Met up with my university mates for my pre-birthday dinner at Jack's Place in Marina Square after losing some pounds (from water retention : P) through massage and cold wraps : ) Pleased to meet up with them, especially Skinny Bones, once again. Got to know that the latter has been fretting about his hair-thinning problem and is contemplating professional help; he asked for my advice and I was telling him to go for it if it posed as an hindrance to his confidence level : / Guess each and everyone of us here has an image problem and many a time, professional help (which also means money) is the only solution : / (I wish I were richer)
During dinner, received an SMS from King Kong that the tablet was up and running, which gave me a nagging feeling that I must go and have a look. Excused myself after a hearty dinner of garlic steak and lobster bisque to purchase sweets, marshmallow, strawberry milk and chocolate biscuits from Carrefour before catching up with them for coffee session : / As usual, we spoke about matters of the heart, weddings as well as friendships - Shared with them my disappointment with Sworn Sista and they tried consoling me with the rationale of "everybody's busy with their work and other half; it's unintentional" : ( Regardless, nobody or nothing can change the fact that I am truly disappointed in her. However, it was great to let out steam by having them as listeners..
Parted ways earlier as Zhaoxin was feeling unwell. Lugging the heavy bag of goodies, I took a cab to Pasir Ris Drive 1, where the temple celebrations was held (The fare was 20 bucks : ( ) Saw King Kong and gave him the cold shoulder (Actually, I was quite happy to see him, but I just couldn't bring myself to show it on my face) Walked to the area where all the tablets were placed and he pointed to the one with my name. At that very moment, I felt like bursting into tears because I had been feeling tremendously guilty all along. Fortunately, I was able to control my emotions and I placed the goodies on the ground before offering incense. As I didn't know what I should do after that, I stood by the side and wondered if "he" was present (Even so, is there any chance that I can see "him"?) Sensing that I was in a daze, King Kong brought me round the place and I guess I just didn't have the mood to stroll around and be fascinated by the bustling of the other temple helpers : /
Decided to leave after a short while as I didn't want to be engaged in any unnecessary argument with him. Guess the earlier SMSes which explained how disappointed I was when his hands and legs were tied last Monday (I didn't make any mention about how unbalanced I felt during his absence) sufficed - No further explanation was needed. I guess it's too exhausting trying to make things work...It might be easier for the both of us to remain as good friends.
Anyway, recently, maternity instincts seem to kick in - I want to have a baby boy to love and care for. I do not mind the hardship and such...Could it be that I am getting on age, hence, the longing for a kid?
I don't know.
