Realized that my temper is getting from bad to worse throughout the past few years. Not sure why it is so; I used to be meek. Last time whenever somebody took advantage of me, I would just keep quiet and forget about the whole issue. Of course, I did ponder why I was bullied for many days, and the conclusion was: I was too good.
I started to get really rebellious when I was having my 1st 3 month-attachment at Yishun JC. Due to my poor Physics results in the preliminary exams, I couldn't get into the same class as my sworn sister - I was assigned to a different class which Chemistry was one of the core subjects. I was super pissed off and stormed into the office of the Head of Physics Department. I told her that I wanted to change classes because it was pure luck my Chemistry results were slightly better the Physics' and I was more interested in the latter. After half an hour of debating, I emerged the winner : ) She had no choice but to assign me to the class which Sworn Sister was in.
These few days or rather today, the ugly head surfaced again. This morning, the MRT was extremely squeezy and I was in my usual foul mood. While trying to balance myself, I felt somebody stepping on my flats. Pissed, I elbowed him. He was shocked and looked at me in bewilderment. I gave him a dirty look and he backed away.
Months back, I screamed vulgarities at a middle-aged faggot for continuously chiding me: I was standing in front of 3 ATM machines (I would be the next one to use the most immediate available ATM machine). All of a sudden, the middle-aged faggot stood in front of me. At this point of time, I was shocked. Hence, the moment the next immediate ATM machine was available, when he was about to put his foot forward, I beat him to it. He was angry and started to hurl negative comments of "No manners" and "Jump queue". I got so fed up and screamed "fucking faggot" at him. He got worked up and started to scold me that as well. I showed him my middle finger and stormed off in glee : P
Due to the nature of my job, my conversational skills have improved by leaps and bounds and it is inevitable that my poor brain has to spin many times faster than others and words that come out from my mouth are much sharper. Imagine how not to improve when you have to negotiate with the clients, persuade and prep the candidates and so on? I must admit, sometimes, I hurt people intentionally and . . . unintentionally.
