to have dinner at Sakae Sushi before walking to Orchard Road. Window-shopped, had a drink while continuing with our endless gossips before taking a bus home. It was great meeting up with her again. Felt much better after talking to her : ) Guess she has the power to make me smile eh? : )
As for the loss of S$8K sales, guess I can't do anything much...I have to move on - I have bigger fish to fry.
