I am not in the least fine! Sales have been going downhill - Everybody's waiting for their year-end bonuses and it doesn't help that I have a bloody bitch for a colleague, who will not hesitate to snatch my candidates..It happened a couple of times and apparently, I am at a loss. Argh! The only thing I can look forward to is wait for her to relocate to Hong Kong (She's going to set up a physical branch there)
Mid Autumn Festival was fine - Instead of spending with the usual bunch of Huiling, Stephen and the Kau, I went to my Godpa's house to celebrate with the SPI members : ) Fun. I know! If not for Dickie Boi, I doubt you would have mooncakes! He asked me what I wanted to buy for you, but I had no idea : ( I had wanted to buy plushies for you to hug but decided not to, at the thought of the excess baggage penalty when you come back! I believe you know that he spent about 200 bucks on that box of mooncakes eh? : P
Yes! I am so angry by the astrocious delay in your reply! Well, I can understand how you feel because everytime when I received your mail, tears would well in my eyes : ( (Guess we are all emotional people eh?)
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How did you feel that you told Dickie Boi that you wanted to put a full-stop to the relationship? How did he react? I hope not violent eh? Actually, I sympathise with him - He gives me the feeling that he loves you alot and that he will do anything to make you happy. A couple of months back when I met him at his mobile phone shop (At that point of time, you guys were not back together), he was ultra depressed and he seemed very lost...I was very sad for him, to be very frank. I tried hard to get him out of the shell, but the more I attempted, the more he blocked me from his inner world...Then again, since you have already made up your mind and done the deed, what can I say, except to support you morally?
I can understand where you are coming from. It's so painful just to communicate via emails, phone and MSN; regardless how convenient it is, it can never be compared to physical presence. I would still prefer going out for dinners, movies and having heart-to-heart talks. In the past, I used to think that reasons of "we are incompatible" cited by couples who broke up were euphemisms of "we don't love each other that much", then again, the former might be true..In this rat race society, it's much convenient to break up and find the next guy rather than digging up the issues and patching the gaps. Don't you think so? Harsh, but that's reality.
Yup, I did mention that in life, we have to choose between living a life with somebody who cared for us but whom we know will never be the one or leading one in lifelong pursue for that elusive one whom might never be found. Initially, I thought the former guarantees happiness so long as we are contented, but no. Living with somebody whom you do not love with your heart is painful...Not being with somebody whom you love is also torturing. Going round in theoretical circles? Perhaps.
Soulmate? Hahaha..it makes me wonder if soulmates really exist. I thought I have found my dream guy whom I have been looking for. I thought we can be very open about anything under the sun and moon. I thought I am also whom he has been looking for throughout his whole life and that he would love me unconditionally. I was wrong. He's just a normal guy who has to slog his guts out to make ends meet and I am just a normal girl whose greed for his attention and pampering is neverending. Dream partners? You decide : )
Heartless? Many people, including Gramps, said that I am very heartless and senseless to let the Kau go after 5 years of time, money and feelings. Who actually knows what's behind the scenes? Afterall, I am the one who is going to spend the rest of life with him, not them. Who cares? Guess it goes for you too. If you feel that it's not right, don't commit, else you will sink even deeper and God knows how and when you are going to redeem yourself..Life is too short for redemption...
Whoa, it's not just the language and culture that you are keen in, you are also interested in Japanese guys eh? : P It's a great feeling to have one or two flings overseas, provided you are able to let go when the need arises, otherwise, please do not play with fire. I am just afraid that you are attracted to him because you are lonely right now...and of course, I am terrified that he might see you as somebody he can go to bed with! >: ( Not all Japanese guys are Kaneshiro Takeshi-s alright! Guys who simply want to lure you to their bed always try to invoke your sympathy by weaving heartbreaking stories of their past relationships..(Been there, done that and I felt so damn stupid)
Hahaha...when did you become so superstitious? : P True, the ah po did mention that you are in the debt of the Rooster and she did also say that you can just treat them to meals, nothing else..She did not say that you must marry or go to bed with a Rooster eh? : P Gemini! Hahaha...beware, Gemini people are flirtatious rascals (like me) : P Take it with a pinch of salt, needless to be so worried about it..
No problem, I love your mails, I do not mind if they are long, but I will definitely scream if they are short! Gee...I do miss you, girl : ) When are you coming back?
Missing you and your girlish giggles,
(In the midst of a suck and aimless life too..waiting...)
