*Yawn* I am feeling so damn sleepy, especially when I have slept for only a couple of hours for the past 2 nights ( - . - ) ZzZzZ... Had promised myself to sleep early last night, but what happened? Both Fat Boy and I were locked in the nerve-wrecking and brain-racking game of Literati until the ultimate winner (ME!) emerged at 2am : / The feeling of having to wake up to the tune of the alarm this morning was so damn sick >: ( (The temptation of getting an MC was so great. Awww...)
Holidays are so much fun and the feeling sucks when it's time to come home : ( I must say that I have had so much fun in Hong Kong! Eating, shopping and even walking and inhaling the cold air equates to pure fun : D I had a great time walking up and down the streets of North Point, Fortress Hill, Mong Kok and Central as well as tucking into the marbled roasted goose meat, fragrant claypot rice exquisite hand-made dim sum as well as thirst-quenching mango desserts
: D~ Besides the great delicacies and endless shopping, what could be more laughter-inducing than posing with the wax figurines of Aaron Kwok, Andy Lau and Twins and poking fun at their plastic features? : P In addition, I got to know Fat Boy, Yam and Isaac better : D (I must say that their problem solving and map reading skills are top notched!)
My Jetstar Asia plane touched down past midnight and after buying the much-discounted liquor and beer for our respective families, Fat Boy and I went to Killiney Kopitiam to have supper. Initially, I had wanted just ice cold soy beancurd as I was afraid of putting on the pounds, but after being seduced by the aroma of laksa, I dismissed all concerns and shared a few mouthfuls with Fat Boy (What do you expect? Finish the whole bowl? No way!) His mother fetched us home and with all the unpacking and washing up, my head only touched the pillow at 3am (Burn!)
Will be going for a road-cum-food trip to Malaysia tomorrow night...Whoa, I foresee I will not be sleeping much this time round...Awwww....Anyway, 2008 is coming to an end. I am really looking forward to 2009. Yeah, that will be the turning point in my life : D Wish me luck!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Wedding Package Hunt
I am feeling so damn sleepy right now, with the sluggish working environment as well as the sweet raspberry-orangey fragrance from the heated aromatheraphy oil (Oh yes, the aromatheraphy oil burner's my X'mas gift from my dearest bank client : ) ) Looking at the board makes me demoralized - I have yet to close a deal for the whole of December : P Not that I have not been doing nothing, but the resumes that I have deposited with my colleagues have yet to see the light (Who cares? I am going to Hong Kong next Thursday!)
Anyway, I was on MC last Monday. Not that I was super sick physically, I was just super sick mentally : ( Went to the doc's and described my ailment (I told her that I couldn't sleep in the night and that I felt very sleepy in the day), but apparently, she was more interested in my makeup excuse of tummy upset (What the hell!) : ( Left the clinic with a bad taste in my mouth despite having the important slip of MC : ( Worked from home until it was time to resolve some important issues outside : )
Met up with Fat Boy afterwards and we went to Tanjong Pagar where most of the bridal studios are. Walked into Di Gio and was met with a friendly consultant. Without saying anything about the package, she headed straight to my preference with regards to the bridal gowns and got me a few to wear and I was fascinated by how I looked in those beautiful dresses (Hey! I am a pretty bride alright!) It was rather tiring jumping in and out of those heavy gowns and can-can slips. By the time I wore the 5th gown, I was aching all over : ( Despite the beautiful designs and good customer service, our eyes popped out when she announced the price - 4000 bucks. Though she said that the price could be negotiated further, we were rather turned off. We left the studio and Fat Boy suggested that we continue to look at other bridal studios before coming to a decision.
We went to Tanjong Pagar again yesterday. After having dinner at a Taiwanese cafe near the MRT station, we continued with our wedding package hunting. We walked into French Studio and Bridal Boutique when the consultant persuaded us to have a look, but stepped out immediately when we realized that the indecent-looking guys in the shop were the wedding consultants : / We continued to walk down the lanes of Tanjong Pagar until we came to Thomson Wedding, which is located just next to Di Gio : P Initially, I was quite turned off by the interior of the shop because it did not look as posh as the latter. The wedding consultant who attended to us was a lady in her late 30's and to be frank, I felt like walking out then. However, after sharing with us her vast experiences and her patience when showing us the bridal gowns and helping me putting on the heavy dresses changed my earlier perception (Well, it might indeed be better if I have somebody experienced and patient than one who is just concerned about closing deals despite the difference in shop interior and age difference)
We spoke about the package details and as usual Fat Boy told her that we would go back and consider : ) However, during our pillow talk, he mentioned that since both of us are comfortable with the wedding consultant and the package, we should just go for it. He said he would call her to confirm our interest. Yay~Done deal!
Anyway, I was on MC last Monday. Not that I was super sick physically, I was just super sick mentally : ( Went to the doc's and described my ailment (I told her that I couldn't sleep in the night and that I felt very sleepy in the day), but apparently, she was more interested in my makeup excuse of tummy upset (What the hell!) : ( Left the clinic with a bad taste in my mouth despite having the important slip of MC : ( Worked from home until it was time to resolve some important issues outside : )
Met up with Fat Boy afterwards and we went to Tanjong Pagar where most of the bridal studios are. Walked into Di Gio and was met with a friendly consultant. Without saying anything about the package, she headed straight to my preference with regards to the bridal gowns and got me a few to wear and I was fascinated by how I looked in those beautiful dresses (Hey! I am a pretty bride alright!) It was rather tiring jumping in and out of those heavy gowns and can-can slips. By the time I wore the 5th gown, I was aching all over : ( Despite the beautiful designs and good customer service, our eyes popped out when she announced the price - 4000 bucks. Though she said that the price could be negotiated further, we were rather turned off. We left the studio and Fat Boy suggested that we continue to look at other bridal studios before coming to a decision.
We went to Tanjong Pagar again yesterday. After having dinner at a Taiwanese cafe near the MRT station, we continued with our wedding package hunting. We walked into French Studio and Bridal Boutique when the consultant persuaded us to have a look, but stepped out immediately when we realized that the indecent-looking guys in the shop were the wedding consultants : / We continued to walk down the lanes of Tanjong Pagar until we came to Thomson Wedding, which is located just next to Di Gio : P Initially, I was quite turned off by the interior of the shop because it did not look as posh as the latter. The wedding consultant who attended to us was a lady in her late 30's and to be frank, I felt like walking out then. However, after sharing with us her vast experiences and her patience when showing us the bridal gowns and helping me putting on the heavy dresses changed my earlier perception (Well, it might indeed be better if I have somebody experienced and patient than one who is just concerned about closing deals despite the difference in shop interior and age difference)
We spoke about the package details and as usual Fat Boy told her that we would go back and consider : ) However, during our pillow talk, he mentioned that since both of us are comfortable with the wedding consultant and the package, we should just go for it. He said he would call her to confirm our interest. Yay~Done deal!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Dinner with Rightie
Times are moving more slowly than ever and it is getting more and more irritating and stifling to be in the rotting office every passing day : ( Though it was Friday yesterday, it didn't feel like one and to make matters worse, my period came - My back was aching to the point of near-snap and I was feeling so damn cold because of the rainy weather. What a lousy day. Argh! >: (
However, the only thing that brought a smile to my long face yesterday was having dinner with Rightie : D (I must say that it was a pleasant surprise for her to ask me out for dinner on a Friday night as she usually has lotsa plans lined up!) We had dinner at Thai Express in Paragon and she had phat thai whereas I had beef with rice with tom yam soup : D~ Fat Boy was supposed to join us but he was ultra late from his facial treatment (Oh yes, he went to remove millia from his face as he wanted to look good on his big day) so he joined us at Swensons later on. Initially, he was hesistant to join us as he said he looked ugly with tiny black crusts scattered around his face, but after much persuasion, he came : P
It was great to ditch "Gee, how much calories did I have?" considerations at the back of my head (Who cares if I am having a great time?) I had Coit Tower - rum and raisin with sticky chewy chocolate with chopped pieces of banana, strawberry and chocolate sauce (Yummy!) whereas Rightie had Nutty O Mighty - ice cream with all kinds of nuts (Great for such a nutty girl!) She left after her ice cream as she wanted to go home and changed before meeting up with her colleagues and her beloved (Opps!) Both Fat Boy and I left after he finished his chocolatey ice cream with chocolate-covered Maltese (Yikes!) as I was feeling lethargic.
Reached home at about 11pm and after washing up and as I was about to hop onto the bed to sleep, I felt a dull pain in my back and after turning and tossing for a couple of times, I felt impossible to sleep. Fat Boy gave me 2 Panadols to pop and massage the affected area. Though it did not make the pain go away immediately, it did help and I went to sleep (Duh!)
Hehe, there is a BBQ organized by the SPI this evening. I am so excited about it! I must remember to bring along my camera! Yay~
However, the only thing that brought a smile to my long face yesterday was having dinner with Rightie : D (I must say that it was a pleasant surprise for her to ask me out for dinner on a Friday night as she usually has lotsa plans lined up!) We had dinner at Thai Express in Paragon and she had phat thai whereas I had beef with rice with tom yam soup : D~ Fat Boy was supposed to join us but he was ultra late from his facial treatment (Oh yes, he went to remove millia from his face as he wanted to look good on his big day) so he joined us at Swensons later on. Initially, he was hesistant to join us as he said he looked ugly with tiny black crusts scattered around his face, but after much persuasion, he came : P
It was great to ditch "Gee, how much calories did I have?" considerations at the back of my head (Who cares if I am having a great time?) I had Coit Tower - rum and raisin with sticky chewy chocolate with chopped pieces of banana, strawberry and chocolate sauce (Yummy!) whereas Rightie had Nutty O Mighty - ice cream with all kinds of nuts (Great for such a nutty girl!) She left after her ice cream as she wanted to go home and changed before meeting up with her colleagues and her beloved (Opps!) Both Fat Boy and I left after he finished his chocolatey ice cream with chocolate-covered Maltese (Yikes!) as I was feeling lethargic.
Reached home at about 11pm and after washing up and as I was about to hop onto the bed to sleep, I felt a dull pain in my back and after turning and tossing for a couple of times, I felt impossible to sleep. Fat Boy gave me 2 Panadols to pop and massage the affected area. Though it did not make the pain go away immediately, it did help and I went to sleep (Duh!)
Hehe, there is a BBQ organized by the SPI this evening. I am so excited about it! I must remember to bring along my camera! Yay~
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Angry Zit
Yesterday afternoon, Gramps, Daddy, Bro, Fat Boy and I went to Crystal Jade in Takashimaya to have lunch and boy, it was a good lunch. We had deep fried garlic pork ribs, steamed cod fish, bamboo clams topped with lotsa fried garlic, Hokkien seafood pot, roast duck drizzled with curry sauce, steamed scallops topped with garlic and vermicelli, stir-fried kale, seafood vermicelli and egg tarts : D~ After that, we went to visit Mummy at her workplace in Tiong Bahru before going home to nap ( - . - ) ZzZzZ
Woke up at 7pm (I felt so damn recharged), watched some TV before heading to the famous porridge stall in Henderson Road to have dinner (Time to have something light so as not to overload my tummy!) We went home after that and continued to sit in front of the tube (Oh yes, did I tell you we are absolute couch potatoes?) before deciding to turn in. It was not the usual 12:30am, but 2am : o I must say we tried very hard to sleep by turning and tossing millions of times in bed, but the more we turned and tossed, the harder it was to sleep...: ( I became more stressed when I heard steady breathing rhythms - It meant that he had successfully slipped into slumberland : ( My attempts to sleep failed miserably as my mind was fully aware of the surroundings despite tightly shut eyes. Awwww....
I felt crap this morning. It felt as if my soul was slowly drained through a bloody pinhole, bit by bit. The temptation to apply for an MC was great, but I decided not to as I knew it would incur the evil Boss's wrath : / Fortunately, there was Fat Boy who drove me to work, else I would just bang my head against the wall. Anyway, there was not much activity in the workplace. I mean, what to expect in such bad times? Regardless how positive one's mind is, what can one do without good orders and candidates? It did not help that there was internal underhand competition and the bloody management could not be bothered to lift a finger to differentiate between black and white as long as profits could be seen. I felt so damn shitty rotting in that place (I can feel my patience wearing thinner and thinner every passing day)
After work, I went to visit Aunt Helen because I felt the need to eradicate the big sickening zit sitting proudly above my lips >: ( As much as I wanted to save up the 80 bucks on something more useful, the moment my fingers attempted to purge the toxic pus from the angry zit, it hurt like hell! Hence, to prevent unnecessary moles from forming on my face, a facial session was an absolute must. After the 1 hour half session, I went to Cold Storage to buy a can of tuna before going home to watch TV while munching my tuna sandwich and washing it down with a mug of hot Milo ; )
Woke up at 7pm (I felt so damn recharged), watched some TV before heading to the famous porridge stall in Henderson Road to have dinner (Time to have something light so as not to overload my tummy!) We went home after that and continued to sit in front of the tube (Oh yes, did I tell you we are absolute couch potatoes?) before deciding to turn in. It was not the usual 12:30am, but 2am : o I must say we tried very hard to sleep by turning and tossing millions of times in bed, but the more we turned and tossed, the harder it was to sleep...: ( I became more stressed when I heard steady breathing rhythms - It meant that he had successfully slipped into slumberland : ( My attempts to sleep failed miserably as my mind was fully aware of the surroundings despite tightly shut eyes. Awwww....
I felt crap this morning. It felt as if my soul was slowly drained through a bloody pinhole, bit by bit. The temptation to apply for an MC was great, but I decided not to as I knew it would incur the evil Boss's wrath : / Fortunately, there was Fat Boy who drove me to work, else I would just bang my head against the wall. Anyway, there was not much activity in the workplace. I mean, what to expect in such bad times? Regardless how positive one's mind is, what can one do without good orders and candidates? It did not help that there was internal underhand competition and the bloody management could not be bothered to lift a finger to differentiate between black and white as long as profits could be seen. I felt so damn shitty rotting in that place (I can feel my patience wearing thinner and thinner every passing day)
After work, I went to visit Aunt Helen because I felt the need to eradicate the big sickening zit sitting proudly above my lips >: ( As much as I wanted to save up the 80 bucks on something more useful, the moment my fingers attempted to purge the toxic pus from the angry zit, it hurt like hell! Hence, to prevent unnecessary moles from forming on my face, a facial session was an absolute must. After the 1 hour half session, I went to Cold Storage to buy a can of tuna before going home to watch TV while munching my tuna sandwich and washing it down with a mug of hot Milo ; )
Monday, December 8, 2008
Lazy Weekends
The time now is 1:07am and I am still very much wide awake and racking my brains in Literati (Yes, I slept too much in the day) How nice if we are on a 4-day work week and we definitely have alot of time to do the things we like and that doesn't include working >: ( I know of colleagues who work till late hours on weekdays and even on weekends and public holidays (Hey! Get a life, dammit!)
