Well, it has been 3 good days that we did not communicate...(Gee, how should I continue from here?) I don't know how things turn out to be like that..(or perhaps, I have seen it coming, sooner or later) I was already very angry by his devil-may-care attitude before last Sunday; I guess I snapped when he did not turn up for the Mid Autumn Festival gathering - I felt so damn cheated. He promised to accompany me! Besides, it was supposed to be our 1st Mid Autumn Festival together (Argh! That pig!) In my pique, I told him that I did not want to spend my life waiting for him and I would not contact him. Ever.
In the past, when I threw such tantrums, he would try his best to humor me and things would resume to normal. Recently, it's no longer like that - He would just leave me alone or even sometimes flare up. Things got worse; even the smallest issue got out of hand and became a major problem. When we became tired of going round and round in circles for a certain problem, we adjourned to another day and multiple minor issues snowballed...There is never a day we did not quarrel and both of us were emotionally drained (Hey, I just want him to humor me!)
For the past 3 days, I have been thinking long and hard. What should I do? Swallow humble pie and call him? Retain my royal pride and wait for him to call? Ignore him forever and move on? I have no idea. What happens if I call him? Will things go back to what was long long time before when we were so happy and lovey dovey or when we were sparring with sarcasm everyday? What happens if he has changed which explains the bad behavior? Wouldn't I be a bloody fool if I were to break the ice? Perhaps, I should continue to wait because if he does, it means I am still very important to him? Or cast him out of my life and move onto another guy? (Awwww...it's a waste : ( )
Sent my Nokia phone for repairs last Sunday. The Sony Ericsson phone that I am carrying right now belongs to him and I am supposed to return it to him once I collect my own phone; then again...I have been dilly-dallying because I don't know when is the right time to return it to him. *Sigh!* Alright, I think I will continue to wait. If he doesn't call, at least I have a Sony Ericsson phone : / Deal.
This is how I felt last Sunday. Damn that pig.
