Was waiting for him* to come online yesterday. Wanted to share with him the mundane details of yesterday and of course how sick I was, rotting in the office every passing single day : ( Wanted to tell him that I had been feeling very lousy and luckless and that I was trying hard to find a "breakthrough" - to get out of the dark hole (like Sadako climbing out of the well?) and of course my newly bought red Maryjanes so that I could wear it to the coming SPI outing. Finally saw him online and before I could do anything..
He: Things do not go smoothly for you recently?
Me: How did you know? (Puzzled)
He: My Boss (Deity) was saying that if we continued to meet, I would bring my bad luck to you and I didn't want that to happen to you.
Me: (Demoralized) Then what you suggest?
He: He (Deity) was saying that my luck would improve after Chinese New Year. Let's not meet till then. I really do not want to screw up your life.
Me: (Super duper demoralized) OK, if that is what you want.
He: If you need to talk, I will always be there for you. We can always use the phone. By the way, if things do not work out, let's remain as good buddies.
Me: (Ultra demoralized) (You fucker) ***Went offline***
No doubt, he's the almost perfect guy that I am looking for. He has everything that I asked for and I must say that I have never revealed to him that, due to pride. He's tall and big. He cooks well. He sings well. Most importantly, I know how he feels about me. Somehow, I did visualize our future...But guess everything has vanished into thin air (Forget it!)
I am not going to accept such crap. I am going to forget him. I am going to treat this as a lesson learnt. No guy can play me out like this. He must know that we are never going to remain as good buddies. Never ever. As for myself, after this incident, I vow to be a better woman. No more playing the field for me. I am going to settle down and live the life that I want it to be.
It will happen.
Legend: *him = King Kong