Last Friday, I was so mad that I knocked off at 7pm due to some meaningless meeting - The agenda was all about some work processes when Boss is away in Hong Kong next year (Hey, what has that got to do with me?! I am going to be out of that hellhole after Chinese New Year!) The only thing to be happy about for that day was to meet up with Fat Boy and the rest for frog-leg porridge at Geylang : ) However, Sunshine Boy was ultra late in coming back to the office after a meeting with his big-time client - I was so unhappy about it as I was so desperate to depart Raffles Place >: (
We were fortunate to find a parking lot after reaching Geylang and it was quite a wait for Yam Gal and Isaac before we got to sip soul-soothing porridge with fiery gung-po sauce, not to mention ripping off the thick and succulent flesh from chopped frog legs? (I was amazed that both Fat Boy and I could consume 7 pairs of frog legs with porridge at one go!) Not feeling satisfied enough, we proceeded to have soya beancurd for dessert and true enough, what can be more soothing than slurping hot silky beancurd while doing good catching-up on a rainy night? If not for fatigue, we could have stayed past midnight : )
It was a lazy Saturday for me. After oily massage and cold wrap, Fat Boy and I went to Action City to buy presents for next week's SPI BBQ at Labrador Park - I bought a Funshine Carebear whereas he bought a ducky vaccum cleaner. We headed for a simple dinner at Han's before strolling around Suntec City. We went home to slack after that : )
It was also a lazy Sunday for me : P After waking up at 11am, we shared a plate of fishball noodles that Aunt had bought and we continued to laze in bed by reading Sunday Times. After that, we went to Magaret Drive Food Centre to doggybag a whole chicken and a few packets of rice home (It's nice to have chicken rice at home as I can use my hands to tear the chicken flesh. Nobody cares ; P) Watched some TV before heading straight to bed (Good opportunity to pay back the sleep debt!) Woke up at 7pm before accompanying Fat Boy and Aunt to Alexandra Village for dinner. Initially, I did not want to have dinner as I was not hungry, but the aroma from their bak kut teh made me salivate; I succumbed to temptation and ordered a bowl of bak kut teh without the rice (Atkin's Diet? : P ) We strolled to Ikea to burn the excess calories and I was astonished to see Fat Boy buy an ice cream cone because he was "thirsty" (I told you, he's getting fatter and fatter every passing day) Went home to watch "Infernal Affairs", played few rounds of cards with Gramps until now...
Anyway, we will be having lunch with Daddy and Mummy as Fat Boy will be officially announcing the good news to them. Wonder how it will go...: D
Last Friday, I was so mad that I knocked off at 7pm due to some meaningless meeting - The agenda was all about some work processes when Boss is away in Hong Kong next year (Hey, what has that got to do with me?! I am going to be out of that hellhole after Chinese New Year!) The only thing to be happy about for that day was to meet up with Fat Boy and the rest for frog-leg porridge at Geylang : ) However, Sunshine Boy was ultra late in coming back to the office after a meeting with his big-time client - I was so unhappy about it as I was so desperate to depart Raffles Place >: (
We were fortunate to find a parking lot after reaching Geylang and it was quite a wait for Yam Gal and Isaac before we got to sip soul-soothing porridge with fiery gung-po sauce, not to mention ripping off the thick and succulent flesh from chopped frog legs? (I was amazed that both Fat Boy and I could consume 7 pairs of frog legs with porridge at one go!) Not feeling satisfied enough, we proceeded to have soya beancurd for dessert and true enough, what can be more soothing than slurping hot silky beancurd while doing good catching-up on a rainy night? If not for fatigue, we could have stayed past midnight : )
It was a lazy Saturday for me. After oily massage and cold wrap, Fat Boy and I went to Action City to buy presents for next week's SPI BBQ at Labrador Park - I bought a Funshine Carebear whereas he bought a ducky vaccum cleaner. We headed for a simple dinner at Han's before strolling around Suntec City. We went home to slack after that : )
It was also a lazy Sunday for me : P After waking up at 11am, we shared a plate of fishball noodles that Aunt had bought and we continued to laze in bed by reading Sunday Times. After that, we went to Magaret Drive Food Centre to doggybag a whole chicken and a few packets of rice home (It's nice to have chicken rice at home as I can use my hands to tear the chicken flesh. Nobody cares ; P) Watched some TV before heading straight to bed (Good opportunity to pay back the sleep debt!) Woke up at 7pm before accompanying Fat Boy and Aunt to Alexandra Village for dinner. Initially, I did not want to have dinner as I was not hungry, but the aroma from their bak kut teh made me salivate; I succumbed to temptation and ordered a bowl of bak kut teh without the rice (Atkin's Diet? : P ) We strolled to Ikea to burn the excess calories and I was astonished to see Fat Boy buy an ice cream cone because he was "thirsty" (I told you, he's getting fatter and fatter every passing day) Went home to watch "Infernal Affairs", played few rounds of cards with Gramps until now...
Anyway, we will be having lunch with Daddy and Mummy as Fat Boy will be officially announcing the good news to them. Wonder how it will go...: D
Monday, December 1, 2008
Happy Weekends!
Gee, Monday is finally coming to an end and I must say I am so exhausted from the back-to-back activities lined up last weekend : P At this present moment, Fat Boy is sweating out in the kitchen; wonder what is for dinner? : P (I heard cackling deepfrying sounds)
Last Saturday afternoon, after having our brunch of fishball noodles, Fat Boy and I went to Zhou's Kitchen to make a reservation for our special day : ) Well, I must say that the staff at Zhou's Kitchen are very warm and friendly and they tried their best to answer our questions : ) Later in the noon, I went to Marina Square to have my cold wrap before meeting up with my SPI friends for steamboat buffet dinner at Fortune Cuisine in Sunset Way. Initialluy, I was quite doubtful about the quality of the food, but to my astonishment, it was fantastic! Where can you find a great variety of seafood like flower crabs, prawns, crayfish and scallops and 4 types of soup bases like ma la, seafood, tom yam and chicken at 28 bucks? No wonder reservation has to to made - We saw quite a number of diners being turned away : /
After a hearty-diet-crashing dinner, we proceeded to Mount Faber for bowling (Yes, we, or rather I, really need to burn off those calories! God knows how many kilos of prawns in my tummy!) It was really fun and exciting to pit our ball-throwing skills against one another and I was so amazed that Fat Boy was able to squeeze into the Top 3 list for 3 rounds! : P Though we were physically tired, our minds and spirits were not! We headed for pool after that (Gee...I am not so keen though) and the best thing was Fat Boy thrashed them one by one (Uh oh, what ball games is he not good at?) The pool game ended at 2:45am and we still refused to part ways - Our last stop was at Mr Bean where we had some drinks before going home. By the time our heads touched the pillow, it was 5am : P
We woke up at 10:10am on Sunday (I woke up at 9am to give Rightie a morning call before going back to snooze), washed up and quickly took a bus to Vivocity (I had wanted to have a different experience of taking public transport that day : ) ) Met up with Sunshine Boy, had lunch of chicken rice before Yam, Isaac and Rightie caught up with us. We shopped in Daiso for a while before Rightie drove us into Sentosa! Woohoo!
Despite occasional drizzle, it was a wonderful day as we went for swimming, volleyball and soccer : ) It was great to meet up with Amy and Mark as well as Daniel! We had dinner at a Japanese restaurant in Vivocity before saying goodbye and though we had an early night (We slept at 10:30am), it really felt sucky when we woke up the following morning.
P/S: I guess he has finished cooking, it's time to sign off right now!
Last Saturday afternoon, after having our brunch of fishball noodles, Fat Boy and I went to Zhou's Kitchen to make a reservation for our special day : ) Well, I must say that the staff at Zhou's Kitchen are very warm and friendly and they tried their best to answer our questions : ) Later in the noon, I went to Marina Square to have my cold wrap before meeting up with my SPI friends for steamboat buffet dinner at Fortune Cuisine in Sunset Way. Initialluy, I was quite doubtful about the quality of the food, but to my astonishment, it was fantastic! Where can you find a great variety of seafood like flower crabs, prawns, crayfish and scallops and 4 types of soup bases like ma la, seafood, tom yam and chicken at 28 bucks? No wonder reservation has to to made - We saw quite a number of diners being turned away : /
After a hearty-diet-crashing dinner, we proceeded to Mount Faber for bowling (Yes, we, or rather I, really need to burn off those calories! God knows how many kilos of prawns in my tummy!) It was really fun and exciting to pit our ball-throwing skills against one another and I was so amazed that Fat Boy was able to squeeze into the Top 3 list for 3 rounds! : P Though we were physically tired, our minds and spirits were not! We headed for pool after that (Gee...I am not so keen though) and the best thing was Fat Boy thrashed them one by one (Uh oh, what ball games is he not good at?) The pool game ended at 2:45am and we still refused to part ways - Our last stop was at Mr Bean where we had some drinks before going home. By the time our heads touched the pillow, it was 5am : P
We woke up at 10:10am on Sunday (I woke up at 9am to give Rightie a morning call before going back to snooze), washed up and quickly took a bus to Vivocity (I had wanted to have a different experience of taking public transport that day : ) ) Met up with Sunshine Boy, had lunch of chicken rice before Yam, Isaac and Rightie caught up with us. We shopped in Daiso for a while before Rightie drove us into Sentosa! Woohoo!
Despite occasional drizzle, it was a wonderful day as we went for swimming, volleyball and soccer : ) It was great to meet up with Amy and Mark as well as Daniel! We had dinner at a Japanese restaurant in Vivocity before saying goodbye and though we had an early night (We slept at 10:30am), it really felt sucky when we woke up the following morning.
P/S: I guess he has finished cooking, it's time to sign off right now!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
That Moment
Well, I have lost track of time due to wedding dinners and a baby shower these two days : ( Attended the baby shower of the son of Fat Boy's ex-colleague at Zhou's Kitchen yesterday afternoon. It was great to see his ex-colleagues again, since last year's Kuala Lumpur trip and I must say that the food was good too : ) We went home to nap before proceeding to my SPI friend's wedding at Grand Shanghai - I was very impressed by the Old Shanghai decor the moment I stepped into the restaurant and the food was good too! One of the best weddings I have attended so far : D It would be one of my considerations for my own wedding dinner.
After the celebration ended at 11pm, we headed to TCC in Clarke Quay for coffee and the session ended at about 3am. Too bad some of the guys were feeling lethargic (They woke up at 3am the previous morning) else we would have chatted till dawnbreak. By the time I washed up and my head touched the pillow at 4am, I was gone almost instanteously.
As for this morning, I brought Boyboy to the vet clinic to have him microchipped. I thought it would be an extremely painful process, but it turned out to be quite alright - The vet simply grabbed the back of his neck and jabbed him, all in a couple of seconds : ) The only downside was that I was left 60 bucks poorer (Dammit! Rearing dogs are more expensive than bringing up a kid) Though the vet tried to convince me to have Boyboy undergo a blood test to check for heartworms, I refused to hear any further. 60 bucks was enough to make me feel the pinch for quite a while >: ( Anyway, I have done the necessary documentation and right now, it's waiting for their approval. Once everything is settled, Boyboy will have a license! : )
I have been feeling rather happy these few days, especially last Tuesday : ) I was rather down due to work issues last Tuesday morning and Fat Boy sent me a large parcel via courier and imagine my surprise and happiness when I unwrapped it and saw the Damier Neverfull Louis Vuitton bag! I almost teared when I saw his heartfelt words penned on the back of the tiny card attached to the parcel. Though Sunshine Boy and Yvonne suggested that it might a proposal, I dismissed it as I believed he would do it on our Hong Kong tour.
We met up after work and he drove me to the Jewel Box and I felt lost; I simply had no idea what he had up on his sleeves. He ushered me into one of the cable cars and we began our 1 hour and a half ride. It was a bad experience as I was feeling nauseous (motion sickness?) and I had wanted to get out of the cable car, but after knowing the hefty pricetag of the ride, I decided to bear with it and I must say that I did not finish my main course of chicken thigh and baked potato : / (I think I would puke if I were to push it down my throat) I thanked God when dessert arrived (Not that I loved the apple crumble, but it meant that the ride would end soon) I was also handed a bouquet of red roses when desserts were placed on the table (I actually thought that it was inclusive of the package and I told Fat Boy that it was actually worthwhile. By the way, I was also searching frantically for Ferraro Rochers, which I thought might be hiding between the roses, so much so that I did not notice the golden "Will You Marry Me" print on the roses) Fat Boy became hysterical and egged me to look at the golden prints. I looked at them and realized that it was a proposal : P He then lifted the lid of the dessert platter and I saw a diamond ring seated snugly on top of the apple crumble (It was the diamond ring that he attempted to propose to me and I rejected him flat a couple of years back)
Though feeling excited and joyful, I tried to be difficult and asked him why I should marry him and his reply was a shy "Because I love you" : ) Satisfied, I asked him to put the diamond ring on for me and well, his mission was accomplished! We are getting married! Hahahaha....
Finally going to be a bride...
After the celebration ended at 11pm, we headed to TCC in Clarke Quay for coffee and the session ended at about 3am. Too bad some of the guys were feeling lethargic (They woke up at 3am the previous morning) else we would have chatted till dawnbreak. By the time I washed up and my head touched the pillow at 4am, I was gone almost instanteously.
As for this morning, I brought Boyboy to the vet clinic to have him microchipped. I thought it would be an extremely painful process, but it turned out to be quite alright - The vet simply grabbed the back of his neck and jabbed him, all in a couple of seconds : ) The only downside was that I was left 60 bucks poorer (Dammit! Rearing dogs are more expensive than bringing up a kid) Though the vet tried to convince me to have Boyboy undergo a blood test to check for heartworms, I refused to hear any further. 60 bucks was enough to make me feel the pinch for quite a while >: ( Anyway, I have done the necessary documentation and right now, it's waiting for their approval. Once everything is settled, Boyboy will have a license! : )
I have been feeling rather happy these few days, especially last Tuesday : ) I was rather down due to work issues last Tuesday morning and Fat Boy sent me a large parcel via courier and imagine my surprise and happiness when I unwrapped it and saw the Damier Neverfull Louis Vuitton bag! I almost teared when I saw his heartfelt words penned on the back of the tiny card attached to the parcel. Though Sunshine Boy and Yvonne suggested that it might a proposal, I dismissed it as I believed he would do it on our Hong Kong tour.
We met up after work and he drove me to the Jewel Box and I felt lost; I simply had no idea what he had up on his sleeves. He ushered me into one of the cable cars and we began our 1 hour and a half ride. It was a bad experience as I was feeling nauseous (motion sickness?) and I had wanted to get out of the cable car, but after knowing the hefty pricetag of the ride, I decided to bear with it and I must say that I did not finish my main course of chicken thigh and baked potato : / (I think I would puke if I were to push it down my throat) I thanked God when dessert arrived (Not that I loved the apple crumble, but it meant that the ride would end soon) I was also handed a bouquet of red roses when desserts were placed on the table (I actually thought that it was inclusive of the package and I told Fat Boy that it was actually worthwhile. By the way, I was also searching frantically for Ferraro Rochers, which I thought might be hiding between the roses, so much so that I did not notice the golden "Will You Marry Me" print on the roses) Fat Boy became hysterical and egged me to look at the golden prints. I looked at them and realized that it was a proposal : P He then lifted the lid of the dessert platter and I saw a diamond ring seated snugly on top of the apple crumble (It was the diamond ring that he attempted to propose to me and I rejected him flat a couple of years back)
Though feeling excited and joyful, I tried to be difficult and asked him why I should marry him and his reply was a shy "Because I love you" : ) Satisfied, I asked him to put the diamond ring on for me and well, his mission was accomplished! We are getting married! Hahahaha....
Finally going to be a bride...
Sunday, November 16, 2008
That Dog License...
Gramps has been bugging me to get a dog license for Boyboy after she heard stories of relatives being heavily fined by AVA these few days. Tried to brush her off a couple of times and finally, I relented - I couldn't stand the constant "When are you going to get Boyboy the dog license?!" naggings : (
Initially, I thought it would be an easy task. I mean, how difficult could it be to get the name and address of anybody who lives in private housing? I quickly suggested to Gramps that my 2nd Aunt could help us since she lives in a condominium in Mandarin Gardens. Gramps quickly called the latter and well, to our shock, she rejected us in the most unusual manner - She pretended not to hear Gramps' request! (What a loser!)
Despite feeling pissed off, I fully understand her concerns (Why would she want to help when there are no benefits?) Moving on, I began to ask around and realized that it was not easy to get somebody to help at all! Some of my friends who own dogs who are not HDB-approved have similar difficulties and fortunately for them, they managed to get in touch with helpful souls who are willing to get the dog license under their names and addresses (Hey! Where is my helpful soul?) I had also come across many different kind of replies - Some mentioned they would help me ask around (Standard answer), some told me they did not have friends living in private housing (Implication: I do not want to help and I cannot be bothered at all) and some even pushed me to other friends who live in private housing though I said "No, it's Ok" (as we are just hi-and-bye acquaintances, why would they want to help?)
Feeling desperate, and yet refused to let Gramps know of my failure, I kept buying time by brushing her off (again!) I guess she knew what was going on and one fine day, she told me to visit this particular relative (whom I see only once every year during Chinese New Year) who happened to work as a security guard at an overseas school near our place - She mentioned that he and his wife might be able to help (Trust me, I was so damn scornful of it and everything felt on deaf ears. No way was I going to visit and plea them as I strongly believed they would come up with all kinds of excuses just to reject me)
However, this afternoon when Fat Boy drove Gramps, Aunt and me for lunch, Gramps insisted the former to drive into the overseas school despite my protests : ( We met up with the relative and his wife and Gramps, without any formality, asked if they could help us with the dog license and just as I was expecting a "Aiyah, as you know we already have 3 dogs...I want to help, but..." I heard a straightforward "Ok" (Imagine my surprise!) In addition, they even recommended a vet who charged a lower fee for microchip implant when they knew Boyboy had not being microchipped and they said that they would help us to apply for the dog license after the microchip implant (Can you actually believe that such kind souls exist?)
This incident made me realized a couple of things - People whom you think may not help you may actually go all out to do so and people whom you think will go all out to do actually do not...I must say that I am quite a failure because I must admit that I do not have many friends who actually go all the way out to help and perhaps, it's also time to reflect on myself. Is it because I have not done enough, that's why others do not see why they should lend a hand when I need them? I must say that I am quite an anal person as I treat all my friends sincerely and when I see that my sincerity is not being reciprocated, I cannot bring myself to treat them the way I treated them initially (I refused to play the fool) I don't see why I should continue to waste my time on them in terms of eat, drink and merry when they could not be bothered to lift a finger to help in my utmost need? I do not need such "friends".
Initially, I thought it would be an easy task. I mean, how difficult could it be to get the name and address of anybody who lives in private housing? I quickly suggested to Gramps that my 2nd Aunt could help us since she lives in a condominium in Mandarin Gardens. Gramps quickly called the latter and well, to our shock, she rejected us in the most unusual manner - She pretended not to hear Gramps' request! (What a loser!)
Despite feeling pissed off, I fully understand her concerns (Why would she want to help when there are no benefits?) Moving on, I began to ask around and realized that it was not easy to get somebody to help at all! Some of my friends who own dogs who are not HDB-approved have similar difficulties and fortunately for them, they managed to get in touch with helpful souls who are willing to get the dog license under their names and addresses (Hey! Where is my helpful soul?) I had also come across many different kind of replies - Some mentioned they would help me ask around (Standard answer), some told me they did not have friends living in private housing (Implication: I do not want to help and I cannot be bothered at all) and some even pushed me to other friends who live in private housing though I said "No, it's Ok" (as we are just hi-and-bye acquaintances, why would they want to help?)
Feeling desperate, and yet refused to let Gramps know of my failure, I kept buying time by brushing her off (again!) I guess she knew what was going on and one fine day, she told me to visit this particular relative (whom I see only once every year during Chinese New Year) who happened to work as a security guard at an overseas school near our place - She mentioned that he and his wife might be able to help (Trust me, I was so damn scornful of it and everything felt on deaf ears. No way was I going to visit and plea them as I strongly believed they would come up with all kinds of excuses just to reject me)
However, this afternoon when Fat Boy drove Gramps, Aunt and me for lunch, Gramps insisted the former to drive into the overseas school despite my protests : ( We met up with the relative and his wife and Gramps, without any formality, asked if they could help us with the dog license and just as I was expecting a "Aiyah, as you know we already have 3 dogs...I want to help, but..." I heard a straightforward "Ok" (Imagine my surprise!) In addition, they even recommended a vet who charged a lower fee for microchip implant when they knew Boyboy had not being microchipped and they said that they would help us to apply for the dog license after the microchip implant (Can you actually believe that such kind souls exist?)
This incident made me realized a couple of things - People whom you think may not help you may actually go all out to do so and people whom you think will go all out to do actually do not...I must say that I am quite a failure because I must admit that I do not have many friends who actually go all the way out to help and perhaps, it's also time to reflect on myself. Is it because I have not done enough, that's why others do not see why they should lend a hand when I need them? I must say that I am quite an anal person as I treat all my friends sincerely and when I see that my sincerity is not being reciprocated, I cannot bring myself to treat them the way I treated them initially (I refused to play the fool) I don't see why I should continue to waste my time on them in terms of eat, drink and merry when they could not be bothered to lift a finger to help in my utmost need? I do not need such "friends".
Monday, November 10, 2008
Excruciating Aches
Yes, Boss and Vicious Lady have flown to Hong Kong for business purposes and here we are, slacking our guts out (I emphasized: S-L-A-C-K-I-N-G and not slogging) : D I should be feeling exhilarated, but aches from the time of that month are making me tired and angry! Argh! It didn't help that my calves are hurting from yesterday's pupur massage...Oh yes, yesterday, both Fat Boy and I went to Johor Bahru. Our schedule was:
- Woke up at 10:35am because we slept at 3am the previous night playing "Bowling Buddies"
- Washed up and left the house at 11:20am
- Went to the nearest provision shop to buy 4D at Gramp's request
- Drove past the Causeway at 12:30pm and reached Johor Bahru at 12:50pm
- Had Fat Boy's precious toy washed and vacummed at some carwashing stall
- Sank my teeth into juicy and succulent chicken thigh and drumstick at KFC's in Tebrau City
- Burned calories by doing grocery-shopping - Bought canned fruits and chips!
- Headed to A&W for an ice-cold mug of root beer (Slurps!) Skipped my waffle with maple syrup and butter as we were feeling bloated from lunch
- Slept in the car as Fat Boy drove around Johor Bahru and woke up to find ourselves in Danga Bay
- Strolled around Danga Bay and walked into a massage hut. Was fascinated by the pupur slimming massage and went for it. Saw the petite masseuss and was disappointed, but she proved me wrong with her strong and skillful hands. Nearly died of pain when she rubbed my calves and thighs continuously...
- Walked out of the massage hut feeling happy and very light : )
- Had dinner of seafood tom yum soup, fried rice, stir-fried kale, claypot chicken and shrimp omelette and chendol to wrap up the whole course
- Went back to Singapore after that as we felt exhausted and I had wanted to watch the 11pm drama serial!
Will be meeting up with Amy, Adeline, Rightie, Fanny, Claudia together with Sunshine Boy, Yam Gal, Isaac and Fat Boy at Waraku in Marina Square. Well, only we, the ladies, will be pigging out from the 50% discount whereas the guys will sitting afar to watch. What can I say? The guys just don't get it : )
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Tired
Met up with Miko and his missus at BQ Bar in Boat Quay last Wednesday evening. Though the session was a rather short one, I was quite happy. However, I was as quite disappointed with its limited menu and I had a pint of Heineken and potato wedges : )
As Isaac was hungry, we proceeded to Chinatown food centre to have claypot rice, but it was closed (Too bad) We had frog leg porridge instead and I must say that it was not fantastic : / The plain porridge was not silky smooth enough and the kungpo frog leg sauce was not salty and fragrant : / (What a waste of money) To make up for the lacklustre dinner, we went to 记得吃 to have desserts. Both Fat Boy, Isaac and I had the mango sago cream, whereas Sharon had her favourite almond cream and Sunshine Boy, mango sago cream with beancurd : ) Unfortunately, it was a weekday, else, we would have stayed longer : /
As for yesterday, as I was tired from work, both Fat Boy and I had a quick claypot rice dinner at Chinatown food centre (We missed it last Wednesday) before heading to Tiong Bahru Market to have desserts and to pack fishball noodles for Gramps from her favourite stall : ) After washing up and watching TV, we went to bed ( - . - ) z z z
Weekends are the best for sleeping in, unfortunately, I woke up at 8:10am this morning because I had to go back to office :~ ( I was so damn reluctant! Sunshine Boy and a few others were in the office too and we ordered MacDonald's for breakfast (That was the best part for the whole morning) I had my usual Sausage McMuffin with Egg and orange juice! : D~ I didn't do much work; I was playing games on Facebook : P until 12:30pm and I left for Marina Square for my oily massage and cold wraps : )
Came home by myself as Fat Boy went to service his car and well, here I am waiting for him to come back. Not sure what to have for dinner later on...*Sigh!*
As Isaac was hungry, we proceeded to Chinatown food centre to have claypot rice, but it was closed (Too bad) We had frog leg porridge instead and I must say that it was not fantastic : / The plain porridge was not silky smooth enough and the kungpo frog leg sauce was not salty and fragrant : / (What a waste of money) To make up for the lacklustre dinner, we went to 记得吃 to have desserts. Both Fat Boy, Isaac and I had the mango sago cream, whereas Sharon had her favourite almond cream and Sunshine Boy, mango sago cream with beancurd : ) Unfortunately, it was a weekday, else, we would have stayed longer : /
As for yesterday, as I was tired from work, both Fat Boy and I had a quick claypot rice dinner at Chinatown food centre (We missed it last Wednesday) before heading to Tiong Bahru Market to have desserts and to pack fishball noodles for Gramps from her favourite stall : ) After washing up and watching TV, we went to bed ( - . - ) z z z
Weekends are the best for sleeping in, unfortunately, I woke up at 8:10am this morning because I had to go back to office :~ ( I was so damn reluctant! Sunshine Boy and a few others were in the office too and we ordered MacDonald's for breakfast (That was the best part for the whole morning) I had my usual Sausage McMuffin with Egg and orange juice! : D~ I didn't do much work; I was playing games on Facebook : P until 12:30pm and I left for Marina Square for my oily massage and cold wraps : )
Came home by myself as Fat Boy went to service his car and well, here I am waiting for him to come back. Not sure what to have for dinner later on...*Sigh!*
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Teatree Oil
Vanity called and I rushed down to Aunt Helen's after work today. I had wanted to work till 7pm but what the heck, life's too short to slog shit for others eh? (I ran off at 6:20pm) I was so happy to see Aunt Helen again because it meant that my face would be sparkling clean once again : D (Well, I was right. I stepped out of her salon with renewed confidence : ) )
Met up with Fat Boy who was waiting for me at the ground floor (Awww....) and we went to Sakae Sushi in Wheelock Place to have dinner. Had the usual spicy salmon gunkan and temaki as well as chawanmushi (Yummy!) Feeling bloated with carbohydrates, we strolled around Wisma Atria and we headed straight into The Bodyshop because we were rather crazy about teatree oil products recently (It started when I was browsing through the Internet one afternoon and I shared my findings of its abundant benefits to him with great enthusiasm)
After countless of dabs of teatree oil and seaweed lotion on the backs of our hands, we finally purchased a bottle of teatree oil facial wash and a tube of seaweed night serum (Understood that it has oil control properties specially for combination skin - Just what my troublesome face needs!) I had wanted to buy more cosmetics, especially the loose powder and fruity lipgloss; but guess it might be better to finish up what I have right now (No point stocking up and waiting for each of them to expire eh?) Fat Boy left the shop 45 bucks poorer...: /
After sending me home, he left to fetch his parents home (They had a wedding dinner at Copthorne King's) as he did not want them to spend on cab fare. As for me, after bathing, I quickly swiped my face with toner before applying my new seaweed night serum. It has been an hour and my face does not feel tight or oily as usual; I just hope that it's not clogging up those pores! It can be so damn frustrating to see clogged pores and blackheads scattered all over the face! Argh!!
Anyway, I will be meeting up with Miko and the rest for drinks at Boat Quay tomorrow evening. Good to see the former again, though I have just seen him last Friday. Hope tomorrow will be fun!
Met up with Fat Boy who was waiting for me at the ground floor (Awww....) and we went to Sakae Sushi in Wheelock Place to have dinner. Had the usual spicy salmon gunkan and temaki as well as chawanmushi (Yummy!) Feeling bloated with carbohydrates, we strolled around Wisma Atria and we headed straight into The Bodyshop because we were rather crazy about teatree oil products recently (It started when I was browsing through the Internet one afternoon and I shared my findings of its abundant benefits to him with great enthusiasm)
After countless of dabs of teatree oil and seaweed lotion on the backs of our hands, we finally purchased a bottle of teatree oil facial wash and a tube of seaweed night serum (Understood that it has oil control properties specially for combination skin - Just what my troublesome face needs!) I had wanted to buy more cosmetics, especially the loose powder and fruity lipgloss; but guess it might be better to finish up what I have right now (No point stocking up and waiting for each of them to expire eh?) Fat Boy left the shop 45 bucks poorer...: /
After sending me home, he left to fetch his parents home (They had a wedding dinner at Copthorne King's) as he did not want them to spend on cab fare. As for me, after bathing, I quickly swiped my face with toner before applying my new seaweed night serum. It has been an hour and my face does not feel tight or oily as usual; I just hope that it's not clogging up those pores! It can be so damn frustrating to see clogged pores and blackheads scattered all over the face! Argh!!
Anyway, I will be meeting up with Miko and the rest for drinks at Boat Quay tomorrow evening. Good to see the former again, though I have just seen him last Friday. Hope tomorrow will be fun!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Weekend Rewind
Though I have been sleeping late for the past few nights, I do not feel lethargic at all even though sales is almost non-existent (Well, I had so much fun! Who cares?)
Attended Godma's birthday dinner last Friday at Rakuzen, a Japanese restaurant tucked away in a corner of Millenia Walk. Oh yes, I was late because Boss made me stay back for a last-minute training session (which was absolutely unnecessary!) By the time I stepped out of the office, it was nearing 8pm. Imagine how boiling mad I was! >: ( Fortunately, the sight of the happy SPI members dissipitated my anger and I was smiling in no time : D (By the way, the food was so-so and expensive!)
After dinner, we headed for a crooning session at Kbox in Suntec City and everybody displayed their singing prowess by belting out Chinese and English songs of all sorts. We had great fun singing, screaming and laughing that my throat felt sore : P As I had to go to Johor Bahru the next morning (meaning to say, I couldn't stay out too late as I needed my beauty sleep), I reluctantly bade the happy group farewell before I hopped into Fat Boy's waiting car : ) By the time my head touched the pillow, it was 3am : o
I refused to wake up the next morning. If not for Fat Boy, who kept pulling me out of bed, I would have slept the whole day away : P (It took him 15 minutes to get me out of the bed) After washing up, we drove to meet up with Sharon and Isaac as well as Sunshine Boy at his bus-stop before proceeding to Johor Bahru! Our first stop was at City Square Plaza where Sunshine Boy had his haircut (Initially, both Sharon and I thought that we needed a trim as well, it turned out that we were way too early - The hairdresser told us to come back after 3 weeks) After having a good lunch at the HK Cafe and had our aching muscles rubbed, we proceeded to A&W for the long-awaited rootbeer, curly fries and waffles! : D~ (By the way, we were like hungry cows the moment the food arrived. Nobody bothered about image)
From the way we gorged our food at A&W, we were too full for dinner. Instead of waiting for time to past by crawling around shopping malls, we went for bowling and it was a good choice; by the time we finished our 2 games, our tummies were ready to store food - We went to Senibong Seafood Village to devour chilli crabs, Canadian oysters, Thai chicken, sweet & sour fish, sambal kangkong and hotplate tofu : D~ Feeling full, satisfied and sleepy, we went home : ) By the time I stepped out of the bathroom and ready to go to bed, it was 2.30am x (
If not for Gramps who had an appointment with her hairdresser at 10am, both Fat Boy and I would have slept the whole day away. We drove her and Aunt Maddy to the hairdresser's before going to 太阳宫 to offer incense (Yes, I need miracles to tide me over this bloody month!) We went home to rest for an hour before going back to the salon to fetch Gramps and Aunt Maddy. Toegther, we went to Yum Cha to have dim sum tunch : ) (We went home after that and I must say that I was already dead from exhaustion) Woke up at 8pm and had dinner of kailan and fish with rice at Alexandra Village : P Played a couple of card games with Fat Boy and Gramps and I lost 8 bucks :~ ( Slept at 2:30am.....x (
Attended Godma's birthday dinner last Friday at Rakuzen, a Japanese restaurant tucked away in a corner of Millenia Walk. Oh yes, I was late because Boss made me stay back for a last-minute training session (which was absolutely unnecessary!) By the time I stepped out of the office, it was nearing 8pm. Imagine how boiling mad I was! >: ( Fortunately, the sight of the happy SPI members dissipitated my anger and I was smiling in no time : D (By the way, the food was so-so and expensive!)
After dinner, we headed for a crooning session at Kbox in Suntec City and everybody displayed their singing prowess by belting out Chinese and English songs of all sorts. We had great fun singing, screaming and laughing that my throat felt sore : P As I had to go to Johor Bahru the next morning (meaning to say, I couldn't stay out too late as I needed my beauty sleep), I reluctantly bade the happy group farewell before I hopped into Fat Boy's waiting car : ) By the time my head touched the pillow, it was 3am : o
I refused to wake up the next morning. If not for Fat Boy, who kept pulling me out of bed, I would have slept the whole day away : P (It took him 15 minutes to get me out of the bed) After washing up, we drove to meet up with Sharon and Isaac as well as Sunshine Boy at his bus-stop before proceeding to Johor Bahru! Our first stop was at City Square Plaza where Sunshine Boy had his haircut (Initially, both Sharon and I thought that we needed a trim as well, it turned out that we were way too early - The hairdresser told us to come back after 3 weeks) After having a good lunch at the HK Cafe and had our aching muscles rubbed, we proceeded to A&W for the long-awaited rootbeer, curly fries and waffles! : D~ (By the way, we were like hungry cows the moment the food arrived. Nobody bothered about image)
From the way we gorged our food at A&W, we were too full for dinner. Instead of waiting for time to past by crawling around shopping malls, we went for bowling and it was a good choice; by the time we finished our 2 games, our tummies were ready to store food - We went to Senibong Seafood Village to devour chilli crabs, Canadian oysters, Thai chicken, sweet & sour fish, sambal kangkong and hotplate tofu : D~ Feeling full, satisfied and sleepy, we went home : ) By the time I stepped out of the bathroom and ready to go to bed, it was 2.30am x (
If not for Gramps who had an appointment with her hairdresser at 10am, both Fat Boy and I would have slept the whole day away. We drove her and Aunt Maddy to the hairdresser's before going to 太阳宫 to offer incense (Yes, I need miracles to tide me over this bloody month!) We went home to rest for an hour before going back to the salon to fetch Gramps and Aunt Maddy. Toegther, we went to Yum Cha to have dim sum tunch : ) (We went home after that and I must say that I was already dead from exhaustion) Woke up at 8pm and had dinner of kailan and fish with rice at Alexandra Village : P Played a couple of card games with Fat Boy and Gramps and I lost 8 bucks :~ ( Slept at 2:30am.....x (
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Vanity Is Calling!
I never expect that I would be hooked on cosmetics. I grew up with the idea that putting on make-up clogs the pores and causes evil blackheads (Yes, evil blackheads!) Hence, my face was free from all kinds of powder until I bought cosmetics from Skinfood just for my Sworn Sista's wedding (I refused to be a plain Jane standing beside the members of her entourage) I succeeded in looking pretty that day and well, I have been hooked ever since : )
However, looking at the photographs that I have taken during the sales workshop last Saturday, I realized that the Skinfood compact powder made me look as if I was wearing a white mask and I guess I looked ultra artificial : / Coincidentally, a couple of days back when we were walking back to the office, both Sharon and I came across The Bodyshop's new range of mineral cosmetics and we were won over by its non-comedogenic, non-fragrant and shimmery properties (meaning to say, our pores will not be clogged while looking dewy at the same time!) Initially, I was quite put off by the price tag of the loose powder and blusher, but...what the heck! We went to The Bodyshop after work yesterday : P~
I was quite impressed by the professionalism and good product knowledge of the beauty consultant. She could easily tell which powder shade suit us and she made an effort to demostrate how to apply the powder using the synthetic brushes : ) As we spent over 85 bucks each, we received a goody bag which consisted of 2 pots of face cream, spa body gel and a tube of lip gloss! (That's so damn wonderful!)
We proceeded to This Fashion to look at working clothes (Both Sharon and I realized that our wardrobes are so limited that we have been wearing the same old clothes every week) before meeting up with Sunshine Boy and Fat Boy for dinner at Golden Shoe Foodcourt (Oh yes, Isaac was there too! He accompanied both Sharon and me to The Bodyshop and This Fashion while munching on his chocolate donut!)
Though dinner (I had soup noodles with lotsa veggies) was simple fare, it felt blissful to share one another's stories while sipping inexpensive Heineken beer and munching chocolatey donuts : ) I am looking forward to this coming Saturday's Johor Bahru trip : D~
However, looking at the photographs that I have taken during the sales workshop last Saturday, I realized that the Skinfood compact powder made me look as if I was wearing a white mask and I guess I looked ultra artificial : / Coincidentally, a couple of days back when we were walking back to the office, both Sharon and I came across The Bodyshop's new range of mineral cosmetics and we were won over by its non-comedogenic, non-fragrant and shimmery properties (meaning to say, our pores will not be clogged while looking dewy at the same time!) Initially, I was quite put off by the price tag of the loose powder and blusher, but...what the heck! We went to The Bodyshop after work yesterday : P~
I was quite impressed by the professionalism and good product knowledge of the beauty consultant. She could easily tell which powder shade suit us and she made an effort to demostrate how to apply the powder using the synthetic brushes : ) As we spent over 85 bucks each, we received a goody bag which consisted of 2 pots of face cream, spa body gel and a tube of lip gloss! (That's so damn wonderful!)
We proceeded to This Fashion to look at working clothes (Both Sharon and I realized that our wardrobes are so limited that we have been wearing the same old clothes every week) before meeting up with Sunshine Boy and Fat Boy for dinner at Golden Shoe Foodcourt (Oh yes, Isaac was there too! He accompanied both Sharon and me to The Bodyshop and This Fashion while munching on his chocolate donut!)
Though dinner (I had soup noodles with lotsa veggies) was simple fare, it felt blissful to share one another's stories while sipping inexpensive Heineken beer and munching chocolatey donuts : ) I am looking forward to this coming Saturday's Johor Bahru trip : D~
Friday, October 10, 2008
Friday
Today is finally Friday and I guess I have died of exhaustion : / Have not been feeling well these few days and last Tuesday, I went to the doctor's (I was on MC! Yay~) However, instead of resting at home, I went to Aunt Helen's for facial (Yes, my face was a disaster with clogged pores and blackheads!) It was indeed soothing to have her porcelain-smooth hands on my weather-beaten face : D
After facial, I went to Crumpler at Heeren and bought a bag, not for myself, but for him (Yes, that was my promise to him - I promised to buy it for him on his birthday) I knew it was impossible to hand it to him personally (I am supposed to disappear from his life right?!), hence I went to the post office to have it hand-delivered to his doorstep (Tada! Mission accomplished) After completing my mission, I bought a bouquet of flowers for Aunt. It was her birthday and both Fat Boy and I agreed to celebrate this special occasion by bringing her to have her favourite steamboat at Golden Mile Complex! : D~
After the sumptuous dinner of steamboat, sweet and sour pork and steamed chicken, we proceeded to Chinatown to have desserts before going home to watch TV (Simple but nice : ) )
Back to now. Yes, I am feeling so unwell..all because of tomorrow's sales workshop
: ( I have to wake up at 6:15am. Arghh! It's worse than on a normal working day : ( I really have no idea what to wear tomorrow though I know I have to be in formal business wear (Hey, it's a bloody Saturday, for heaven's sake!)
Anyway, though it did not work out from the previous incident, I've realized and understood many things. I've decided to stop looking out and notice as well as cherish the ones who are there for me even when the sky falls down. Rollercoaster romances may be exciting and unforgettable, but when it comes to problems that determine whether we make or break, both parties crumble and separation is usually the easiest option. I admit I cannot take free-fall anymore. Time for me to wake up as well.
Wish me all the best.
After facial, I went to Crumpler at Heeren and bought a bag, not for myself, but for him (Yes, that was my promise to him - I promised to buy it for him on his birthday) I knew it was impossible to hand it to him personally (I am supposed to disappear from his life right?!), hence I went to the post office to have it hand-delivered to his doorstep (Tada! Mission accomplished) After completing my mission, I bought a bouquet of flowers for Aunt. It was her birthday and both Fat Boy and I agreed to celebrate this special occasion by bringing her to have her favourite steamboat at Golden Mile Complex! : D~
After the sumptuous dinner of steamboat, sweet and sour pork and steamed chicken, we proceeded to Chinatown to have desserts before going home to watch TV (Simple but nice : ) )
Back to now. Yes, I am feeling so unwell..all because of tomorrow's sales workshop
: ( I have to wake up at 6:15am. Arghh! It's worse than on a normal working day : ( I really have no idea what to wear tomorrow though I know I have to be in formal business wear (Hey, it's a bloody Saturday, for heaven's sake!)
Anyway, though it did not work out from the previous incident, I've realized and understood many things. I've decided to stop looking out and notice as well as cherish the ones who are there for me even when the sky falls down. Rollercoaster romances may be exciting and unforgettable, but when it comes to problems that determine whether we make or break, both parties crumble and separation is usually the easiest option. I admit I cannot take free-fall anymore. Time for me to wake up as well.
Wish me all the best.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Fun-Filled Saturday
Today is such a blue day. Besides churning edited resumes, I have been plugging into Facebook and bumming around (What the hell!) It didn't help that it's also the time of the month; my whole body is aching badly : ( (I should have rot in bed)
Argh! Weekends fly faster than anything else. Last Saturday, I went to City Square Plaza in Johor Bahru with Fat Boy and Sunshine Boy because I needed my hairdresser to get rid of that irritating kink to complete the rebonded look : / Well, it took him a couple of minutes to do the job and the best part was that I did not have to pay for the "new" hairstyle. I left the salon a happy customer : D
We proceeded to have lunch at the HK Cafe and I had my usual egg-wrapped fish fillet with rice and Chinese tea, whereas Fat Boy had his Nissin noodles and Sunshine Boy, beef hor fan. After the hearty meal (I felt especially full because I was very glad with my "new" hairstyle), we strolled around City Square Plaza and I must say that I was bored as there was nothing much to shop (I just bought a pair of Summit open-toed sandals the previous week) Hence, we decided to roam around other parts of Johor Bahru : P (For your info, throughout the whole road trip, while the guys were frantically searching for A&W, I was sleeping at the back of the car : P )
Ultimately, they failed to locate A&W and we ended up at Tesco, a new shopping mall : ) We spent almost 2 hours shopping for grocery and we found ourselves carrying plastic bags of chocolate, cookies, toiletries and canned food. As we did not want to go off early, we planned for a KTV session after dinner, thus, we booked a timeslot at Red Box in Tebrau before continuing with our journey (this time round, in search of the seafood restaurant in Senibong) whereas I decided to snooze, but not for long because they managed to locate the place within 20 minutes.
It was a good dinner - We tucked into fresh Canadian oysters, chilli crabs, fried squids, ostrich meat in black pepper sauce and garlic-fried kale : D~ (I remember feeling fatter that night) The bill came to about 260RM, which was aboout 40 bucks per person. Value-for-money eh?
Before heading to Red Box to croon our lungs away, we went to search for Compressed Natural Gas. This time round, it took about 45 minutes as the roads were dark. Anyway, it was worth it as Fat Boy paid less than 10RM for a full tank worth of gas! Feeling happy, we went to Red Box for our 4-hour singing session before leaving Johor Bahru at 1am...By the time I reached home, I was gone x (
Argh! Weekends fly faster than anything else. Last Saturday, I went to City Square Plaza in Johor Bahru with Fat Boy and Sunshine Boy because I needed my hairdresser to get rid of that irritating kink to complete the rebonded look : / Well, it took him a couple of minutes to do the job and the best part was that I did not have to pay for the "new" hairstyle. I left the salon a happy customer : D
We proceeded to have lunch at the HK Cafe and I had my usual egg-wrapped fish fillet with rice and Chinese tea, whereas Fat Boy had his Nissin noodles and Sunshine Boy, beef hor fan. After the hearty meal (I felt especially full because I was very glad with my "new" hairstyle), we strolled around City Square Plaza and I must say that I was bored as there was nothing much to shop (I just bought a pair of Summit open-toed sandals the previous week) Hence, we decided to roam around other parts of Johor Bahru : P (For your info, throughout the whole road trip, while the guys were frantically searching for A&W, I was sleeping at the back of the car : P )
Ultimately, they failed to locate A&W and we ended up at Tesco, a new shopping mall : ) We spent almost 2 hours shopping for grocery and we found ourselves carrying plastic bags of chocolate, cookies, toiletries and canned food. As we did not want to go off early, we planned for a KTV session after dinner, thus, we booked a timeslot at Red Box in Tebrau before continuing with our journey (this time round, in search of the seafood restaurant in Senibong) whereas I decided to snooze, but not for long because they managed to locate the place within 20 minutes.
It was a good dinner - We tucked into fresh Canadian oysters, chilli crabs, fried squids, ostrich meat in black pepper sauce and garlic-fried kale : D~ (I remember feeling fatter that night) The bill came to about 260RM, which was aboout 40 bucks per person. Value-for-money eh?
Before heading to Red Box to croon our lungs away, we went to search for Compressed Natural Gas. This time round, it took about 45 minutes as the roads were dark. Anyway, it was worth it as Fat Boy paid less than 10RM for a full tank worth of gas! Feeling happy, we went to Red Box for our 4-hour singing session before leaving Johor Bahru at 1am...By the time I reached home, I was gone x (
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Final Chapter
After a year plus of our fair share of joy, laughter, tears and heartache, the chapter is closed - We decided not to pursue any further. Guess I have hurt him too much with my tantrums and dilemma to the extent he is not able to love me anymore.
Though we reconciled 2 weeks back, things were no longer the same anymore - Phonecalls, emails and SMSes were kept to the bare minimum. He no addressed me "Baby". He didn't care that I went to Vino Vino for the wine buffet (and got knocked out afterwards) Even his specialty dishes of cabbage rice and vinegar chicken wings, which he loved to cook for me, lacked lustre. He didn't even want to share his problems with me. From these, I knew it. Things were no longer the same, and would not be the same anymore. Regardless how much I wanted to avoid facing the cold hard truth, I had to face it..sooner or later.
I couldn't sleep the whole night yesterday. I had been thinking of how we were so happy together despite the occasional hiccups, how rowdy we could be in gatherings (Yes, we were the livewires), how things went wrong (Yes, my fault for not being decisive enough) and what I could do to be a better person (Crap, in short, how to salvage the whole situation which was falling off bits and pieces) I decided to do anything just to make things work, provided he was willing (Yes, that was the first step, to find out if he still loved me)
Sending SMSes to him had become a challenge. He used to cringe and rebutted adoringly at my nonsensical SMSes which included "I hate you to the core" and "I want to leave", but now no. Anyway, I needed to face the truth. I needed to know if he still loved me - I gathered my courage and texted him - "Should I continue to pursue or give up?" His reply came almost instaneously - "I think we better remained as good friends as you mentioned. My threshold has been breached" (Ha! What more can I say? Love has died and nothing can make it come back) My final reply to him was "Fair enough, I will not pursue anymore. The love was just not strong enough to withstand problems. I will disappear from your life". Oh yes, I was shattered by the way, but what could I do? He didn't know that he was that important to me and that I was prepared to be with him for the rest of my life. Anyway, I always believe that it's meaningless to persuade and convince the other party for acceptance when love dies. No matter how painful it is for me to let it go, I have to let it go : / (Never in my life did I expect this happen. Never. I thought he would always be there for me. Unconditionally.)
Goodbye King Kong, you know I once loved you. You know I was even ready to be your bride. Everything has turned into ashes of memories now because of your inability to forgive and forget. You will always be in my heart. I will miss you very much.
Though we reconciled 2 weeks back, things were no longer the same anymore - Phonecalls, emails and SMSes were kept to the bare minimum. He no addressed me "Baby". He didn't care that I went to Vino Vino for the wine buffet (and got knocked out afterwards) Even his specialty dishes of cabbage rice and vinegar chicken wings, which he loved to cook for me, lacked lustre. He didn't even want to share his problems with me. From these, I knew it. Things were no longer the same, and would not be the same anymore. Regardless how much I wanted to avoid facing the cold hard truth, I had to face it..sooner or later.
I couldn't sleep the whole night yesterday. I had been thinking of how we were so happy together despite the occasional hiccups, how rowdy we could be in gatherings (Yes, we were the livewires), how things went wrong (Yes, my fault for not being decisive enough) and what I could do to be a better person (Crap, in short, how to salvage the whole situation which was falling off bits and pieces) I decided to do anything just to make things work, provided he was willing (Yes, that was the first step, to find out if he still loved me)
Sending SMSes to him had become a challenge. He used to cringe and rebutted adoringly at my nonsensical SMSes which included "I hate you to the core" and "I want to leave", but now no. Anyway, I needed to face the truth. I needed to know if he still loved me - I gathered my courage and texted him - "Should I continue to pursue or give up?" His reply came almost instaneously - "I think we better remained as good friends as you mentioned. My threshold has been breached" (Ha! What more can I say? Love has died and nothing can make it come back) My final reply to him was "Fair enough, I will not pursue anymore. The love was just not strong enough to withstand problems. I will disappear from your life". Oh yes, I was shattered by the way, but what could I do? He didn't know that he was that important to me and that I was prepared to be with him for the rest of my life. Anyway, I always believe that it's meaningless to persuade and convince the other party for acceptance when love dies. No matter how painful it is for me to let it go, I have to let it go : / (Never in my life did I expect this happen. Never. I thought he would always be there for me. Unconditionally.)
Goodbye King Kong, you know I once loved you. You know I was even ready to be your bride. Everything has turned into ashes of memories now because of your inability to forgive and forget. You will always be in my heart. I will miss you very much.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Wedding Day
If not for my Gramps who woke me up at 6:18am, I would have been late for Sworn Sista's wedding last Saturday (Yes, you heard it right. 6:18am) I jumped out of bed, took a quick shower before changing into my turquoise top and black skirt and dusting my face with powder (Hello clogged pores!) I was fortunate that everything went well (At least I did not look like a Chinese opera singer : P )
Took a cab and reached her house at about 7:20am and was surprised to know that we were too early (Dammit! I could have saved 5 bucks!) The entourage was slacking around and having slices of banana and walnut cake for breakfast whereas Sworn Sista was sitting in her room with the makeup artiste applying all kinds of colours on her face. Feeling bored, I started to fiddle with my mobile phone and reading the newspapers (There was simply nothing much to talk, except for formalities : ( ) I freaked out when the bridegroom and his entourage reached at 8:40am (He was 40 minutes late!) We executed the gatecrashing games and I must say that they were not exactly exciting. We did the usual by asking them to do the push-ups and drink some weird concoction : / (The only time that invoked my excitement was the ang pow negotiation - We managed to squeeze 288 bucks)
We proceeded to Hort Park for photoshooting : / It was so damn hot under the blaring sun that I could feel my makeup melting. Argh! And the worst thing was that we had to smile despite feeling all hot and sweaty (No wonder professional models are paid well - They have to endure sweaty armpits yet put on their glamourous smiles) Was quite glad that the bridegroom entourage was fun-loving and proactive (Else, I would have rot from boredom)
Final destination was the bridegroom's house at Ang Mo Kio. We had our long-awaited buffet lunch and rest : / (Unfortunately, the food sucks) Well, while Sworn Sista and her hubby were performing the wedding rituals, we were bumming around and watching television : / At that point of time, I was getting restless due to lack of sleep : ( It was a long wait before they wrapped up everything and one of the members from the bridegroom entourage drove us home. Woohoo!
Took a cab and reached her house at about 7:20am and was surprised to know that we were too early (Dammit! I could have saved 5 bucks!) The entourage was slacking around and having slices of banana and walnut cake for breakfast whereas Sworn Sista was sitting in her room with the makeup artiste applying all kinds of colours on her face. Feeling bored, I started to fiddle with my mobile phone and reading the newspapers (There was simply nothing much to talk, except for formalities : ( ) I freaked out when the bridegroom and his entourage reached at 8:40am (He was 40 minutes late!) We executed the gatecrashing games and I must say that they were not exactly exciting. We did the usual by asking them to do the push-ups and drink some weird concoction : / (The only time that invoked my excitement was the ang pow negotiation - We managed to squeeze 288 bucks)
We proceeded to Hort Park for photoshooting : / It was so damn hot under the blaring sun that I could feel my makeup melting. Argh! And the worst thing was that we had to smile despite feeling all hot and sweaty (No wonder professional models are paid well - They have to endure sweaty armpits yet put on their glamourous smiles) Was quite glad that the bridegroom entourage was fun-loving and proactive (Else, I would have rot from boredom)
Final destination was the bridegroom's house at Ang Mo Kio. We had our long-awaited buffet lunch and rest : / (Unfortunately, the food sucks) Well, while Sworn Sista and her hubby were performing the wedding rituals, we were bumming around and watching television : / At that point of time, I was getting restless due to lack of sleep : ( It was a long wait before they wrapped up everything and one of the members from the bridegroom entourage drove us home. Woohoo!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Worry Wart
I refused to wake up just now. It was such a cold and rainy day - Perfect for hiding under the warm blanket and sleep : D~ (Then again, since I am on half day today, what more can I ask for? : P ) Feeling so damn lazy, I am dressed in a grey racerback top, my new From The Sixties skirt and my shiny black flip flops (Hey, that completes the Friday dressdown look eh?)
I thought my hair woes are over. No more nasty flyaway hair and looking messy with my new ironed ramrod straight tresses. No more wasting 10 minutes every morning preening in front of the mirror. Well, I was wrong. I think I look like Goofy with my flat hair : ( Argh, forget it..I should just be contented with it eh? Anyway, Sunshine Boy, Sharon, Panda and Adam commented that I looked good. That's all it matters : D
Have been surfing the Net to gather ideas on makeup : ( I am feeling so stressed up. I hardly use cosmetics and since this time round, I have to look "made-up" on Sworn Sista's wedding day, I am so damn afraid to look erm...ugly. Have thought of not wearing any makeup (just me, my eyeliner and my lipstick), but I reckoned I would look too plain standing beside the bride and everybody else : ( Damn! To make sure that everything goes went tomorrow (Yes, tomorrow), I practised applying the shimmery eyeshadow and hmmm, I guess I looked fine? I must try not to drink too much water tonight else my eyes swelled like fishballs when I wake up the next day? I fear that I would look bloated because it's going to the time of the month, hence, water retention is perfectly common (Fuck, why must it be at this time!) Gee, I just hope everything will turn out fine.
Hey, wait a minute. Why am I behaving like the bride? Damn.
I thought my hair woes are over. No more nasty flyaway hair and looking messy with my new ironed ramrod straight tresses. No more wasting 10 minutes every morning preening in front of the mirror. Well, I was wrong. I think I look like Goofy with my flat hair : ( Argh, forget it..I should just be contented with it eh? Anyway, Sunshine Boy, Sharon, Panda and Adam commented that I looked good. That's all it matters : D
Have been surfing the Net to gather ideas on makeup : ( I am feeling so stressed up. I hardly use cosmetics and since this time round, I have to look "made-up" on Sworn Sista's wedding day, I am so damn afraid to look erm...ugly. Have thought of not wearing any makeup (just me, my eyeliner and my lipstick), but I reckoned I would look too plain standing beside the bride and everybody else : ( Damn! To make sure that everything goes went tomorrow (Yes, tomorrow), I practised applying the shimmery eyeshadow and hmmm, I guess I looked fine? I must try not to drink too much water tonight else my eyes swelled like fishballs when I wake up the next day? I fear that I would look bloated because it's going to the time of the month, hence, water retention is perfectly common (Fuck, why must it be at this time!) Gee, I just hope everything will turn out fine.
Hey, wait a minute. Why am I behaving like the bride? Damn.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
What The Hell!
Dammit. I've got slammed by one of Sworn Sista's former classmates for uploading the so-called saucy pictures of the Hen Party. (What's so saucy about doing a blowjob on a fake penis and wearing a red bra over her own clothes?) Funny, since they could behave so wildly and rowdily during the session, I cannot believe they are so conservative in that sense.
I removed the 2 albums immediately and thought that everything was fine, but she continued to slam me by saying that I was rude to upload those pictures despite requests not to do so (What the hell, was she dreaming or what? I didn't even recall her saying that!) Anyway, I fully regret turning up for the fucking party and being the fucking photographer. I thought they were fun-loving souls like Rightie and Adeline, but what the hell! A bunch of conservative bitches! Even when I reminded her not to be so offensive as we are going to meet this coming Saturday and assured her that I had already removed the pictures, she was so damn sarcastic about it! She thanked me for uploading and removing the pictures so efficiently. What a bitch. If not for my Sworn Sista, I wouldn't have been so damn polite! What the fuck!
The worse thing is that I went to tell my Sworn Sista about the whole incident and that I would not be going for the day event as I did not want to face that bitch. She said that I shouldn't have uploaded those pictures and that she was angry that I was going to play her out and ignored me. What the hell. As sworn sisters, she couldn't understand my predicament. Well, if she insists that I go, I guess I just go...it's her big day. Hmmm, see how it goes.
What the hell. A happy occasion turned sour.
I removed the 2 albums immediately and thought that everything was fine, but she continued to slam me by saying that I was rude to upload those pictures despite requests not to do so (What the hell, was she dreaming or what? I didn't even recall her saying that!) Anyway, I fully regret turning up for the fucking party and being the fucking photographer. I thought they were fun-loving souls like Rightie and Adeline, but what the hell! A bunch of conservative bitches! Even when I reminded her not to be so offensive as we are going to meet this coming Saturday and assured her that I had already removed the pictures, she was so damn sarcastic about it! She thanked me for uploading and removing the pictures so efficiently. What a bitch. If not for my Sworn Sista, I wouldn't have been so damn polite! What the fuck!
The worse thing is that I went to tell my Sworn Sista about the whole incident and that I would not be going for the day event as I did not want to face that bitch. She said that I shouldn't have uploaded those pictures and that she was angry that I was going to play her out and ignored me. What the hell. As sworn sisters, she couldn't understand my predicament. Well, if she insists that I go, I guess I just go...it's her big day. Hmmm, see how it goes.
What the hell. A happy occasion turned sour.
Girls' Art Tools
After much pondering, I decided to attend my sworn sista's Hen Party at Ootique in Boat Quay last Friday. I was right, it did feel awkward to mingle and act chummy with people whom I am not close to (even from secondary school days) The North Indian vegetarian food fare was crap - fried cheese french fries, fried okra that looked so damn pathetic, cheesy naan that tasted so damn flat and papadum that lost its crunch long ago : ( However, credit must be given to the Truth Or Dare games thaht we played. We flashed red bras; threw bras out of the window, pulled down our pants and be spanked, french-kissed one another and even bared our boobs : P (I have certified a red-hot straight as I felt disgusting kissing members from the same gender. Yay~! I prefer guys any time!)
After 45 minutes of sickening games, we proceeded to the "Hot Room" where all the sex toys were displayed. Felt in love with a pink dildo and topped 2 bucks on top of my 25 credits : D~ Headed to Molly Malone's for drinks and supper when we couldn't get a quiet spot at The Caraven (Fortunately, there was Sunshine Boy who helped us to get a long table and glad he was around; I was so bored)
Throughout the outing, they were talking about HDB flats, wedding procedures and people whom I do not know...Tried joining in the conversation, but my enthusiasm died within seconds as I have not reached their stage : ( I really felt like kicking myself. Hard. However, I heard that lotsa photoshoots would be taken on that day, hence, I had been thinking if I should give in to cosmetics : / All along my face is steered clear of compact powder and blusher because I strongly believed that they would blog my big pores...
Anyway, I've decided to give in. It's an important event and I do not want to pale in comparison with her friends, whom I believed would have multiple colours on their faces on that day. Walked into Skin Food yesterday and bought a sweet potato essence compact powder (Whoa, didn't know that the humble root would appear in cosmetics), pink blusher pot, light orangey lipgloss as well as a silvery eyeshadow pot! The colours sound nice, but I am not sure how the combination would turn out. Wish me all the best alright!
After 45 minutes of sickening games, we proceeded to the "Hot Room" where all the sex toys were displayed. Felt in love with a pink dildo and topped 2 bucks on top of my 25 credits : D~ Headed to Molly Malone's for drinks and supper when we couldn't get a quiet spot at The Caraven (Fortunately, there was Sunshine Boy who helped us to get a long table and glad he was around; I was so bored)
Throughout the outing, they were talking about HDB flats, wedding procedures and people whom I do not know...Tried joining in the conversation, but my enthusiasm died within seconds as I have not reached their stage : ( I really felt like kicking myself. Hard. However, I heard that lotsa photoshoots would be taken on that day, hence, I had been thinking if I should give in to cosmetics : / All along my face is steered clear of compact powder and blusher because I strongly believed that they would blog my big pores...
Anyway, I've decided to give in. It's an important event and I do not want to pale in comparison with her friends, whom I believed would have multiple colours on their faces on that day. Walked into Skin Food yesterday and bought a sweet potato essence compact powder (Whoa, didn't know that the humble root would appear in cosmetics), pink blusher pot, light orangey lipgloss as well as a silvery eyeshadow pot! The colours sound nice, but I am not sure how the combination would turn out. Wish me all the best alright!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
That Damn Pig
Have been feeling demoralized since the whole of last month because I thought I would fall flat in sales this month. Fortunately, activities have picked up and well, I must say it is not going to be that bad afterall : )
Well, it has been 3 good days that we did not communicate...(Gee, how should I continue from here?) I don't know how things turn out to be like that..(or perhaps, I have seen it coming, sooner or later) I was already very angry by his devil-may-care attitude before last Sunday; I guess I snapped when he did not turn up for the Mid Autumn Festival gathering - I felt so damn cheated. He promised to accompany me! Besides, it was supposed to be our 1st Mid Autumn Festival together (Argh! That pig!) In my pique, I told him that I did not want to spend my life waiting for him and I would not contact him. Ever.
In the past, when I threw such tantrums, he would try his best to humor me and things would resume to normal. Recently, it's no longer like that - He would just leave me alone or even sometimes flare up. Things got worse; even the smallest issue got out of hand and became a major problem. When we became tired of going round and round in circles for a certain problem, we adjourned to another day and multiple minor issues snowballed...There is never a day we did not quarrel and both of us were emotionally drained (Hey, I just want him to humor me!)
For the past 3 days, I have been thinking long and hard. What should I do? Swallow humble pie and call him? Retain my royal pride and wait for him to call? Ignore him forever and move on? I have no idea. What happens if I call him? Will things go back to what was long long time before when we were so happy and lovey dovey or when we were sparring with sarcasm everyday? What happens if he has changed which explains the bad behavior? Wouldn't I be a bloody fool if I were to break the ice? Perhaps, I should continue to wait because if he does, it means I am still very important to him? Or cast him out of my life and move onto another guy? (Awwww...it's a waste : ( )
Sent my Nokia phone for repairs last Sunday. The Sony Ericsson phone that I am carrying right now belongs to him and I am supposed to return it to him once I collect my own phone; then again...I have been dilly-dallying because I don't know when is the right time to return it to him. *Sigh!* Alright, I think I will continue to wait. If he doesn't call, at least I have a Sony Ericsson phone : / Deal.
This is how I felt last Sunday. Damn that pig.
Well, it has been 3 good days that we did not communicate...(Gee, how should I continue from here?) I don't know how things turn out to be like that..(or perhaps, I have seen it coming, sooner or later) I was already very angry by his devil-may-care attitude before last Sunday; I guess I snapped when he did not turn up for the Mid Autumn Festival gathering - I felt so damn cheated. He promised to accompany me! Besides, it was supposed to be our 1st Mid Autumn Festival together (Argh! That pig!) In my pique, I told him that I did not want to spend my life waiting for him and I would not contact him. Ever.
In the past, when I threw such tantrums, he would try his best to humor me and things would resume to normal. Recently, it's no longer like that - He would just leave me alone or even sometimes flare up. Things got worse; even the smallest issue got out of hand and became a major problem. When we became tired of going round and round in circles for a certain problem, we adjourned to another day and multiple minor issues snowballed...There is never a day we did not quarrel and both of us were emotionally drained (Hey, I just want him to humor me!)
For the past 3 days, I have been thinking long and hard. What should I do? Swallow humble pie and call him? Retain my royal pride and wait for him to call? Ignore him forever and move on? I have no idea. What happens if I call him? Will things go back to what was long long time before when we were so happy and lovey dovey or when we were sparring with sarcasm everyday? What happens if he has changed which explains the bad behavior? Wouldn't I be a bloody fool if I were to break the ice? Perhaps, I should continue to wait because if he does, it means I am still very important to him? Or cast him out of my life and move onto another guy? (Awwww...it's a waste : ( )
Sent my Nokia phone for repairs last Sunday. The Sony Ericsson phone that I am carrying right now belongs to him and I am supposed to return it to him once I collect my own phone; then again...I have been dilly-dallying because I don't know when is the right time to return it to him. *Sigh!* Alright, I think I will continue to wait. If he doesn't call, at least I have a Sony Ericsson phone : / Deal.
This is how I felt last Sunday. Damn that pig.
Monday, September 15, 2008
With Love, for the 3rd Time
My dearest gal,
I am not in the least fine! Sales have been going downhill - Everybody's waiting for their year-end bonuses and it doesn't help that I have a bloody bitch for a colleague, who will not hesitate to snatch my candidates..It happened a couple of times and apparently, I am at a loss. Argh! The only thing I can look forward to is wait for her to relocate to Hong Kong (She's going to set up a physical branch there)
Mid Autumn Festival was fine - Instead of spending with the usual bunch of Huiling, Stephen and the Kau, I went to my Godpa's house to celebrate with the SPI members : ) Fun. I know! If not for Dickie Boi, I doubt you would have mooncakes! He asked me what I wanted to buy for you, but I had no idea : ( I had wanted to buy plushies for you to hug but decided not to, at the thought of the excess baggage penalty when you come back! I believe you know that he spent about 200 bucks on that box of mooncakes eh? : P
Yes! I am so angry by the astrocious delay in your reply! Well, I can understand how you feel because everytime when I received your mail, tears would well in my eyes : ( (Guess we are all emotional people eh?)
Whoa! I've always thought thatJapan
How did you feel that you told Dickie Boi that you wanted to put a full-stop to the relationship? How did he react? I hope not violent eh? Actually, I sympathise with him - He gives me the feeling that he loves you alot and that he will do anything to make you happy. A couple of months back when I met him at his mobile phone shop (At that point of time, you guys were not back together), he was ultra depressed and he seemed very lost...I was very sad for him, to be very frank. I tried hard to get him out of the shell, but the more I attempted, the more he blocked me from his inner world...Then again, since you have already made up your mind and done the deed, what can I say, except to support you morally?
I can understand where you are coming from. It's so painful just to communicate via emails, phone and MSN; regardless how convenient it is, it can never be compared to physical presence. I would still prefer going out for dinners, movies and having heart-to-heart talks. In the past, I used to think that reasons of "we are incompatible" cited by couples who broke up were euphemisms of "we don't love each other that much", then again, the former might be true..In this rat race society, it's much convenient to break up and find the next guy rather than digging up the issues and patching the gaps. Don't you think so? Harsh, but that's reality.
Yup, I did mention that in life, we have to choose between living a life with somebody who cared for us but whom we know will never be the one or leading one in lifelong pursue for that elusive one whom might never be found. Initially, I thought the former guarantees happiness so long as we are contented, but no. Living with somebody whom you do not love with your heart is painful...Not being with somebody whom you love is also torturing. Going round in theoretical circles? Perhaps.
Soulmate? Hahaha..it makes me wonder if soulmates really exist. I thought I have found my dream guy whom I have been looking for. I thought we can be very open about anything under the sun and moon. I thought I am also whom he has been looking for throughout his whole life and that he would love me unconditionally. I was wrong. He's just a normal guy who has to slog his guts out to make ends meet and I am just a normal girl whose greed for his attention and pampering is neverending. Dream partners? You decide : )
Heartless? Many people, including Gramps, said that I am very heartless and senseless to let the Kau go after 5 years of time, money and feelings. Who actually knows what's behind the scenes? Afterall, I am the one who is going to spend the rest of life with him, not them. Who cares? Guess it goes for you too. If you feel that it's not right, don't commit, else you will sink even deeper and God knows how and when you are going to redeem yourself..Life is too short for redemption...
Whoa, it's not just the language and culture that you are keen in, you are also interested in Japanese guys eh? : P It's a great feeling to have one or two flings overseas, provided you are able to let go when the need arises, otherwise, please do not play with fire. I am just afraid that you are attracted to him because you are lonely right now...and of course, I am terrified that he might see you as somebody he can go to bed with! >: ( Not all Japanese guys are Kaneshiro Takeshi-s alright! Guys who simply want to lure you to their bed always try to invoke your sympathy by weaving heartbreaking stories of their past relationships..(Been there, done that and I felt so damn stupid)
Hahaha...when did you become so superstitious? : P True, the ah po did mention that you are in the debt of the Rooster and she did also say that you can just treat them to meals, nothing else..She did not say that you must marry or go to bed with a Rooster eh? : P Gemini! Hahaha...beware, Gemini people are flirtatious rascals (like me) : P Take it with a pinch of salt, needless to be so worried about it..
No problem, I love your mails, I do not mind if they are long, but I will definitely scream if they are short! Gee...I do miss you, girl : ) When are you coming back?
Missing you and your girlish giggles,
(In the midst of a suck and aimless life too..waiting...)
I am not in the least fine! Sales have been going downhill - Everybody's waiting for their year-end bonuses and it doesn't help that I have a bloody bitch for a colleague, who will not hesitate to snatch my candidates..It happened a couple of times and apparently, I am at a loss. Argh! The only thing I can look forward to is wait for her to relocate to Hong Kong (She's going to set up a physical branch there)
Mid Autumn Festival was fine - Instead of spending with the usual bunch of Huiling, Stephen and the Kau, I went to my Godpa's house to celebrate with the SPI members : ) Fun. I know! If not for Dickie Boi, I doubt you would have mooncakes! He asked me what I wanted to buy for you, but I had no idea : ( I had wanted to buy plushies for you to hug but decided not to, at the thought of the excess baggage penalty when you come back! I believe you know that he spent about 200 bucks on that box of mooncakes eh? : P
Yes! I am so angry by the astrocious delay in your reply! Well, I can understand how you feel because everytime when I received your mail, tears would well in my eyes : ( (Guess we are all emotional people eh?)
Whoa! I've always thought that
How did you feel that you told Dickie Boi that you wanted to put a full-stop to the relationship? How did he react? I hope not violent eh? Actually, I sympathise with him - He gives me the feeling that he loves you alot and that he will do anything to make you happy. A couple of months back when I met him at his mobile phone shop (At that point of time, you guys were not back together), he was ultra depressed and he seemed very lost...I was very sad for him, to be very frank. I tried hard to get him out of the shell, but the more I attempted, the more he blocked me from his inner world...Then again, since you have already made up your mind and done the deed, what can I say, except to support you morally?
I can understand where you are coming from. It's so painful just to communicate via emails, phone and MSN; regardless how convenient it is, it can never be compared to physical presence. I would still prefer going out for dinners, movies and having heart-to-heart talks. In the past, I used to think that reasons of "we are incompatible" cited by couples who broke up were euphemisms of "we don't love each other that much", then again, the former might be true..In this rat race society, it's much convenient to break up and find the next guy rather than digging up the issues and patching the gaps. Don't you think so? Harsh, but that's reality.
Yup, I did mention that in life, we have to choose between living a life with somebody who cared for us but whom we know will never be the one or leading one in lifelong pursue for that elusive one whom might never be found. Initially, I thought the former guarantees happiness so long as we are contented, but no. Living with somebody whom you do not love with your heart is painful...Not being with somebody whom you love is also torturing. Going round in theoretical circles? Perhaps.
Soulmate? Hahaha..it makes me wonder if soulmates really exist. I thought I have found my dream guy whom I have been looking for. I thought we can be very open about anything under the sun and moon. I thought I am also whom he has been looking for throughout his whole life and that he would love me unconditionally. I was wrong. He's just a normal guy who has to slog his guts out to make ends meet and I am just a normal girl whose greed for his attention and pampering is neverending. Dream partners? You decide : )
Heartless? Many people, including Gramps, said that I am very heartless and senseless to let the Kau go after 5 years of time, money and feelings. Who actually knows what's behind the scenes? Afterall, I am the one who is going to spend the rest of life with him, not them. Who cares? Guess it goes for you too. If you feel that it's not right, don't commit, else you will sink even deeper and God knows how and when you are going to redeem yourself..Life is too short for redemption...
Whoa, it's not just the language and culture that you are keen in, you are also interested in Japanese guys eh? : P It's a great feeling to have one or two flings overseas, provided you are able to let go when the need arises, otherwise, please do not play with fire. I am just afraid that you are attracted to him because you are lonely right now...and of course, I am terrified that he might see you as somebody he can go to bed with! >: ( Not all Japanese guys are Kaneshiro Takeshi-s alright! Guys who simply want to lure you to their bed always try to invoke your sympathy by weaving heartbreaking stories of their past relationships..(Been there, done that and I felt so damn stupid)
Hahaha...when did you become so superstitious? : P True, the ah po did mention that you are in the debt of the Rooster and she did also say that you can just treat them to meals, nothing else..She did not say that you must marry or go to bed with a Rooster eh? : P Gemini! Hahaha...beware, Gemini people are flirtatious rascals (like me) : P Take it with a pinch of salt, needless to be so worried about it..
No problem, I love your mails, I do not mind if they are long, but I will definitely scream if they are short! Gee...I do miss you, girl : ) When are you coming back?
Missing you and your girlish giggles,
(In the midst of a suck and aimless life too..waiting...)
Letter From Japan (The 3rd One!)
Hi gal,
How have you been recently? I hope this email find you well.
How was mid-autumn's festival for you? Had fun? Needless to say, I did not celebrate the festival this year except for eating the mooncakes =P
I know you must be blaming me for the atrociously long time I take to reply to your previous mail! But honestly, I find myself a little short of tearing everytime I think of writing home. I did rather talk online you know, just there and then... no time for emotional rushes like what I am experiencing right now while composing this email to you.
Let's start with the weather. The weather has turned cooler now which I will be eternally grateful for, as the weather the past few weeks has been incredulously hot and humid. It was the monsoon period with heavy rain, but unfortunately the rain did not relieve any of the summer's heat but worsen it by causing the atmosphere to become damp and sticky. However, tonight was breezy with a slight autumn feel to it. The weather was nice and I did went out for dinner but I returned home in a foul mood. Let me let you on to the reason soon...
What I am about to tell you will be so much easier to say if I had met you online tonight, but I guess you must be already in bed as you have to work the next day. It is a national holiday in Japan tomorrow, that's why I can afford the luxury of staying up late tonight ^ ^ Okay, I wonder if you knew about it but just last week I chatted with Dickson online and I told him to cast thoughts about our relationship aside and focus on his career or what he intends to achieve in the near future. I mentioned that I thought it was best for us to remain as very good friends first and we should only discuss matters between us after I return from Japan. I felt that it was kinda pointless for us to harp on our feelings for each other when we are so far apart. As much as I hate to conform to stereotypical views that long-distance relationships more often than not come to no good an end, I can't deny that distance do play apart in diluting the feelings between a couple. Of course we can always communicate through chat applications and emails etc, but it could never be compared to the physical presence, for example, going out for dinner, to the movies, chatting at a cafe or even the sense of touch... if you get my point. To make matters worse, you are aware that right from the start, Dickson and I have nothing much in common to talk about right? We could hardly keep up an online conversation except for the formalities like so how's life, what have you been doing lately, complaints about how unfulfilling life can be etc... yeah~~ as can be noted, both of us are not helping each other out much. You know, our online conversations do end off unpleasantly at times. I am always pretty amazed at how we could fight even when we hadn't seen each other for months and when we hadn't been spending much time with each other. Sometimes, I look back and think about what went wrong and as I look back further into the past 7 years that we have been together, I realized that the root of the problem was right at the start of the relationship when we started to discover that our personalities were incompatible. I remembered that 7 years ago, you once mentioned that Dickson and I were unsuited in terms of personality and background but you said that it was obvious that he did care for me and that I have to choose between living a life with someone who cared for me but whom I know will never be the one or I could continue with my search for the one who might never be found. At that time, I thought that perhaps if you are really in love with a person, it doesn't matter if he or she is your soulmate or not. However, I guess after 7 years of endless disputes, I finally understand that if the other party is not your soulmate, the love you two once shared will erode among the many fights, arguments and unhappiness. Of course, I must say that there are blissful moments too, but the friction somehow just outweighs it all and love can't grow in this state, can it? Like what I have mentioned before, adaptation is a very scary thing. After arriving in Japan and being displaced from my comfort zone, I then realise that perhaps Dickson and I are just too used to being together and are too afraid of stepping out from our relationship, because we fear of having no one to fall back on just in case things don't work out well. As a result, I have been thinking about it slow and hard these days and I came to a conclusion that I should let this relationship go, in order to search for this soulmate whom could possibly never been found. Thus, I broke the news to Dickson about staying as friends while I am in Japan. What do you think? Have I made a right choice? I don't know... perhaps you might say that I am heartless to let go of a relationship made up of 7 years of time, effort and feelings. I know that after all, Dickson has done much for me too and my decision might be unfair to him... but don't you think that if we were to drag this and remain together, more harm would be done? At least in either way, my conscience wouldn't be clear, would it?
Then here comes another problem... This is terrible. I am all alone here and I have absolutely no one to discuss this with and I am going beserk! Allow me to backtrack and explain why I was in such a lousy mood earlier tonight which could otherwise be a calm and nostalgic mid-autumn festival night. What I am telling you now is strictly for your eyes only okay? Please keep this hushed and DO NOT tell anyone about it especially Dickson or gramp's/family to avoid any unnecessary worrying or stir-ups. I trust that you can do this for me right? After all, we have been sharing secrets since young ^ ^
I have this Japanese guy friend who I meet up with like once every week. I can't say for sure that he is interested in me but hell, we do click right on. Seriously, we could talk about almost anything under the sun and even though my Japanese isn't that good or is his Japanese that perfect, we could somehow still manage to communicate at ease. I feel kinda comfortable with him and I think we do laugh a lot in each other's presence. However, as far as that goes, I do not know much about his character though. After all, we have only went out for slightly more than 5 times... I must say that I am kinda drawn to him and I thought that perhaps we do have a certain chemistry between us... until tonight, the faithful mid-autumn night which left me on the verge of pulling all my hair out.
After dinner tonight, we started talking about our past relationships and sharing our experiences. Apparently this guy just broke off with his ex slightly more than 2 weeks ago, exact reason unknown. He just attributed the break-up to the incompatibility of their personalities. Before his official break-up, he did kinda tell him that he was going to do it but at that time I didn't think anything of it because I have yet to feel anything for him. Right now, I am not very sure of how I feel too, as I am unclear of what this sick to the guts kind of feeling that I experienced and am experiencing now after he told me earlier that he is currently uninterested in finding a girlfriend at this moment of time and that he hasn't met anyone that he could fall in love with right now. So you 'pak kah' cousin has for once in her life made a wrong judgement about whether the chemistry shared between us was mutual or not. He really gave me the feeling that he was interested in me you know and I have mistaken it, now that I know that his interest is not in a romantic fashion but perhaps directed towards a foreigner in Japan whereby he is just eager to learn more about different lifestyles and cultures. Boy, I was really fooled, wasn't I? By the unanimous agreement on most issues, similar feelings held during certain situations and the once in a week meeting. At first I thought that the constant meeting every week at least proves that he was was a tad bit interested in me? But now I realise that I was duped by my own wishful thinking. However, he did really gave me the feeling that he might be interested... how and exactly what he said or did, I don't quite remember but your 'pak kah' cousin will most likely from now on be more 'pak kah' than ever I guess. It's kinda amazing that I can be attracted to someone under the condition of tougher than usual communication, different cultures and backgrounds. What do you think I should do now? Should I stop myself from falling even harder and deeper into this abyss which I can see no bottom? I am completely at a loss. As much as I wish for something to work out between us, but now looking back, it seems that we have went out for 6 times and if he feels something, he should at least have some response or something right? Or is it too quick or are Japanese just as 'pak kah' as your cousin?
Sighhh... I am really confused and I don't know what to think anymore. Any slightest waver of hope in me was completely snubbed out when he told me earlier that he wasn't interested in being in a relationship right now and that he is waiting to meet the someone who clicks with him and that he could fall in love with. Yeah~~ I am practically non-existent before him I guess. So the feeling of being able to click with him was just purely me being delusional. I simply feel like puking at the thought of that. I wonder if I should meet him again or perhaps I should just run away and avoid contact to save my betraying heart first. However, I might lose out on a very good friend... Do you remember what Ah Po said before I left for Japan? She said that I was in the debt of the rooster right? Now thinking of it... what did she exactly mean? I don't quite remember. As in I will have to repay them this life or that I will owe them in this life? Does it mean that they will haunt me for my debt this life? Or that I will owe them or have I already owed them? Haha... sorry, it must be confusing... it's kinda scary because judging from how I ranted about how much we clicked and stuff, you may have already guess that he is like my dearest cousin, a Gemini and he's a 1981. Scary, isn't it? I hadn't knew any rooster close to me except for gramp's before I left for Japan and suddenly out pops one. I was shocked at how coincidental it all seems at first. However I am afraid that he's here to collect the debt. According to what Ah Po said, does it mean that I have to repay him now or that I will owe him something in future? Crap, my emotional vulnerability is obviously leaving me way too superstitious for my own good...
Pheww... I guess I really have written too much about my problems in this email. I'm really sorry if this is hurting your eyes. I can perfectly understand why because my head swells too whenever I retrace the cramped and longwinded grandmother story that I have written. Thanks so much for bearing with me and I really would value your advice and opinions. Oh by the way, please let me know your recent condition and do let me hear of your problems too if you have any!
Missing all at home dearly...
(In the midst of a sucky and aimless life, revolving around ridiculous illusions)
How have you been recently? I hope this email find you well.
How was mid-autumn's festival for you? Had fun? Needless to say, I did not celebrate the festival this year except for eating the mooncakes =P
I know you must be blaming me for the atrociously long time I take to reply to your previous mail! But honestly, I find myself a little short of tearing everytime I think of writing home. I did rather talk online you know, just there and then... no time for emotional rushes like what I am experiencing right now while composing this email to you.
Let's start with the weather. The weather has turned cooler now which I will be eternally grateful for, as the weather the past few weeks has been incredulously hot and humid. It was the monsoon period with heavy rain, but unfortunately the rain did not relieve any of the summer's heat but worsen it by causing the atmosphere to become damp and sticky. However, tonight was breezy with a slight autumn feel to it. The weather was nice and I did went out for dinner but I returned home in a foul mood. Let me let you on to the reason soon...
What I am about to tell you will be so much easier to say if I had met you online tonight, but I guess you must be already in bed as you have to work the next day. It is a national holiday in Japan tomorrow, that's why I can afford the luxury of staying up late tonight ^ ^ Okay, I wonder if you knew about it but just last week I chatted with Dickson online and I told him to cast thoughts about our relationship aside and focus on his career or what he intends to achieve in the near future. I mentioned that I thought it was best for us to remain as very good friends first and we should only discuss matters between us after I return from Japan. I felt that it was kinda pointless for us to harp on our feelings for each other when we are so far apart. As much as I hate to conform to stereotypical views that long-distance relationships more often than not come to no good an end, I can't deny that distance do play apart in diluting the feelings between a couple. Of course we can always communicate through chat applications and emails etc, but it could never be compared to the physical presence, for example, going out for dinner, to the movies, chatting at a cafe or even the sense of touch... if you get my point. To make matters worse, you are aware that right from the start, Dickson and I have nothing much in common to talk about right? We could hardly keep up an online conversation except for the formalities like so how's life, what have you been doing lately, complaints about how unfulfilling life can be etc... yeah~~ as can be noted, both of us are not helping each other out much. You know, our online conversations do end off unpleasantly at times. I am always pretty amazed at how we could fight even when we hadn't seen each other for months and when we hadn't been spending much time with each other. Sometimes, I look back and think about what went wrong and as I look back further into the past 7 years that we have been together, I realized that the root of the problem was right at the start of the relationship when we started to discover that our personalities were incompatible. I remembered that 7 years ago, you once mentioned that Dickson and I were unsuited in terms of personality and background but you said that it was obvious that he did care for me and that I have to choose between living a life with someone who cared for me but whom I know will never be the one or I could continue with my search for the one who might never be found. At that time, I thought that perhaps if you are really in love with a person, it doesn't matter if he or she is your soulmate or not. However, I guess after 7 years of endless disputes, I finally understand that if the other party is not your soulmate, the love you two once shared will erode among the many fights, arguments and unhappiness. Of course, I must say that there are blissful moments too, but the friction somehow just outweighs it all and love can't grow in this state, can it? Like what I have mentioned before, adaptation is a very scary thing. After arriving in Japan and being displaced from my comfort zone, I then realise that perhaps Dickson and I are just too used to being together and are too afraid of stepping out from our relationship, because we fear of having no one to fall back on just in case things don't work out well. As a result, I have been thinking about it slow and hard these days and I came to a conclusion that I should let this relationship go, in order to search for this soulmate whom could possibly never been found. Thus, I broke the news to Dickson about staying as friends while I am in Japan. What do you think? Have I made a right choice? I don't know... perhaps you might say that I am heartless to let go of a relationship made up of 7 years of time, effort and feelings. I know that after all, Dickson has done much for me too and my decision might be unfair to him... but don't you think that if we were to drag this and remain together, more harm would be done? At least in either way, my conscience wouldn't be clear, would it?
Then here comes another problem... This is terrible. I am all alone here and I have absolutely no one to discuss this with and I am going beserk! Allow me to backtrack and explain why I was in such a lousy mood earlier tonight which could otherwise be a calm and nostalgic mid-autumn festival night. What I am telling you now is strictly for your eyes only okay? Please keep this hushed and DO NOT tell anyone about it especially Dickson or gramp's/family to avoid any unnecessary worrying or stir-ups. I trust that you can do this for me right? After all, we have been sharing secrets since young ^ ^
I have this Japanese guy friend who I meet up with like once every week. I can't say for sure that he is interested in me but hell, we do click right on. Seriously, we could talk about almost anything under the sun and even though my Japanese isn't that good or is his Japanese that perfect, we could somehow still manage to communicate at ease. I feel kinda comfortable with him and I think we do laugh a lot in each other's presence. However, as far as that goes, I do not know much about his character though. After all, we have only went out for slightly more than 5 times... I must say that I am kinda drawn to him and I thought that perhaps we do have a certain chemistry between us... until tonight, the faithful mid-autumn night which left me on the verge of pulling all my hair out.
After dinner tonight, we started talking about our past relationships and sharing our experiences. Apparently this guy just broke off with his ex slightly more than 2 weeks ago, exact reason unknown. He just attributed the break-up to the incompatibility of their personalities. Before his official break-up, he did kinda tell him that he was going to do it but at that time I didn't think anything of it because I have yet to feel anything for him. Right now, I am not very sure of how I feel too, as I am unclear of what this sick to the guts kind of feeling that I experienced and am experiencing now after he told me earlier that he is currently uninterested in finding a girlfriend at this moment of time and that he hasn't met anyone that he could fall in love with right now. So you 'pak kah' cousin has for once in her life made a wrong judgement about whether the chemistry shared between us was mutual or not. He really gave me the feeling that he was interested in me you know and I have mistaken it, now that I know that his interest is not in a romantic fashion but perhaps directed towards a foreigner in Japan whereby he is just eager to learn more about different lifestyles and cultures. Boy, I was really fooled, wasn't I? By the unanimous agreement on most issues, similar feelings held during certain situations and the once in a week meeting. At first I thought that the constant meeting every week at least proves that he was was a tad bit interested in me? But now I realise that I was duped by my own wishful thinking. However, he did really gave me the feeling that he might be interested... how and exactly what he said or did, I don't quite remember but your 'pak kah' cousin will most likely from now on be more 'pak kah' than ever I guess. It's kinda amazing that I can be attracted to someone under the condition of tougher than usual communication, different cultures and backgrounds. What do you think I should do now? Should I stop myself from falling even harder and deeper into this abyss which I can see no bottom? I am completely at a loss. As much as I wish for something to work out between us, but now looking back, it seems that we have went out for 6 times and if he feels something, he should at least have some response or something right? Or is it too quick or are Japanese just as 'pak kah' as your cousin?
Sighhh... I am really confused and I don't know what to think anymore. Any slightest waver of hope in me was completely snubbed out when he told me earlier that he wasn't interested in being in a relationship right now and that he is waiting to meet the someone who clicks with him and that he could fall in love with. Yeah~~ I am practically non-existent before him I guess. So the feeling of being able to click with him was just purely me being delusional. I simply feel like puking at the thought of that. I wonder if I should meet him again or perhaps I should just run away and avoid contact to save my betraying heart first. However, I might lose out on a very good friend... Do you remember what Ah Po said before I left for Japan? She said that I was in the debt of the rooster right? Now thinking of it... what did she exactly mean? I don't quite remember. As in I will have to repay them this life or that I will owe them in this life? Does it mean that they will haunt me for my debt this life? Or that I will owe them or have I already owed them? Haha... sorry, it must be confusing... it's kinda scary because judging from how I ranted about how much we clicked and stuff, you may have already guess that he is like my dearest cousin, a Gemini and he's a 1981. Scary, isn't it? I hadn't knew any rooster close to me except for gramp's before I left for Japan and suddenly out pops one. I was shocked at how coincidental it all seems at first. However I am afraid that he's here to collect the debt. According to what Ah Po said, does it mean that I have to repay him now or that I will owe him something in future? Crap, my emotional vulnerability is obviously leaving me way too superstitious for my own good...
Pheww... I guess I really have written too much about my problems in this email. I'm really sorry if this is hurting your eyes. I can perfectly understand why because my head swells too whenever I retrace the cramped and longwinded grandmother story that I have written. Thanks so much for bearing with me and I really would value your advice and opinions. Oh by the way, please let me know your recent condition and do let me hear of your problems too if you have any!
Missing all at home dearly...
(In the midst of a sucky and aimless life, revolving around ridiculous illusions)
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Tennis & Dinner Outing
My arms are aching right now (Argh!) Met up with my university mates for tennis at Toa Payoh Safra yesterday afternoon. Skinny Bones was supposed to turn up as well, but he did not. Tried calling him a couple of times, but he did not pick up his phone (How irresponsible)
It was tough playing tennis after a long while : / I have lost all coordination and endurance (Does that mean that I have aged?) and I think the number of tennis balls I picked up was more than the number of times I returned a serve : ( It didn't help that I couldn't see properly with my mailboy cap (That was to prevent UV rays from eating into my skin. Vanity rules eh?) After 2 hours of tennis, or rather ball-picking, we were totally drained : / Went to take a quick shower before hopping onto the cab to Chinatown for dinner! : D (The best part of all outings)
We went to 天津楼 for Chinese cuisine. Dinner was initially planned to be at Kuishin-Bo - I vetoed since I don't like buffets (It's either you stuff yourself or you leave the restaurant feeling short-changed) The food at the Chinese restaurant was not bad and it was not too expensive either; at the very least, we walked out feeling satisfied : ) Strolled around Chinatown to burn the excess calories while looking out for dessert shops : P As it was the eve of the Mid-Autumn Festival, the streets were bustling with activities : ) Finally, we settled for a small dessert shop - Had mango sago with pomelo whereas the rest had beancurd with mango puree (Ewww...)
We were chatting happily when Zhaoxin startled the rest of us with her question - "Joanne, have you ever considered Wai Kin?" My jaws dropped and seeing that Bud had no reaction, I went about to shoot her back "How to consider him when he has never even considered me? Anyway, he liked you in the first place" (Yes, my bad) Arghhhhhh......Actually, it has been an open secret that he has something for me since our university days, but due to several factors, we never got together. Well, I could feel it when the rest dared me to french kiss him on one Christmas gathering - It was supposed to be a 10-second dare, but ultimately, somebody had to pull us apart : P
Hmmm...Best buddies? Tick. Best project partner? Tick. Best paparazzi partner? Tick. Lovers? (.........................)
It was tough playing tennis after a long while : / I have lost all coordination and endurance (Does that mean that I have aged?) and I think the number of tennis balls I picked up was more than the number of times I returned a serve : ( It didn't help that I couldn't see properly with my mailboy cap (That was to prevent UV rays from eating into my skin. Vanity rules eh?) After 2 hours of tennis, or rather ball-picking, we were totally drained : / Went to take a quick shower before hopping onto the cab to Chinatown for dinner! : D (The best part of all outings)
We went to 天津楼 for Chinese cuisine. Dinner was initially planned to be at Kuishin-Bo - I vetoed since I don't like buffets (It's either you stuff yourself or you leave the restaurant feeling short-changed) The food at the Chinese restaurant was not bad and it was not too expensive either; at the very least, we walked out feeling satisfied : ) Strolled around Chinatown to burn the excess calories while looking out for dessert shops : P As it was the eve of the Mid-Autumn Festival, the streets were bustling with activities : ) Finally, we settled for a small dessert shop - Had mango sago with pomelo whereas the rest had beancurd with mango puree (Ewww...)
We were chatting happily when Zhaoxin startled the rest of us with her question - "Joanne, have you ever considered Wai Kin?" My jaws dropped and seeing that Bud had no reaction, I went about to shoot her back "How to consider him when he has never even considered me? Anyway, he liked you in the first place" (Yes, my bad) Arghhhhhh......Actually, it has been an open secret that he has something for me since our university days, but due to several factors, we never got together. Well, I could feel it when the rest dared me to french kiss him on one Christmas gathering - It was supposed to be a 10-second dare, but ultimately, somebody had to pull us apart : P
Hmmm...Best buddies? Tick. Best project partner? Tick. Best paparazzi partner? Tick. Lovers? (.........................)
Monday, September 8, 2008
Happy Weekends!
I was super sick last Saturday evening and though lying on the bed was the best solution, I sneaked out of the house to meet King Kong who came all the way in the rainy weather (Yes, I missed him) Still in my home clothes, we took Bus 147 to his place (Well, he promised to nurse me back to health : P ) It was a bad journey - I was having coughing fits as it was cold yet stuffy in the bus : ( Fortunately, he was there for me to punch, pinch and smack, so it was not so bad : P (Well, my happiness at his expense, what more can I say?)
Back at his place, as he was afraid that I might be hungry, he immediately set down to kitchen and whipped up a pot of vermicelli with shrimps, pork balls and chunks in hot soup. Despite persistent refusals to eat due to the fear of gaining weight, I drank a few mouthfuls of soup and chomped several pork balls at his insistence. Though I must say that it did not taste really fantastic, it warmed my heart : D I felt loved. As I was feeling lethargic, I went to bed after watching "3 Good Men" on SCV...Too bad. I had wanted to stare at the tube longer : ( I was fortunate to survive the night - I was coughing badly and many a time, I couldn't really breathe. Mucus and flem choked my breathing apparatus and I really felt suffocated. I couldn't recall the number of times he woke up to pull the blanket on me and to get me water : /
I slept till 11am the next day - He woke me up to have brunch. He had woken up earlier to cook porridge, oyster-sauced chicken wings and soya-sauced beancurd strips with hard boiled eggs : ) Typical of him on Sunday mornings : ) Continued to watch TV programmes on SCV and I continued to snooze till 4pm. Woke up to watch repeated telecasts of Channel 8 programmes until I ate dinner of claypot rice cooked by his daddy. I must say that he is a much better cook than his folks (It could be the addition of MSG though he denies : P )
At about 8:30pm, we left his place to take Bus 147 to Rocher to satisfy my craving for ice cold beancurd : D~ Only then was I satisfied to go home : /
He always says that money is not always a consideration to have happy weekends, well...maybe? But one thing for sure is that he always makes me wanting him more. Why?
Back at his place, as he was afraid that I might be hungry, he immediately set down to kitchen and whipped up a pot of vermicelli with shrimps, pork balls and chunks in hot soup. Despite persistent refusals to eat due to the fear of gaining weight, I drank a few mouthfuls of soup and chomped several pork balls at his insistence. Though I must say that it did not taste really fantastic, it warmed my heart : D I felt loved. As I was feeling lethargic, I went to bed after watching "3 Good Men" on SCV...Too bad. I had wanted to stare at the tube longer : ( I was fortunate to survive the night - I was coughing badly and many a time, I couldn't really breathe. Mucus and flem choked my breathing apparatus and I really felt suffocated. I couldn't recall the number of times he woke up to pull the blanket on me and to get me water : /
I slept till 11am the next day - He woke me up to have brunch. He had woken up earlier to cook porridge, oyster-sauced chicken wings and soya-sauced beancurd strips with hard boiled eggs : ) Typical of him on Sunday mornings : ) Continued to watch TV programmes on SCV and I continued to snooze till 4pm. Woke up to watch repeated telecasts of Channel 8 programmes until I ate dinner of claypot rice cooked by his daddy. I must say that he is a much better cook than his folks (It could be the addition of MSG though he denies : P )
At about 8:30pm, we left his place to take Bus 147 to Rocher to satisfy my craving for ice cold beancurd : D~ Only then was I satisfied to go home : /
He always says that money is not always a consideration to have happy weekends, well...maybe? But one thing for sure is that he always makes me wanting him more. Why?
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Walking Inferno
I am feeling so damn sick right now..with a heavy head, stuck nose and a bad throat : ( Guess it might be last Tuesday evening rain (Dammit! I should have waited for it to stop), the smooth durian snowskin mooncakes from Marriott Hotel (Man! I cannot stop gorging!) and the late nights (Have been sleeping at 1am because I am hooked on the 12am Taiwanese drama serial) Man, I have become such a whiner! >: ( Regardless, I am a walking inferno now though I have slept the whole afternoon away and drunk gallons of water! (Man, at this point of time, health is apparently more important than anything else)
I must say that last month sales was bad (for me) : ( Couldn't believe that the sales figure on the board was only S$11K (Yes, my eyes popped out) Many of my candidates rejected offers and clients couldn't back fast enough - I felt like pulling my hair out. The only consolation was that I had closed a considerable number of temporary and contractual positions : / It was indeed demoralizing for somebody who had rot in the industry for 3 years to have such "glamorous" results : / I thought this month would be eqally bad now that the market is rather sluggish (The future's bleak) Fortunately, I managed to close a Cost Accountant deal last Friday. Met up with the candidate and tried my best to prep him up and guess what? Everything was sealed on the spot : D (What can be sweeter than one shot one kill?)
Met up with Fat Boy after work and we went to Orchard Road to have dinner. Initially had wanted to try out Island Cafe at Tang's, but the menu was rather limited and he didn't look too interested either, hence, we walked to Takashimaya to try out Mr Sushi, a small eatery on the same level as Cold Storage. We had grilled fish with rice and miso soup (I had mirin saba, whereas he had teriyaki salmon) The bill came to 20 bucks and well, it was worth it. No wonder it was so crowded - We waited for 20 minutes before we got a seat : )
We strolled around Orchard Road after dinner. He had wanted to step into the crowded mooncake fair to buy 金华火腿 mooncakes from Goodwood Park Hotel for Gramps, but I refused as I was not feeling very well (God knows if I would faint in the crowd) Had wanted to catch a movie, but there were no good shows around after Wall.E. What a shame. We went home as I wanted to catch the last episode of "Crime Hunters" (Now you know I am a TV junkie?) After the show, I continued with "A Chinese Ghost Story" followed by "Troublesome Night 2" and yes, my bedtime yesterday was 3am : P I am surprised myself that I could sit in front of the tube for 4 hours straight : D Not sure if there are any good programmes tonight? : P
P/S: The TV set is the best invention of human mankind.
I must say that last month sales was bad (for me) : ( Couldn't believe that the sales figure on the board was only S$11K (Yes, my eyes popped out) Many of my candidates rejected offers and clients couldn't back fast enough - I felt like pulling my hair out. The only consolation was that I had closed a considerable number of temporary and contractual positions : / It was indeed demoralizing for somebody who had rot in the industry for 3 years to have such "glamorous" results : / I thought this month would be eqally bad now that the market is rather sluggish (The future's bleak) Fortunately, I managed to close a Cost Accountant deal last Friday. Met up with the candidate and tried my best to prep him up and guess what? Everything was sealed on the spot : D (What can be sweeter than one shot one kill?)
Met up with Fat Boy after work and we went to Orchard Road to have dinner. Initially had wanted to try out Island Cafe at Tang's, but the menu was rather limited and he didn't look too interested either, hence, we walked to Takashimaya to try out Mr Sushi, a small eatery on the same level as Cold Storage. We had grilled fish with rice and miso soup (I had mirin saba, whereas he had teriyaki salmon) The bill came to 20 bucks and well, it was worth it. No wonder it was so crowded - We waited for 20 minutes before we got a seat : )
We strolled around Orchard Road after dinner. He had wanted to step into the crowded mooncake fair to buy 金华火腿 mooncakes from Goodwood Park Hotel for Gramps, but I refused as I was not feeling very well (God knows if I would faint in the crowd) Had wanted to catch a movie, but there were no good shows around after Wall.E. What a shame. We went home as I wanted to catch the last episode of "Crime Hunters" (Now you know I am a TV junkie?) After the show, I continued with "A Chinese Ghost Story" followed by "Troublesome Night 2" and yes, my bedtime yesterday was 3am : P I am surprised myself that I could sit in front of the tube for 4 hours straight : D Not sure if there are any good programmes tonight? : P
P/S: The TV set is the best invention of human mankind.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Rain
I was feeling so damn lethargic the whole day; might be the late night drinking session with Adeline, Sunshine Boy, Sharon and Isaac at Boat Quay the previous night. It was supposed to be a short "drink-and-go" affair, but there were so much bitching and catching up that we forgot the time : ) (I was surprised that I could walk in a straight line after 2 pints of Hoegaarden. Does that mean I am a better drinker now? : P ) Back to today, hell yeah, I was as dead as a fish; lunch was not as interesting as on other days : x By late evening, I felt heat and fatigue eating into me (I thought I was going to be sick, which was a good thing as I could apply for medical leave tomorrow : ) ) Anyway, supposed to go dinner with King Kong, but apparently, he had to do his stuff and yes, I was stood up (for the 3rd time)
Feeling ultra pissed, I headed straight home and I was a walking inferno with heat, fatigue and madness boiling in me (Some colleague unwittingly asked me why my face was so red, as if I applied rouge - She forgot I was "allergic" to cosmetic) Took the train back and when I stepped out of the MRT station, I realized it was drizzling and I did not have my brolly with me (Damn!) Too angry with every single thing, I walked in the rain and realized that the inferno in me was doused. Though I was drenched when I came home, I felt happier. I didn't realize that occasional walks in the rain could be fun (Nature huh?) Had bak kut teh for dinner with Brother at Alexandra Village. It felt nice slurping hot soup in such cold weather : )
As for last Sunday, I was supposed to meet up with King Kong for dinner after my oily massage and cold wraps, but he was tied up (Yeah, that was the 2nd time) Not wanting to go home and have lonely dinner, I rang Fat Boy up to see if he was keen to accompany me. Met him at Yishun MRT and he took me to Orchidville - He had patronized the restaurant with his colleagues and thought that it was not bad. Though I didn't really fancy the restaurant (The menu looked boring), I must say that the place was quite nice; it was lined with pots of different kinds of orchids and the best thing was that each pot of orchid was not expensive. Good for green-finger wannabes : )
We ultimately ended up at Muthu's in Little India for dinner and feeling full from the curry fish head, masala chicken and cabbage, we had a stroll and I bought a Ganesha clay figurine and a jasmine garland before we went to Loyang Tua Pek Kong Temple to offer incense : )
Feeling ultra pissed, I headed straight home and I was a walking inferno with heat, fatigue and madness boiling in me (Some colleague unwittingly asked me why my face was so red, as if I applied rouge - She forgot I was "allergic" to cosmetic) Took the train back and when I stepped out of the MRT station, I realized it was drizzling and I did not have my brolly with me (Damn!) Too angry with every single thing, I walked in the rain and realized that the inferno in me was doused. Though I was drenched when I came home, I felt happier. I didn't realize that occasional walks in the rain could be fun (Nature huh?) Had bak kut teh for dinner with Brother at Alexandra Village. It felt nice slurping hot soup in such cold weather : )
As for last Sunday, I was supposed to meet up with King Kong for dinner after my oily massage and cold wraps, but he was tied up (Yeah, that was the 2nd time) Not wanting to go home and have lonely dinner, I rang Fat Boy up to see if he was keen to accompany me. Met him at Yishun MRT and he took me to Orchidville - He had patronized the restaurant with his colleagues and thought that it was not bad. Though I didn't really fancy the restaurant (The menu looked boring), I must say that the place was quite nice; it was lined with pots of different kinds of orchids and the best thing was that each pot of orchid was not expensive. Good for green-finger wannabes : )
We ultimately ended up at Muthu's in Little India for dinner and feeling full from the curry fish head, masala chicken and cabbage, we had a stroll and I bought a Ganesha clay figurine and a jasmine garland before we went to Loyang Tua Pek Kong Temple to offer incense : )
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